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You couldn't believe at the mess everything turned into, you just ran through the hallways of the tower while loud sirens echoed, guards who came on your direction were defeated by you with just simple gestures of your hands, no one else dared to cross your path, they looked at you like a monster.

-STOP RIGHT THERE!- The security yelled and pointed their gun at your direction.

-LEAVE ME ALONE!-You shouted.

-STOP AND COME WITH US. NO ONE NEEDS TO GET HURT!

-J...Just let me go...-You were already not handling all that chaos, it was too much, too many sounds, too many feelings.They yelled something more, when they tried to come to you, they got stuck ona frozen wall you made with your own hands-...I said...let me go....

You hurried and got to the hall, outside there wete many police men with their cars and equipment, saying for you to give up.

Why give up on something you didn't even start? You weren't starting a war, you were scared. You wanted to leave, you wanted to think, to process all of that.

-Y/N!-You heard Natasha's voice across the saloon.

You remembered what Tony told you...All of them, and she suggested the therapy thing.

-How could you Nat?-You muttered to her.

-Y/N...Calm down...Let's talk...

-No.-You replied.-I'm done. I'm done of you all trying to make me think otherwise even though I was right. You just...lied to me.

-We were trying to help avoid this...This confusion you are having right now.

-You just thought about yourselves.-You spoke between your teeth with rage.- This isn't help.

-Y/N we are your friends...-Sam who was next to her said.

-No you're not.-You shaked your head.- I guess you've never been.

-I wish things weren't this way...-She said, then touched her earpiece- Clint now.

Everything turned like slow motion. You could hear from far, something being shot at your direction. You turned to see Clint, above hiding, with a gun, a dart getting out of it, coming to you.

You grabbed it in the air at your hands and everything turned back to its normal velocity.

-You...I can't believe this...-You said observing the trabquilizer dart in your hand.

-Shit.-You heard Sam swear- Plan B!

They came on your direction running, but you were faster and used your powers throwing them away against the walls. High above where Clint was you frozened his arms on the walls, unable to shoot anything at you.

-Y/N...?-You heard the scared voice of Wanda behind you.

You turned to see your friend, staring amused at the scene in front of her eyes. She was part of the people who didn't know. The people who actually were by your side.

-Wanda...I...I don't know what's happening...-You answered afraid.

-Why are they attacking you?

-There's something wrong with me...All this time they knew...There's so much I don't understand...

-I'm here for you if you need.-She spoke with confidence.

-Thank you.

You smiled and hugged her, then directed yourself to the doors, seeing the big number of cops outside.

You standed your hand on the window and all of them were pushed away by a wave of energy.

Seeing the opportunity you ran to the streets, mixing between the crowds oblivious of what was happening inside of you.

You weren't just sad, you felt angry and at the same time scared, you'd never imagine something like that would happen to you, you'd never imagine they'd just go ahead and lie to you.

At least Wanda was by your side, but still, where you'd go? Wanting it or not you were a risk to others, you didn't know how to control those powers.

You looked at the glass reflection of a boutique, your eyes were still white. Your hands were like ghey materialized and desmaterialized at the same times, turning into dust and getting back to normal.

You just wanted to talk about that with someone. Just only one person. And ypu just discovered this person was just like the others. You didn't want to believe. Refusing the idea of him being a traitor all this time.

There was only one way to find out.

You reached your cell phome on your pocket, looked at the cold screen for a secomd, hesistating of what you were going to do. Took a deep breath and called him.

-...Steve...?

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Steve's POV

(Moments before Y/N's call)

All of sudden sirens echoed on the tower, you quickly ran to Y/N's to make sure she was safe, but your heart stopped when you noticed she wasn't there.

You went again on the hallway but there was no sign of her.

-What's going on?-Bucky asked getting out of his room.

-Have you seen Y/N?-You asked already anxious.

-No, wasn't she at therapy?

-She was already supposed to be here. What if...What if something happened to her?

-Shit.

-Let's see if Tony knows something.

You both ran to his office, finding the door opened, as you entered you both surprised yourself with the mess inside.

Furniture throwed all over the room, papers on the floor, portraits broken.

-Ugh...Is someone there...?-You heard a weak voice under a bookshelf who was throwed acroos the room.

-Tony?-You asked.

-Steve? Steve get me out of here!-He replied.

You and Bucky held the shelf and took it from him, then, took the table smashed on top of him too. Helped him.get up, still weak and with some injures.

-Damn...cough...cough..-He tried to speak.

-What the hell is happening?-Bucky asked.

-Y/N.-Tony looked at me.-She knows.

-Know what?-Your friend still didn't understand.

You closed your eyes for a moment, trying to keep your calm. You needed to reach her. She must be so confused...so scared...

-How did she react?-You asked.

-Take a look around you.-He showed the mess of the office.-I...I should've told her sooner...-You could see the regret in his eyes.

-Told what? Goddamnit what is going on?!-Bucky asked impatient.

-I need to find her.-Was all you could say. - Where did she go?

-She just started running, I activated the security, Nat, Sam and Clint must be after her by now.

-Why are you doing this? Treating her like criminal? We should talk with her, not chase her!-You shouted angry at him.

-She is dangerous Steve! She almsot killed me! And almost killed Dr.Raynor before coming here!

-Y/N killing someone? What the fuck you're talking about her Stark?! Shut your mouth-Bucky held him by the collar of his shirt.

-How much does she know?-You asked.

-Enough to make her hates us.-He looked intensely in your eyes.- All of us.

You shaked your head trying to remain with your thoughts right. You didn't answer him, just ran away, Bucky yelled something but you ignored, you needed to find her.

But when you got to the hall it was too late. Clint was frozen on a wall. Nat and Sam were getting up on a corner devastated. Wanda standed on the middle of the hall looking at the doors like something just escaped.

-Where is she?-You reached Wanda.

-What did you do to her?-She asked with tears in her eyes.- What happened to her?

-Wanda-

-WHAT DID YOU DO TO HER?-She yelled.

-Steve!-Nat and Sam ran to you.-She just left. Have you seen Clint?

-His up there-You pointed on the wall.

-She freezes people too? Damn.-Sam spoke amused and flew in the direction of the archer to free him.

-Where did she go?-You asked.

-I've got no idea...-Nat said still recovering from her fall.-Wanda where did Y/N go?

-Even if I knew I wouldn't tell you.-She spoke angry.

-What?

-You tried to attack her. I don't know what you all did...But I'll stay by her side.

-I'm not against her Wanda. I love her.-You said.

-Then why is she running scared then Steve?-You could see the anger in her eyes.- You won't coerce me to help you.

And she walked away with her boots making a loud noise at the floor.

-Fuck...What are we going to do?-Natsha passed her hands through her hair stressed.

-I will look around to find her.-You answered.

-Steve.-She said befote you left- Be careful...I know it's Y/N but...That shit she's doing it's dangerous.

-She won't hurt me.-You said leaving the tower and going to the streets.

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You didn't know where to look, you went to the bakery but she wasn't there, isntead, Manuel just told you she went there before, she looked scared of something and didn't want them to get closer.

She wasn't near any of the places by the tower, and the more time passed more worried you got.

That's when your phone rang.

-...Steve...?-You heard her voice through the phone and almost cried relieved.

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Y/N's POV

The Brooklyn was the same as always. With people walking casually towards the streets, ladies on the windows, random dogs playinh with whoever passed by. But that day you were at the bridge admiring that view. Admiring maybe wasn't the best word, but looking at the horizont made you feel less anxious and desperate than you were before.

You could her his strong steps on the floor gettung closer. The cologne the same as always invading all your senses, almost making you high as a drug.

Norman fucking Rockwell by Lana Del Rey playing

You turned and ran to his arms, sinking into his chest like an anchor inside the sea. You cried awfully, sobbing like crazy, as the world around you seemed to be on ruins. Steve squeezed you, in a way to say "I'm here for you".

-Steve...I...I don't know what's happening...-You spoke helpless to him.

He didn't answer probably didn't know how to. Just carressed a hand around your face, making your heart melt inside and you kissed him, kissed him so sttongly like it was the end of the world, like your life depended on it.

When you aparted you almost couldn't breath, but the worse, was his face, his eyes,when you were next to him you'd always see the love in them, but this time they reflected guiltiness.

-Tony said you knew about everything...is...is it true?-You asked afraid of his answer.

Steve looked down, took a deep breath, making you even more nervous, and answered:

-Yes. Yes, I knew.

You stepped back, getting away from his arms, as the cold air embraced you instead.

-You...knew? And never told me? But...I thought...I thought we had no secrets with each other...

-It...It was too dangerous for you to know. We should've told you sooner, I know-

-Have you ever even loved me?-You had an offensive tone in your voice.-All this time...You just were a "way" to keep me under control?

-Of course not, Y/N-

-But you told all my secrets to him...Didn't you?-You stared into his eyes.

-...That...That was before...Before I got turned into your friend, before I fell in love with you.

-THAT DOESN'T JUSTIFY!-You yelled as the tears fell violently.- I...You were the person I most trusted Steve....

-And I trust you too.

-You broke it.-You shaked your head- You broke the only trust I had in someone in years...I dedicated my all to you...I'd die for you.

Tou exhaled heavily and tried to clean the tears but it was no use since they didn't stop.

-I feel...I feel like someone stabbed me. Just stabbed me on my heart. Do you have any idea of how is that?

-Y/N I...I am so sorry-

-You were going to give me to S.H.I.E.L.D?

-No! I was trying to convice Tony to don't do that!

-Trying!-You looked again at the neighbourhood, peaceful, quiet, a total contrast of what you were living through- But when you met me you were going to do it, right?

Steve didn't answer, that just confirmated your question.

-God...-You couldn't even believe- You told me I was overthinking...You told me I was too stressed...All of you...I thought I was crazy...But at the end...!

-I was trying to keep you safe.

-Safe from who?! Hydra? Because it seems like the only ones being honest!

-Don't say that...

-I say it! I trusted all of you. Trusted so blindly that you fooled me. Erased my memory, manipulated me, put a fucking  chip on me!-You were already screaming.- Lied saying that loved me.

-I never lied about that.

-Then what you say it's love isn't.-His blue eyes were ready to cry- Did you know Steve? You were the only person...who made me imagine a future with...I wanted to build a life with you.

-And I still want that life Y/N. I can't imagine it without you.-He walked towards you but you stepoed back.

-Don't.-You spoke.-Please don't.- Your voice sounded weak- Don't play more with my heart I'm begging you...

-My feelings have always been true-

-Don't get closer to me. I don't want to see you anymore.

-Y/N please-

-Never meet me again.

-Y/N we can find a solution to this-

-I will deal with this by my own-You interrupted him- Just like I always did. Like I always should've done.

-Y/N..-A tear fell through his face- I love you.

-And I love you too.-You gave a bitter smile.-Maybe loved you more than I love myself.

You waljed away but he ran after you, but he stopped. You made him paralyze, just like that, still in a running position. You could hear his thoughts, beggung for you to stay, saying that he loved you, and that was like torture to you.

-Steve please stop...-Your voice sounded like a whisper. You put a hand on his face.- You just keep breaking my heart into pieces....

You walked away, and when you were already far enough you set him free.

Steve's POV

You fell on the floor when she freed you, got up and started running, yelling her name as the people around you looked like you were insane.

The rain came pouring like knives from the sky, as the memories you had with her slapped your face.

And you wishrd Y/N was wrong but she wasn't. She had the total right to feel like that, you wasn't honest, but your feelings always were. And because of that, when she left, you felt like a part of yourseld died.

-Y/N!-You kept screaming runnung through the rain, tripping and falling on the wet hard ground.-Y/N...

Got up agaun and ran, but she was already gone, and no matter what you wouldn't be able to find her now.

You looked at the Brooklyn, all the memories, all the future you two would have.

You took the paper inside of your pocket, protecting it from the rain:

"Rental Agreement

Month to Month

Property document on Brooklyn, apartment 101, number 200, on Albany Av.

Signed by Steve Rogers"

-This future will still be ours... That's not how it was supposed to be...

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Y/N's POV

It was like the ground beneath your feet has been broken, you couldn't even walk without remembering him, the pain, how you were suffering.

And when you less expected, after walking so much, you've found yourself ina familiar street. Maybe that was the only place left that could hide.

You knocked on the door, as you were already soaked and the rain didn't stop, mixing the tears with raindrops in your face.

-Y/N...?-Mrs.Ginger opened the door and gasped- Oh my Lord....What are you doing out there? A-Are you crying?

-Mrs.Ginger...I'm sorry...But I had nowhere else to go...-You muttered.

-Oh dear, come here, let's get you out of this rain-She put an arm around you and put you inside, locking the door behind her.-What happened?

-I've lost everything Mrs.Ginger...everything.