Hello there, i'm sure a few of you know what i'll mean by "talking about recent events", but for those that do not and are curious you can see some of it on my message board if you scroll a bit, and i know 2-N_and_Uzi-2 along with Shirleyis_okay had made report books for the guy with how some things went down over on his actual account before it got banned.

now then, although i don't know everyone who got involved's usernames; i am still very much thankful for you doing so, i'm extremely thankful for those trying to be civil and get him off of my back, i'm thankful for those coming up with creative ways to devour him with every letter in your sentences, i'm grateful for those who stood aside and only reported him silently, and of course i'm very grateful for anyone who simply spammed that report button like it was no tomorrow.

i wish that i was able to get everyone's usernames, because i want to thank them personally, but it's pretty hard to find traces of them with his account being gone and such. However, luckily for me, i do know a few of them! so with that being said;

Thank you, KokoIsL0co, Shirleyis_okay and Melanie_Martinez_555 the three people in which i hold an extremely close relationship with (platonically) that all did their best in order to help me both with the dropping mental health, and the guy in general. I am a little sad that it got to the point of other people getting involved, and i'm extremely sorry to Abby/Kat for him telling you to kys - you, nor anyone else, don't deserve anything like that to be said.

Regarding other people i had known before the whole situation; cheezyblazers100, 2-N_and_Uzi-2, Raemon_Shirogami, -Asa_No_Y0ru-, UltimateShipp3r, gremlinrah, -KUYA-, UltimateShipp3r, Hello once again <3 i really wanted to give you all a massively huge thank you for getting involved and/or simply coming to check up on me and try your best in comforting.

You all seriously mean the fucking world to me, and i honestly think things would have been so much worse in some ways more than one if nobody had done what they had. I might not have been able to respond to most of you, but i am forever going to remember this (shit) experience and you lovely friends/aquaintances of mine stepping in when i needed it <3

I seriously do wish there was more i could do in order to actually thank you and it MEAN something, i'm not completely sure how to go around it or anything, but i seriously am really grateful and happy you were all here for me one way or another. And i do hope anything *he* said hasn't completely rushed through your head..

And, with the new people i have met due to the situation (that i know the usernames of at least), hello, CrazyManiacKisser, -fatherlesshoe, RubiesAsRedAsRoses, TheOfficial_Bish, CoralSLAAAY23, -Mia_Editz-, Eliza4everr, yippeeeez77, and thank you highly for everything that you've all manage to do.

I seriously can't seem to grasp the words in order to express the strong gratitude, admiration and respect for all of you lovely people (and those i shamefully didn't manage to get their usernames). You are all extremely nice people, and i really do love that you all have tried everything in your powers in making me feel a little bit better during the situation, and even after the situation here on wattpad. I'm very glad that some of you had went to him personally and gave him a chew out whichever way you had <3 

And regarding those i have recently met due to whatever (i'm kind of just assuming it was one way or another a little mixed in with this situation. But either way, HELLO <3) the case, i'm grateful for you all as well <3 whether you knew or not, i'm really glad a few of you checked in on me in general.. and talking to some of you right now helps a lot with trying to be more comfortable after everything that had went down. 

now, while i don't exactly feel completely comfortable with sharing everything, i feel like it's a little obligated, you know? Not to mention that i am still needing to deal with him regardless if he's off of Wattpad and such. (i'm avoiding him to the best of my capabilities). So, i do feel like if i really need to vent about something about him, or is in any way in danger BECAUSE of him - you'll hopefully remember and know who i'm talking about.

The account name was @/R1PPED_H3ARTS, his display name was "Yuki" and i will be referring to him as such as although he sort of doxxed my real (first) name at some point on his MB, i don't see much gain in doing so to him. And some basic information to feed you all is our age gap i feel; it's nothing too big - only two years.. but as of today he's nineteen (turns twenty on the 22nd), and i'm seventeen (turns eighteen April 6th), 

i'm in England, and to be honest, don't pay much attention to the laws of my country (probably should go check them out and see what's what actually-) but i am pretty sure seventeen is very well still a minor.. so it's a little more weird adding that brief context?.

Anyway: our friendship began a few years back, it was in secondary (high) school and i was around fifteen or so ― i think that perhaps it was a few months after my birthday, i'm not completely certain ― and he was seventeen years old.

it was a pretty normal friendship i'd say, there was always good times and bad times, rocky roads and bumps along the relationship with him but it was nothing too much to cause any ruckus. He was somebody i honestly held a lot of admiration towards, he was pretty smart and creative with most things he did and surprisingly strong minded.

Yuki had helped me throughout a lot in my life regarding mental and physical well being, and i would say that he was (at the time) one of the most trustworthy people i knew. [and obviously i was wrong-]

the two of us were obviously really close as friends and felt extremely comfortable with one another, i opened up about so much on my life and the way i've been treated with certain things and people, traumatic experiences, etc. i simply trusted him with that load of information.

anyways, skip ahead a few more months, i'm not exactly sure how many but it was as sometime in November that he started to act a little strange around everyone else. He started to avoid me and i obviously came to the bright assumption that i did something to upset him. Whenever i tried to talk to him about it ― whether it was blatantly reaching out to him, asking through friends of one another, messages or notes. ― and eventually he took me to his house after school to "talk about it".

spoiler alert - he never talked about it and just kept avoiding the questions, worries, etc. and if he did mention anything or respond to my concern it was blank and never gave me a real answer, if you know what i mean?

he didn't exactly let me leave the house, so i just assumed silent comforting would make things better and did as such. we played some Wii games to pass the time and i still got nothing from him. But as the time passed on, Yuki got visibly more okay and acted slightly more like his usual self.

he got a lot more clingy, but all was good. At least, up until he left for college : not that it was out of the country or even the general area we lived. it was only a few hours away-- but the more time passed on with him being in college and me still being in Secondary ― going into college ― he started acting really weird. 

by now, Yuki was eighteen and i was still fifteen ― around late December all through until late February ― he always messaged me nonstop and spammed me with anything in order to get a response. If i muted him due to me being busy or not wanting to speak with him at the time, he'd always assume i was with other people and ended up showing hints of aggression in the way he texted me. And if he wasn't busy and had the time, he'd downright just go to my house and if i was there he'd guilt me into spending time with him.

being an ignorant fifteen year old, obviously i was oblivious to the signs of "hey.. this is a little weird, no?" but nope, i can't completely blame myself though being young and naive, happens to the best of us i guess.

Yuki had the tendencies to always mention my peers, family or friends, and use them against me whenever we were in some form of argument, get weirdly jealous, snap at me and hand somewhat empty threats of violence towards them, etc. etc.

Now, time skip a little more and i'm sixteen ― he is still Eighteen ― and my parents decided to pay for a few of the extra GCSE's i needed in order to do certain courses in College which i wanted to [which i find stupid, but my parents wanted to send me to College the moment they could-] and i am not with Yuki once again more often than it had been.

Almost fucking instantly things had went downhill, i sort of assumed that maybe he would stop acting a little weird when we were together again, but nothing good came out of it except a few friendships from other people i met. Whenever he could be, he was always around me.

not even just like next to me, pestering me or anything. I didn't even realise he was always fucking there, literally, until people pointed things out to me.

if i was with somebody else, the guy always made sure to crash in and interrupt the person i was with whenever they tried speaking to me or help me with something. He just always needed the attention on him, always, it was ridiculous.

at this point i started seeing the obvious signs he was into me, but for a few months into college i tried my best to ignore that, though eventually came forward and tried my best to tell him that i didn't see him as nothing more than a close friend.

for obvious reasons, i doubt he understood that however.

anyway, ― trigger warning for this next part ― i have never been the type of person to enjoy much sexual things, i read smut obviously, but i've never in my life wanted to experience that level or even mere touching if i'm being honest. As of currently i'm comfortable with saying that i'm Asexual, however who knows honestly, it could possibly change if i have a partner i trust.. but i HIGHLY doubt it, i've always felt grossed by the thought.

Yuki knows this, he knows it extremely well thanks to some rambling i did and venting [i told you all about one of the times i was harassed i think-]. Regardless : the two of us are watching a film together at my house, my parents were downstairs with my sisters [and at some point left to go shopping or something].

I don't remember the movie at all, and it isn't that needed for explaining the stuff anyway but it was new at the time and neither of us had actually looked up what it was about. It was a comedy horror and had some really hot dude working at a bar though so- ...yeah.. [said guy turned out to be the fattest crush of mine omg]

there was a lot of snacks, comforting blankets, etc. etc. and all was interesting and fun. Yuki kept looking over to me and shuffling around a lot though, i remember moving away at some point because he did something but i'm not sure what he did there. 

during the film and what was supposed to be a fun little hang out, and his way of apologising after some silly arguments between us, he winded up sliding his hand over my knee. which, honestly i guess isn't the worst thing, but it still made me feel weird.

He kept his hand there for a while, and i eventually forgot about it even being there because unlike him i was more interested in the general movie we were watching.

I remember the following all the too vividly, and for obvious reasons i don't exactly feel overly comfortable in speaking about it to it's fullest. Yuki's hand moved higher and higher up, slipping under the skirt i was wearing, now, i should have pushed him off at that point but i didn't ― mostly due to the shock and distaste ―

His hand kept moving up and down slowly, keeping his eyes on me the entire time, which made me feel even furthermore uncomfortable than before. His nails dug into my skin and his thumb rubbed the inside of my thigh. He kept going and leaned closer to me, mumbling some shit ― i can't remember most of it, but some parts were very lewd and perverted, the rest was just something and anything i guess ― 

It was terrible really. And i honestly despise myself for not doing anything about it at the time. Things ended up getting pretty.. messy.. he ended up touching me even more, and such, saying all sorts of things and covering my mouth.

you wanna know the most disgusting part though? not only was it the mere assult in general, but the fact he comes around my house with a fucking bag full of stuff/'toys' (makes me gag just thinking about it)- by now my parents and sisters had left the two of us alone, probably assuming that we were all good watching the movie which he had on a pretty loud volume and all, and i couldn't exactly call people for help or do much about it myself being stuck in the freeze option of "fight or flight".

i'll be frank here, a lot happened before i had the balls and strength to push him away and kick him out of my house before calling my friends up for comfort and general help. It was traumatic and disgusting : though i am thankful i gathered that courage up before he did anything to me himself and not just using the shit he brought along with him.

I stopped talking to him after that and told my parents i never wanted to see him inside the house again, i never told them why ― and still haven't ― but they listened regardless and i was at least somewhat safe inside of my home. 

Yuki can't take no for an answer. i'm sure we all know that by now.

so, the fucking crazy bitch thought it would be a brilliant idea to stalk me more than he usually did. not only that, but threaten me with the thought of him hurting somebody unless i spoke to him again, and actually hurting those who were close to me ― luckily not too much, but i did cut ties with everyone i knew IRL because of him ―.

it was around here that he began acting the way he did and he made things pretty obvious even around other people. It's now the current year of 2024, this entire thing has been going on forever and i'm now seventeen, with him being nineteen ― going to twenty ― years old. It's around the time i took my 'break' from wattpad.

Yuki has sort of left me alone IRL, not getting too close to me but still plainly stalking and harassing me. He has my socials, and although i continue blocking every single account he made, he never fucking stopped making them. He would threaten me, then switch to love bombing me and complimenting me before dirty talking me [as if i'm into that :\] and then making a disgusting message of just his imaginary sex scene with me--

i stopped talking to everyone at that point and completely shut down, tried many things to do shit to make every problem of mine vanish and begone, letting me have that peaceful afterlife i wish for, ― obviously didn't fucking work ―.

It all just got really bad and i needed to get it out of my system so i asked people here what they would do when somebody was cyberstalking them and such. I tried my best to keep things underwraps the best i possibly could.

I ended up going to Yuki's account, it had been his alt and it pisses me off that i never got his main account so i could let all his fans know that he's a genuinely terrible person. either way, i noticed he had my user in his bio.

when we were back as friends, i honestly didn't MIND him having my username in his bio, but only because he classified me as a FRIEND, and had other people inside the darn thing. But this time around it was some shit lovey dovey bullcrap.

I asked him if he could take it out, and also stop with the delusion of us being together : because we are not. But he refused and eventually things ended up escalating a lot and as we all know now, a ton of people got involved [i'm again, thankful for you all.]

He becomes completely childish and any of the intelligent mindset he had before fucking ditched his brain because he 1. couldn't understand a fucking thing anyone was telling him. 2. confidently kept saying how it was all perfectly fine. 3. Told a minor, my best friend; Melanie_Martninez_555 to kill herself. (which i'm SO happy you didn't go with.)

people were trying to be polite, he made things worse and things got so damn messy. [i read a lot of the people's words before i ended up blocking him myself - Y'ALL ARE SO FUNNY WHAT- the humour lightened my mood up a little for sure which is why i appreciate you all for it T3T].

He ended up getting banned, and i believe it was UltimateShipp3r that suggested he had an 'obsessive love disorder'. which obviously makes a lot of sense, and it makes me feel stupid for not noticing anything beforehand or even assuming it was a basic crush-

anyway. His alt account is off of wattpad, and i hope he doesn't make any more. I'm not sure what his main account had been, and i'm stuck on trying to find said account to report him or just leaving it be and hope he doesn't come back to me or my friends here again-

I do have a few extra things to say, so i hope you don't mind me dragging this page further on. However, i do sincerely apologise to anybody he had hurt mentally, i'm incredibly sorry that you all were dragged into and involved in the terrible shit between the two of us and the moment he steps close to me IRL [if he tries to] i will fucking fight him, the hatred for him grew the second he started through death threats to my friends.

secondly, because of the recent events, i can officially say that i don't feel safe online nor in the real world. However, due to this prick knowing where i live and all, i'll try my best to be online the best i can.. that way if i vanish (without telling people) you can rightfully assume Yuki had something to do with it.

thirdly, i need advice.. i feel like calling the police would be the right call, but i'm not sure how that would land? so, my tomorrow depending on your opinions i'll do so, and hope he get's sent to jail or a mental asylum (or both? i don't know how it would work).

fith..ly, due to me not wanting to just ditch my online spaces because of a singular prick who thinks he's the next Yuna Gasai, i'll be doing what a few people had suggested. "changing my username"!!

this will go for all of my platforms, so i'm going to warn you all here that's happening ^^ i'm not sure what username to go for, so if you have any sort of suggestion that would be wonderful <3 

the platforms that will have name changes:

❥ wᥲttρᥲd ⨾ 1/2
current username - Misswaterlily.
new username - ____
(i hardly use my alt in general, it's mainly just for
following people so they get more followers lmao)

❥ ριᥒtᥱrᥱst ⨾ 1/2
current usernames - strxberry_pudd1n (main) + NikkiGonnaSuckATitti (laptop alt)
new usernames - _____

❥ ιᥒstᥲ ⨾ 1/1
new username - ____
honestly i might ditch the platform in general,
it's kind of annoying-

❥ qυotᥱv ⨾ 1/1
current username - honestly i don't remember
new username -

PLATFORMS THAT WON'T CHANGE!!

𖦹 Both my c.ai Tiktok and main Tiktok.

𖦹 The youtube account i hardly even post on :3

𖦹 other social platforms are private (family only) anyway.

𖦹 any online games (too much work).

𖦹 c.ai ^^

𖦹 uhh anywhere else idfk