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I parked my black beast in the corner and stepped down from it, feeling quite refreshed. Since I wore a helmet today, my hair was not a wild mess like I thought it would be. I looked at my reflection in the mirror and smacked my lips, wondering if I should apply more gloss or not; finally decided to apply a bit and then flipped my hair to one side. I pulled my bag and walked through the double doors.

Students were eyeing me as if I was from some other planet. They had their reason. I was the only one in dire colors. Everyone else is wearing red, pink, hot pink, fuc* pick, whatever pink, lilac, too many shades of unicorn puke and white. No black, dark colors etc other than those Emo kids who had piercings and black lips. I was completely different. So, for today, I didn't snap at those gawky eyes. I let their eyes wander over my body.

I should have known; that today I will be especially welcomed by Sophia and her goons.

She was the Rapunzel, Cinderella, Barbie all combined into one body. As expected, the bitch queen of LittleBird. I hate that name with a passion; the schools name not her name. With too many injections and chemicals along with pancaked face, she looked hideous with her boobs half out from the pretty small pink top; two sizes smaller to fit in her pom poms. And her butt looked pinched in her shorts; may I add- "extremely". Her hair was one big mess, flipped down which looked overly pampered and appeared fuzzy rather than smooth. She smiled smugly at me with her chubby pink lips and smoky eyes. I have to agree, her smoky eyes with pink and smoked red looked dashing. I wonder how she did it.

"Oh, I see the rebel."

"What?"

"Don't worry senorita, you will get your prince charming one day, I suppose today is not the day."

"As if I need one bone more to help me stand straight."

"Oh, we don't need that bone to help stand straight if you know what I mean."

I grunted in reply. She smirked again.

"And Lilly, don't feel sad that Nate is feeding bones to his bitch."

I laughed. In fact, I boomed.

"Is that the best you can bring today Sophia? My, you are getting older."

I walked away from her brushing my shoulder as if I had lint in there. I smacked one more time to my shoulder, looked at her and poof, her smugly smile... gone. Good start, I complimented myself.

A girl about my height was walking by with a rose in her hand dressed in a white lace dress with a satin pink bow on her waist. It looked beautiful. She was in the sophomore since I have seen her running here and there for some sort of fundraising. She looked at me, smiled and gave me the rose and said, "Smile, you are too pretty to cover yourself in the frown."

I thought she was sweet because I have seen her helping poor people, old people and children in the carnival and all sorts of programs conducted in our society. And I am saying this because I know since my daddy dearest will be the main sponsor for it all. So, that means? Come on, you are smarter than that! I will tell you... his family should attend the program! Yay! Urgh! Well, to the point, I have plucked that term sweet from this girl.

I threw the rose on her face and said, "I am too much valuable to waste my time on a pathetic gesture such as that." I don't want people to talk to me. It will lead to too much simplicity in life and I don't want it. I have lost trust in all people. I don't want friends. What if, a friend, one day decided to cheat on me and break my trust, again? See, I can't allow that to happen. I can't afford heartbreak; heartache- again.

But, do you know what this girl did?

She hugged me and said, "No one is born a demon, people become one when life makes them one. Be all the bad you want, but I see the goodness in you. You have a heart inside all these since you find me sweet but irritating." She laughed lightly and walked away with a wink.

Hold on, how did she know that I called her sweet but found her irritating? Freaking nuggets! First Shaun was able to read me, now her. Am I becoming transparent and stupid? I should be strong again. I should be...

Lost in thoughts, I walked on to hit a girl. She fell down. "Watch it dumbass." I hissed at her. It was my fault, but what, I need to be tough. She frowned at me and got up. Since she was in my way, I waited for her to move and promptly she did with a big ugly scowl. Like I care! I glared at her. She ducked her head and walked away.

I reached to my locker, opened it and was about to stuff it with my things when a letter caught my eyes. In fact, there was two of it. One was a plain white colored envelope with a red rose. The other one a formal blue colored envelope. Both were not signed on the outside. Curiously, I opened the first one with the rose.

It read,

Dear Lilly,

Don't frown; don't ask how I got into your locker. I should probably ask that new guy too since he was closing it just as I was about to place this in your locker.

I am not asking you to be my valentine since I know you will kick me in the face and stuff my rose in my butt which will constrict my easy flow. Ha-ha, what am I saying? The point is I wish it was you by my side accepting my rose and ring but unfortunately, it won't happen. So, I wish you a happy valentine's day and continue praying that one day you will be mine. And please, don't dumb this letter in somewhere where a smelly cat can tramp on this. At least, keep me somewhere you won't see it in the nearest future but will remember to take a look once in a while. I ask only this from you.

Not for now; but one day, surely, your's Nate!

Ah, Nate! Why didn't I think of him?

He wants me to keep this away. Safe! Damn, why do I smell that he can see right through me, and believe that if he goes soft on me, then I will see that his demand happens? After all, this is all my façade and I do have a heart in there. I sighed. This was sweet. I wanted to show this to Sophia and challenge her to see if she has got something as sweet as this. But, then, I kept it behind all my stuff, closer to the walls and picked the formal one.

It read,

How sweet that you have got yourself an admirer. To be in fact, three if I can count correctly; one your brother's best friend, two, the hottie of your uncle's friend and three, oh my, that one is astonishing. Whoever thought that a thug can fall in love?

But, sweetie, the clock is ticking and patience is running behind its own tail, the time will soon come and be prepared to... shit out your entire life in one go. I want what I want and soon when you get the message on your birthday, come meet me under the old oak in the abandoned mansion near to silver St. you will come on your birthday, midnight sharp, or else... should I say? You would have watched unlimited amount of movies to know what happens after or else! So, come. And oh, don't pass this message to anyone, its stays with you and me.

Plus, keep your friends closer, but your enemies double closer is the closest thing I can say to that old shi*. In this case, you don't know who to keep closer. Look around you kiddo. The one you worship is not your God.

Happy valentine day

What the...? I can't believe this. I have to find Nate.

Whoever thought that Valentine's Day is going to be this thrilling?

What were the enemies closer this with a message that I don't know who I am trusting? Why can't my life be simple and uncomplicated with a boy by my side kissing me as I dissolve into Valentine's Day? Nope, here I am... in the middle of the hallway, throwing ugly stares to kids who stare at me and wondering who would have delivered this letter and what was with the message of getting something on my birthday. Where am I wrong? Whom do I trust wrong?

The first bell rang but somewhere in between my running, I saw that the first half of school was canceled because of Valentine's Day and the other half was contributed to Valentine dance. I shouldn't have come today. If there is no class then why is the bell ringing? Why did I come today?

I found Nate in his usual seat; the popular table with his thugs and bitches. And what Sophia said was true; Nate was indeed eating a Barbie out. His posture was tense and boring, so he was not enjoying it. Then, spit her out Nate. Why do you happily accepting oral bacteria, Nate?

For the first time in a while, I saw Stephen with his friends. He looked at me, smiled and nodded; His usual gesture. But then, he surprised me by getting up and hugging me.

"Missed you"

"Are you Stephen?"

"Yes silly, I really miss you. I can't afford to let them see us like this. Once you are fine to be under my wing, I will take you away sweetheart."

"Steph, I am really frustrated with this cryptic talk, you better speak or keep shut."

"Soon, I will come get you."

And then he sat down and popped some fries into his mouth.

"You smell like sh*t sissy. Didn't you bathe today?"

I was shocked. How can he change so easily? Am I being watched?

"You are the one who hugged me 'brother', I should be clinically tested. Nate quit spoiling your oral hygiene, I want to talk to you."

Like an explosion took place, the table got silent. Nate looked too enthusiastic. Umm, am I giving him wrong signals? The blond looked pissed; like super pissed. But, I turned around and walked away. Someone muttered, "Who do she think she is?" ha! Lovely!

Nate was so close to me as I exited the cafeteria and turned around to face him in the hallway. We practically collided but I kept my distance. He smelled so good. Why can't I let myself cover in his arms? I mean, he looked gorgeous but sadly I am not attracted. Yes, well, the main part.

"I am sorry to have disturbed you from the meeting; I wanted to know who the man was, you saw stuffing things in my locker."

His face fell. Like literally. He was so sad that he must have expected something else. Sorry kiddo, not today.

"Umm, I..." he stuttered and then looked away rubbing his neck and then looked at me, "Why can't you accept me? I thought you were here because you got the letter and you might have changed your... decisions. But..."

"Nate, I am not here to speak of it. I want to know who the guy you saw was."

"Are you in trouble? Was there any threat?"

"How come you wonder if I got a threat? It could have been a love note; too."

"I am sorry. It's just... I... hmm, well, yea, he was not someone from around here and I have never seen him before. He wore a dark hoodie so I only saw his back. He was about my height and that's it."

I nodded my head and tried to walk away when he held my hands and pulled me close. I looked into his beautiful eyes and sighed.

"Please, I love you..."

"Nate... please, I am sorry."

"Then let me kiss you once and for all."

I thought about this too much and decided; oh whatever! One kiss means nothing. I leaned in and literally I saw constellations in his eyes. He practically beamed and leaned down to kiss me. His lips were passionate, soft and sensual but I didn't feel anything like the one I felt while kissing Shaun and that mystery man.

Thinking of the mystery man, I pictured Nate as him and got lost in the kiss. Then, suddenly, it felt magical and something more.

He let me go for a drag of air and pulled in to kiss me again. But, I pulled back.

"One kiss"

His eyes were dazed but he quickly agreed and nodded his head while walking back to the cafeteria.

Since I saw mystery man while kissing Nate; I had butterflies in my tummy. I rushed to the abandoned washroom in the end of the building and stood in front of the graffiti filled mirror and looked in my broken reflection.

My cheeks were flushed and something indescribable was on my face. I was about to wash my face with water when I heard a sniffle.

My blood froze and I numbed in fear.

My silly brain told me it might be a ghost but I know better; I guess. I opened every stall and peered in. To the end, the stall was in darkness, but still, I tried to open but it was locked. I knocked on it and instantly a gasp echoed through the silence.

A nasally, "whose there" resonated and I sniffled in a laugh. My worst enemy is in here, crying to herself. In a best authoritarian voice, I spoke up to open and come out. It worked! She came out and looked straight.

Her swelled crying face heated up and lurched at me. I pushed her down laughing hard.

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