Author's Notes:

Heeey guys so I did this while on work, sue me. My boss will probably have my head but my fingers just can't stop typing, it's pure madness. So Enjoy and leave me some feedbacks. It was rushed (it's 4K words, fuck me) so please bare with me. Also, I know it get's confusing, how time changes frequently but we need answers guys. I need answers.

Back to the Past we Go!

5 years Before

"Our class valedictorian is none other than, Louis Tomlinson."

Some students clapped, not really surprised by the announcement and Louis would have flushed in embarrassment because of the attention but he was busy trying to cover his Niall's mouth because they were shouting and making a really embarrassing scene.

"Woo that's me friend Louis, he's right here!" Niall cheered from where he was sat while clapping his hands dramatically.

"Niall!" Louis hissed.

Trust Niall to get all dramatic and crazy. Louis suspected that he was a bit drunk because he remembered him saying that he'll be celebrating nonstop when finals was finished. Finals were a week ago so Louis was suspicious into what Niall was getting into.

"Congrats Lou!" Zayn said as he pulled Louis away from Niall and into a bone crushing hug.

"You deserve it Louis." Liam added as he also hugs Louis but ended up hugging Zayn as well.

The students behind them just rolled their eyes and trained their attention back to the principal with a bored look.

They were all gathered in the gym for the graduation rehearsal and the principal was just announcing the awardees for graduation. Louis couldn't believe how time flew so fast and here he was, about to graduate high school and begin another journey, the whole valedictorian thing was just an additional icing on the cake.

Louis really feels like he's about to burst into tears because he survived school and he's surrounded by his amazing friends and his parents will be so damn proud of his achievements. Life could not be any more perfect for him.

"Okay settle down Mr. Horan before I send you to detention." Mr. Cowell, the principal said as he sends Niall a small glare.

Niall mock salutes him before sitting back on his chair and giggles.

Yep, Louis figures Niall was not quite sober.

Louis shook his head and tries to concentrate on the other names mentioned on the list, his name was mentioned a couple of times but he forgot after the fifth one being the outstanding math student. To be honest, he was just not that thrilled on graduating because for many reasons involving a curly haired boy.

Harry.

Louis would kill (hypothetically of course) just to celebrate graduation with Harry. So no one can really blame him if he's a bit sad when the list of graduates was posted and Harry's name was crossed out of the list.

Harry on the other hand was nothing but supportive, especially during Louis' final, he accompanies him during reviews and calms him when he starts freaking out about failing his exams. Louis really loves everything about Harry even if he falls asleep in the library and finishes his game of candy crush on his phone but never complains about anything. Harry wanted to be there next to Louis even when they barely talk because Louis got too engrossed on his notes and worrying for the hundredth time if he got the weight of the all the elements in the periodic table which in fact he already does.

It's not like Harry didn't have anything better to do, he didn't sit all day listening to Louis recite formulas, in fact there are a few times where Harry had to go to training. After winning his most recent match, he got a call from some famous professional boxer's manager and offered him to be a sparring partner for his client. It wasn't that bad considering the said boxer was well known according to Harry but Louis always forgets his name and never bothered to consider it.

Harry was at the gym right now with Paul and he and Louis will be meeting later tonight. Harry mentioned that he still has to train even if he was just a sparring partner. Louis doubts he needed it to be honest but he was probably biased.

So Louis was really bothered at not having to hear from Harry, training was supposed to be over half an hour ago.

"I would like to congratulate you all once again, please prepare for the ceremony on Monday and be on time." Mr Cowell spoke and then everyone was cheering and standing up. Dismissal was always the best part during rehearsals.

Louis gripped his phone tightly and waited anxiously for Harry's text. He should be texting him almost three hours ago but his messages were yet to be seen.

"Hey Lou, we're gonna stop by at my house. We're having a BBQ and my mom wants all of us there." Zayn said after the other students have completely left the gym.

"A BBQ? Isn't the weather too shite for that? And aren't you guys not supposed to eat meat?" Niall asked with no filter at all.

Louis heard a thump and he knew Liam must have hit Niall in the head.

"It's chicken BBQ Niall." Liam squawks and Zayn laughs next to him.

They were about to leave as well but Louis was just too busy looking back and forth to his friends and to his phone to notice that he was about to walk straight to chair.

He almost lost his balance if it weren't for the hand that gripped his side and steadied him.

"Better focus on your surrounding more Lou."

Louis whipped his head to fast at having almost memorized Harry's voice but he probably didn't do it because before he knows it, his head was hitting Harry's face.

"Ouch!" they both muttered as they massaged their throbbing head.

Louis felt his eyes water due to the pain but he didn't really care that much, he was a bit startled to find Harry, who was in fact not allowed to be in school but here he was.

"That was not the type of entrance I planned to be honest." Harry muttered as he groans painfully, clutching his forehead which was starting to redden.

In the background, he can here the other boys snickering and Niall openly laughing, not even bothering to be discrete about it.

"You two are the best really, like a proper show." Niall sighs after calming down.

Harry rolled his eyes but quickly took Louis' face to check if he had any injury, after noticing the slightly red skin, Harry quickly kissed it. Louis squirmed at the sudden show of affection, he was just getting used to being this close to Harry when they were alone and not while his friends were staring at them and watching the scene.

But he can't really help if he smiles and blushes at the gesture.

"Okay, none of that PDA. I don't want to hate myself for being single right now. Let's all head out to Zayn's." Niall said while muttering something under his breath about being the only single one in the group.

The other two followed laughing and Harry was laughing as well but Louis was a bit stuck, still frozen in place and staring at Harry in wonder.

"What are you doing here?" Louis finally found his voice and asked.

Harry turned his attention to him and he smiled, dimples showing and adorning his cheek. Louis' heart fluttered a little at the sight. Harry's dimples are probably the thing Louis loved most about Harry.

"Battery's dead again so I thought I'll just head straight in here and voila." He beamed.

Louis shook his head but smiled nonetheless. Harry was definitely in a good mood and Louis can't help it, it was contagious. It was like when after a long and suffering amount of rain and the sun suddenly appears, you can't help but enjoy its presence. That's how Louis pictures Harry's smile, it was the sun after a series of storm.

But that was the thing that's bothering Louis a bit, Harry's character sometimes prevents him from acting to cheery, of course he was happy, but his happiness was not this bright. Today, it was too blindingly bright.

"You're in a terribly good mood." Louis said, sounding a bit suspicious.

"Am I? Well it's probably because I get to see you." Harry laughs.

Louis was trying very hard not to point out how fake it sounded and Harry must have noticed it as well because he avoids Louis' eyes and scratched his neck awkwardly. Squirming at the intensity of Louis' gaze.

"We just saw each other yesterday." Louis said.

"Can't I be glad to see my boyfriend?" Harry finally sighs, defeated.

Louis panicked because he did not want this to happen all of the sudden. He instantly regrets his actions because now Harry looked bothered but if he was acting strangely to begin with, isn't it supposed to mean something? Was Harry hiding something from him?

"Harry-" Louis started was but was quickly cut off.

"Let's just eat some chicken BBQ yeah?" Harry asked as he gestured to where their friends have gone.

Louis stared at him for a moment but nodded along.

"If you say so."

Louis can't really seem to push away the nagging feeling in his gut but decided to ask Harry about it later. Harry would never lie to him, right?

~*~

~*~

They all arrived at Zayn's house and was instantly greeted by Zayn's mother Trisha, she hugged all of them but focuses her attention to Liam who was smiling so wide and blushing a bit.

"Liam, good to see you again. I hope you could come more often, I've missed you." She gushed as she pinched Liam's cheeks.

"Did you forget your son is here? Hello?" Zayn sighed.

Louis giggled under his breath because Zayn had mentioned that his mom really adored Liam to bits. Trisha knew the relationship between his son and Liam and she has no problem about it, she was actually very supportive, too supportive. Zayn kicked Niall after he suggested that she has the hots for Liam and the gene pool never sailed too far away because now they both fancy the same person. Louis never felt sorry for Niall when he fell to the floor because he was literally asking for it.

Liam was embarrassed but he was too nice for his own good so he let himself be smothered, he didn't really want to get on the bad side to his future mother in law. For him, it was better like that rather than be treated coldly and with hate.

"I promise to visit more often." Liam politely replied.

Trisha pinched his cheek one more time before she invited them inside and let them to the backyard where Zayn's other family members were.

Louis met Zayn's family a lot of times because he and Zayn liked to hang out in his house, he grew pretty close to his sisters as well and sometimes a tinge of jealousy will rise because he wishes he has a large family of his own. Having only his mom and dad with him and no siblings is quite sad.

"Go get yourself some plates boys and help yourself." Trisha said to us and then she turns to Liam.

"Liam, can you please come with me so that I can introduce you to my sister." She asked but she was already pulling Liam to the direction of Zayn's aunt, Liam's face was panicked but couldn't do much but be pulled away.

"Moooom." Zayn grumbled and followed along, leaving the plates he got for Liam and himself.

Niall laughed shortly and then proceeded to stack his plates with food.

Louis then only noticed that Harry was awfully quiet from behind him so he turned around and surprised that Harry was in fact not behind him.

He left his plate on the table and went to search for Harry inside the house, thinking all sorts of things but he paused on his step when he heard Harry's voice, talking softly to Zayn's youngest sister, Safaa.

"Oh wow, did you do this yourself?" Harry asked.

Louis didn't know what they were talking about so he stepped closer to the room and found Safaa sprawled on the floor next to Harry and showing him her art works.

"Yes! I want to be like Zaynie when I grow up." She said as she handed another drawing to Harry.

Harry thanked her and showed her how he reviewed the details of her coloring and pointed out how flawless her shades were. For a children's drawing, Harry seemed too intent at giving her precise feedbacks which Louis thinks Safaa didn't really understand but she seems delighted.

Louis' heart swelled at the sight because he never really saw Harry interact with children before and never actually wondered how he acts around them. His brooding and not so child friendly acts around people didn't really go unnoticed so Louis would have guessed that Harry was awkward around kids.

"If you keep drawing and practicing, I'm sure you'll be better at drawing than Zayn." Harry said after putting down the last of her drawings.

Safaa looked elated at Harry's words. Safaa always adored his brother Zayn and it means the world for her if she gets to be as good as his brother.

"Really? Are you sure Harry?" she asked.

"Oh, I am not just sure, I am very very sure. You'll probably be better than um... wait" Harry said, brow furrowing in concentration. "I forgot his name, but he drew this girl and she was smiling but not really smiling and-."

"Leanorado Da Vinci." Louis answered for Harry, slightly laughing at Harry's explanation of Da Vinci's famous painting.

Louis instantly got the attention of the two people in the room and Safaa was quick on her feet and ran towards Louis.

"Loulou!" she shouted as she launched herself at Louis and Louis was quick to catch and her and steadied her on his hip.

"Hello there Safaa, I see you've been showing Harry your masterpieces." Louis said as he ticked her for a bit.

She laughed and begged him to stop so Louis did. When she can finally talk again after breathing hard, she turns to Louis with excitement in her eyes.

"Harry said I can be better than Zayn." She said proudly.

"Well if you keep it a secret, I always think your drawings are better than Zayn but don't tell him because he might cry." Louis made a shushing motion with his hand.

Safaa did as well and asked to be put down which Louis did and as her feet lands on the floor, she instantly ran towards the backyard, she's probably going to tell Zayn about what Louis said leaving Harry still sprawled on the floor and Louis staring at her retreating back.

Louis smiled and looked back at Harry who was now looking at Louis, a smile on his lips.

"You did great with Safaa, boosting her confidence." Louis managed to say.

Harry shrugged and stared back at the drawings below him.

"Her drawings are really good."

"Probably, good as a 5 years old drawing will be." Louis rolled his eyes and laughed.

Harry laughed along and pulled himself to a sitting position, he patted the spot next to him, asking Louis to take a seat himself.

Louis knew that this was probably going to be the time Harry will explain his odd behavior, Louis took a deep breath and tried to send a mental note to himself to calm down and don't start doubting Harry. Let him talk and then he'll start judging if judgement is needed.

Louis hopes Harry did not kill someone or cheated on him. Louis would die inside if it happens, the cheating part rather – Louis will probably help Harry hide a body if he ends up killing someone and Louis prays it never happens. He knew Harry was sexually active because damn the boy has a body to die for, a lot of people will kill to have it. Louis would probably kill them first if they did but that's another story for another day. The truth was, Louis was very worried about not being able to give Harry anything because he was too damn scared to do so and now Harry might have found someone who didn't think twice about jumping in bed with him and now he's dumping him.

When he sat himself comfortably next to Harry, thoughts consuming every part of him, they let a few seconds of silence before they were both blurting things at the same time.

"Are you breaking up with me?"

"I'll be leaving for a month."

They both tried to process what the other person had said and when they did, they were in synced again when they asked, "WHAT?!"

Louis' eyes were already starting to dampen at what Harry had said, he was leaving, he was leaving Louis. He was about to shout his protest but Harry was quick to cover his mouth.

His face was serious but sad and Louis didn't want to hear Harry say some cheesy break up tagline in Zayn's house.

"Calm down Lou" Harry said as he wiped Louis' eyes.

"You really are breaking up with me?" Louis whimpered, heart starting to ache in his chest.

Harry sighed and pulled Louis over his lap. Lifting him up as if he never weighted a thing. He hugged him close and continued drying his eyes gently.

"Lou, of course I'm not breaking up with you." Harry murmurs.

"But you said you're leaving for a month?" Louis asked in confusion because why would Harry leave a month, but can you really break up with someone and put a time limit to it?

"Because I received a call, from that manager, do you remember him?" Harry explained softly.

The light in Louis' head suddenly lit up.

"The sparring partner thing?" he asked unsurely, fiddling with his fingers absentmindedly.

Harry nodded "Yes, he called me and asked if I can come with them on training. Says his client has a match in Vegas and wanted me to tag along."

"Vegas!?" Louis asked in surprise.

Vegas was too fucking away from London, exactly another continent away so imagine Louis' surprise.

"Yeah, it's a big fight and training's full time." Harry said like it was not that big of a deal.

Louis bit his and imagine the distance between him and Harry. Vegas wasn't something you can just take a cab or a train to be able to get into. Louis will need to ride a plane, afford rather expensive tickets and get a passport which he still hasn't had.

Distance was the issue here.

"So you have to leave for month?" Louis muttered under his breath.

"Yes." Harry replied, rubbing Louis' back softly.

Louis blinked a couple of times to regain the train of thoughts in his head before turning towards Harry and staring at his face, wanting to memorize every inch of his face in case he forgot. Louis doubts he'll be able to do.

"What do you think? I can always turn the offer down Lou, I wouldn't do something you don't like." Harry said softly, staring at Louis and giving him a small smile.

Louis couldn't help but flick Harry on the forehead which made Harry wince.

"Oh my god Harry, that's like a big thing. This could be the start of your career!" Louis scolded him because this was a decision that Harry should have taken and not given to Louis.

"Don't get ahead of yourself Lou, it's just a sparring partner." Harry said in a matter of fact tone.

Louis wanted to flick him again but decided against it.

"In Vegas!" he exclaimed rather loudly and dramatically.

"Okay, it's a big thing but your graduation is coming up. I can't miss it." Harry explained seriously, his brow furrowing midsentence.

"Oh Harry." Louis took Harry's face to his hands and stared at his wonderful face.

Harry was always thinking about Louis and always forgets about himself and for Louis it was cute and endearing but also very annoying.

Look what resulted into his selfless action, not graduating.

"You sacrificed your own future for me by getting expelled, I want you to stop sacrificing things for me and start thinking about yourself first." Louis said wholeheartedly.

Eyes going soft as he remembers every selfless stupid act Harry ever did for him. This was actually the time Louis did something for Harry and the distance was going to be painful but probably worth it.

"But Lou-" Harry interjects but Louis shuts him up with his hand, Harry's next words getting muffled.

"No buts, you should go and make a name out of yourself out there." Louis reprimands him like a child.

"As a sparring partner." Harry rolled his eyes but laughed when Louis playfully slapped him.

"Harry!" Louis huffed his annoyance.

"Okay okay, but are you sure?" Harry checked.

Louis nodded eagerly and never felt any surer of his answer.

"I'm very sure."

"I love you." Harry spoke suddenly but lovingly.

He pulled Louis closer to him and placed his head on Louis' chest, their position was just right for Louis to lay his head on Harry's head and Harry leaning on his chest.

"I love you too," Louis replied, smiling to himself while playing at Harry's curls.

Harry hummed on his chest and comments about Louis smelling wonderful.

Louis blushed bright red but can't help but feel deeply appreciated.

Harry then slowly pulled away and stared back at Louis.

"So mind explaining why you think I'm breaking up with you?" Harry asked bemusedly.

Louis eyes widen and mentally cursed himself because he almost forgot about his sudden declaration earlier. He hoped Harry had already forgotten in the midst of their conversation but Harry was too perceptive to let something like that go unnoticed.

"Um well." Louis felt like he was a deer caught in headlights.

He wasn't sure if it was wise to tell Harry about his thoughts. They were a bit messed up so he was worried on how Harry will be able to handle them.

"You can tell me." Harry urged him gently.

Louis coughed awkwardly and refused to meet Harry's eyes.

"Um, I though because I don't give you sex that means you would leave me." He murmurs.

He didn't know what Harry's reaction was but he heard him speak after a minute.

"Louis William Tomlinson."

"I'm sorry." Louis cried helplessly, both ashamed and truly embarrassed.

"Do you really think so low about me? That I will break up with you because of sex?" Harry questioned sadly, Louis can actually feel the sadness seeping out of Harry's words so he was quick to jump and grasp Harry's face, his eyes were pained and Louis felt so horrible he wanted to fling himself in an oncoming bus.

"No! I don't, I'm just stupid and I would never Harry! You're amazing and you never stop showing how amazing you are." Louis admitted, wanting Harry to feel how he truly appreciate him and he was just being stupid and insecure.

Louis knew he didn't have the best body, the best skills so he was insecure and Harry shouldn't feel burdened about it, it was all Louis' fault.

"Even if we never have sex ever, that's okay with me." Harry admitted.

That was such a big statement and Louis should have never doubted Harry ever.

"I know, I'm sorry." Louis apologized again.

Harry only smiled and pulled him close so that he can land a quick kiss on his lips. Louis wanted to pull him back because he wanted to feel his lips on him but restrained himself because someone can walk in on them. They were rather in an uncompromising position and Louis will probably die of embarrassment if Zayn's grandmother sees them.

"You really are supposed to be smart Louis, stop jumping into conclusions okay?" Harry spoke after a few seconds of just hugging Louis.

Louis cursed at how Harry stared at him like he hung the fucking moon so he wasn't to blame if he was the one who pulled Harry closer to kiss him hard. Louis was just about to start slipping his tongue on Harry when he heard a sudden scream behind him.

"Mooom! Louis and Harry are kissing!" Safaa shouted as she dashed away, her footsteps echoing in the room.

Louis quickly pulled away and grew red in embarrassment, Harry bursting into laughter below him.

"Safaaa!" Louis heard Zayn shout from the backyard.

Louis groaned and wished the ground would open up and swallow him. Damn Harry for being so irresistible.

End Notes:

So this was a flashback, We're nearing the drama so I hope you're all set, probably gonna disappoint you though because I still have 0 clue on what's going to happen but YOLO.

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