Oh heck. I just watched a bunch of old VT videos and listened to a bunch of my favorite songs from before I discover TOP and the Emo trinity and all them and I'm re-reading Anne of Green Gables and I dressed in normal not black clothes today the nostalgia and generally feeling of the past is hitting me hard man.

I hate nostalgia. It makes me feel weird. But right now it's pretty okay. Almost pleasant.

IdowanttosaythatwatchingoldVTvideosmademerealizehowmuchI'vedislikedtherecentuploadsImeanwhatisupwithalltheInfinityGauntletandBaldicraptheyhaven'tevenplayedtheBaldigameandwhat'swiththethumbnailsthatgreenbackgroundhurtsmyeyesit'sterribleIhopetheyaren'tgettinburntoutI'vebeenscaredofthathappeningforalongtime.

Anyway, all that made me feel like my, you know, old self and it's really weird. Like I looked in the mirror and was surprised by how tall I am. You know that feeling? Kinda like when you read for a long time and when you have to stop you're just unable to function because you're still in the book world and not the real one. But it's kind of a good feeling, you know?

Also I just realized that it's summer and I started watching VT sometime in the summer of 2013 (can't remember the exact day WHOOPS) so I've been a fan for five years now. Five. Years.

Granted I was banned from watching them for a while, maybe a year or so? But I secretly watched them so it still counts.