I'm feeling and thinking in all caps but that's annoying. Just know I am not as calm as these words seem. \

I woke up still feeling like poo and intending to stick to the hiatus and- and then this...

https://youtu.be/JUp9pCtn2BY

The new Warfstache video...

It made me feel a whole lot better, first of all. Second, I have been shaking since it came out which was 12 pm PST (not my time but pshhh time zones who cares not Wilford I bet) and am still shaking. I hate using this language but I don't know how to describe how I feel other than shook, considering I am shaking....well, considerably. But really I feel a lot less sucky now. Power of YouTube.

The acting was so good, Mark has gotten so good at acting and Mick (Abe, the detective) is super talented as well! I like how Wil starts closer to The Colonel accent and slips more and more into the Wilford one. Also the ends of the mustache being pink were a great touch.

Hey spoilers if anyone cares about that.

HE DOES REMEMBER! He does, he remembers but he has a hard time remembering and I think present Wilford doesn't remember but there's a chance something big could make him remember.

I love the Murder On the Orient Express reference.

THE BLANKET-LOVING MASKS! Oh, new alternate swear. BUT THOSE HECKING MASKS. I SEE YOU MARK AND I AM NOT SURE WHETHER TO GIVE YOU A BEAR HUG OR SLAP YOU.

Wilford can read minds and that's both terrifying and exciting.

My poor baby Abe. He was so confused, I just wanted to hug him. Poor baby.

ALSO JACK DID STUFF BUT I HAVEN'T GOTTEN TO THAT YET BUT BOY MY DAY IS FULL

Wil is so not in the reality anymore he's just soft and doesn't realize what he's doing and he doesn't understand anything anymore his mind is so broken it's turning his mustache pink MY BABY

Still shaking by the way.

The aliases man.

MARK IS SO PRETTY EVEN IN A RIDICULOUS COSTUME HELP MY HEART CAN'T HANDLE

Also, the weird almost wholesomeness and almost pureness? Wil just wants Abe to forgive him and he wants him to be happy? Like no he doesn't go about it very well but darn it he's trying his best?

I DID NOT ASK FOR THESE FEELS BUT I APPRECIATE THEM

Seriously though, the Warfstache video today, it turns out Jack did some Anti type stuff in his video which I'm excited to watch...I don't know, it feels like these were meant to cheer me up. Like, I needed this and now I have it, and I feel a lot better. I'm still sticking to my hiatus until we get all our stuff into the new place but it suddenly doesn't seem so bad. I don't know why this is helping so much but it is. 

Thank you for the supportive comments on the last part. It really, really helps knowing I have someone(s) (that's not proper grammar but heck it) to vent to if I need to. I love you guys! <3