Christian POV

I shut the door to the bathroom and just stood against it, silent tears falling as I can't stop thinking about Adam. I have no idea how I am going to face his mother after I had promised I would protect him and keep him safe.

I have failed in the most horrible way I could ever fail someone, someone whom I love with all my heart and soul and we weren't even bonded with mating and marking yet, I just fell so hard for him in no time that I feel like a part of me died with him.

The love I had for Liam is nothing like the love I have for Adam. I keep hearing his voice in my head, keep feeling his arms around me, his lips on mine. He has made such an impact on my life and I have no idea how to go on without him.

He has given up his whole life for me and I failed him.

I walked to the shower and turned the water on and stripped and got in. I stood under the water for a while before it started to run cold. I than washed myself and rinsed off and turned the water off and got out. I wrapped the towel around me and opened the door and stood at the sink and just looked at myself in the mirror. Trying to look for any signs that I could feel anything besides emptiness and loneliness.

I looked into the mirror behind me and saw Cale watching TV. He's a good man, he's beautiful and so sweet. We had known one another since about the time I left after Liam.

He has been a good friend to me and I sought comfort in him and he gave it to me but, I understand that he wants more and he understands that I can't give him what he needs if he is not a mate and even if he is, it won't last.

I don't think I will ever find that other one out there for me to have a mate that lasts forever. I sighed and looked back at myself and saw tears on my cheeks, I guess I cry without even knowing I cry anymore.

Doesn't seem to faze me because it's all I did before Adam and it will be all I do until who knows when..

The voice on the TV got my attention when it mentioned Adam.

"Turn that up." I said to Cale and he did. I walked into the room to get a better view of the tv and it was a report about his death. The report said it was unknown causes that nothing turned up in testing or on the autopsy they performed.

There were pictures of his life, with his family and the last one was of him and me on stage at his last performance. I felt my lips starting to tremble as I kept looking at the pictures on the screen that kept flashing from one to the other, same ones.

My phone rang and I looked at the caller id and it was Adam's mom. I sighed and answered it.

"Hello Mrs. Lambert...Yes I was on my way to talk to you to tell you myself...yes it happened while he was with me but I would like to explain what had happened if you would let me...I can be there tomorrow, I had to stop at a hotel as I was to up-set to keep driving...ok I will see you tomorrow afternoon...good-bye." I hung up and sat on the edge of the bed not taking my eyes off the tv.

I put my hands on my face to wipe the tears and sighed deeply. I got up after a bit and got dressed. Cale didn't say a word to me or even looked at me the whole time. I sat on a chair in the room and just relaxed for a bit.

I looked at my phone, I looked at pictures of Adam and me, I watched his videos and read our text messages. I picked up the pen that was on the table and found a piece of paper and wrote out what I wanted to tell Mrs. Lambert tomorrow so I had my thoughts in place.

I can't have her thinking there was no cause of her sons death, she deserves to know what had happened to him and I will tell her the truth, she may hate me for it but she deserves to know what happened to him.

1. Tell her about werewolves.

2. Tell her that Adam was my mate.

3. Tell her about Omen and Kane.

4. Tell her about what Devin did while I was in the house.

5. Tell her what Kane did to him after we found out.

6. Tell her about the poison that Devin injected Adam with that made him lose his life.

I sighed and got up. I let the paper on the table with the pen, I grabbed my charger out of my bag and plugged it in to the wall and plugged my phone in and laid down in the bed. My back facing Cale as he kept his eyes on the TV.

I don't like that he's not talking to me, but I think he is just giving me time to gather myself which I appreciate. It wasn't long before sleep overtook me, and I was out.

It was a restless night, waking up every couple hours in a cold sweat after having a nightmare of what happened, seeing it all again repeatedly.

At about six I finally gave up on trying to get some sleep, so I got out of bed and went to the bathroom and washed my hands, face, and brushed my teeth. I put socks and shoes on and grabbed a hoodie and went out of the hotel room and went downstairs and went outside.

I needed air and I needed time and a run. I walked until I found some dense wooded area and found a good spot to strip and shift and I ran. Omen was enjoying the run as it's been a little bit since we last ran.

"How are you doing Omen?" I asked him.

"About the same as you kid, you are not alone you know? You will always have me and Kane with you no matter what."

"I know Omen, it's just hard. I don't want a mate just for me, I want you to be happy and feel loved as well. We can't keep going on like this, like this is all we are meant to be."

"One day we won't be. The one for us is out there you just have to believe that. I do. We are meant for greatness and are meant to be loved and it will happen one day, just you wait." I smiled at that.

"I trust you." That was the last of the conversation as I cut the link. I wanted to my in my own thoughts on the run.

Since a werewolf's bond and human bond don't seem to be working out, I wonder if a vampire's bond would be able to keep with me. I mean I do have vamp blood and have the history of them so it wouldn't be a far stretch of an idea, would it?

"Of course not, you just have to find that vampire if there is one for you." A voice in my head said, one that I have heard before. I stopped running and looked around to see if I can see anyone. Omen and I both were in control looking, sniffing and sensing our soundings and we picked up a faint heartbeat and weird smell.

We walked toward it and about a mile from where we were, there was a cabin with a small body of water in front of it.

"Such a strange place to have a cabin. Looks like someone lives here with the smoke coming from the chimney." Omen said as he sniffed the air.

"Hmm it would seem that way." I replied as we kept walking toward the cabin. We sat down at the start of the wooded area just watching to see if we can see anyone but there wasn't any movement.

A few minutes later the sound of footsteps was heard a few feet to our left and I felt a weird presence nearing us.

"Hmmm what do we have here, a werewolf?" A deep husky sexy voice said, almost growling.