Being nobody at school was challenging but nothing was worse than home. My dad is....not the best husband- or the best dad when it comes to that. He was sadistic- very sadistic. And he doesn't want help for it at all, he's cheating on my mom and I'm sure my mom doesn't know. I have a vivid image in my mind of how...I found out.

I remember him being in the washroom and his phone going off with texts, I was using it for a school project and decided to see who it was...And then I saw that this was another woman, he was seeing. And the worst part was that it was Ireshi's mom, Mei...Ireshi's mom.

My best friend's mom. She was in a content marriage, why just...why did this have to happen? It's been two months since I've found out and I have no idea what to do. I don't wanna ruin my family, I don't want to ruin Ireshi's family. I don't want to do anything, I don't want to be here. I just don't understand why. I pushed my books into my locker and chose to go into the washroom and freshen up. I needed a second for myself, not my parents, not my friends, not my bullies. Just myself.

I took a deep breath and swung my bag over my shoulder, heading to the bathroom. The stalls were all vacant, I leaned against the sink letting a tear fall down. I could feel my breathing shallow, my thoughts closing. Panic and darkness obscuring over my head, I clutched my heart trying my best to breathe. I watched tears trickle down my cheek, I was struggling to even out my breathing, everything was just a blur. I was losing control. I could hear the blood passing through my ears, the pain coming over my heart. My vision got darker and narrower and looked kaleidoscopic, colours danced around in front of my eyes. I felt myself sink to the floor as my breathing thinned down further. I felt my head spinning and I genuinely felt like I was dying. My mind was racing with thoughts and my feelings were becoming very overbearing, they were crashing onto me, breaking me apart. I was losing control. 

Bile rose in my throat and I gulped, attempting to scream but I couldn't speak, I could barely open my mouth. Pain shot through my arm and I strived to calm down, help myself stop but I couldn't. This sense of dread, unease, fear and trepidation had taken over me. I felt like I was being choked, I could feel my heart race so vociferously. I felt random chills, but I could feel my body's warmth. I was trembling, and falling into an endless hole of despair. It almost felt like I was being stabbed. I wasn't there anymore though, my feelings had taken over. I had no control over myself. I had never felt so alone, I couldn't feel anything. But that was better than the sense of doom that had come over me. I felt my breathing settle a little bit, and I eased into my posture not quavering anymore. 

I sighed in relief and wiped my tears away, still a bit shaky. I was fine. But....not really, I was...broken. And nothing could change it. The stress of keeping everything from Ireshi and my mom was too much...I didn't want to keep it from anyone and I had tried to make her find out herself but...I couldn't. Every time I saw Ireshi's mom, my nauseousness would rise and my entire body would burn with anger. I shook my head, regaining my composure and walked out of the washroom. Late for class.

Just what I needed. I waited for the day to be over, I was supposed to go over to Ireshi's in the evening.

I walked the few blocks to my house, oh and like I mentioned before, I was extremely rich. My mom was an anesthesiologist and my dad owned a hospital. My home was a three-storey marble house, decorated with small crystal-like (but cheaper) stones. I stepped inside the white building and went up the stairs.

"Hi darling," said my mother. She sat on the couch under the stairs, there were actually two staircases on that floor, one was above where my mom sat and one was beside me, I had just come up the stairs from the ground floor, so this was the first floor. There were two rooms there, one was my mom's and one was my dad's. If I went upstairs from the stairs above my mom, I would see my sister's room...I was careful not to use that one. My mom had a spray tan (which was horribly done), and her blonde ringlets fell onto her shoulders. Her eyes were the same blue as me, except she actually looked good in them. I gave her a small smile and choked in tears, my mom might be vain and arrogant- sometimes mean even, but she was still my mom and she deserved to know the truth. I couldn't speak for a second, I let out a defeated groan. 

"Honey, everything okay?" asked my mom, with a concerned look on her face. She walked over to me and looked deep into my eyes. I hoped she couldn't see my pain, guilt and...I don't know. I didn't know what feelings I was hiding from everyone but I knew I couldn't let anyone see how I really felt. 

She traced my furrowed eyebrows, making me realize I was frowning. She kissed my cheek and said, "I think you should go over to Ireshi, it might help get your mind off whatever you're worried about." She gave a perfect smile and sashayed back to her seat. I nodded and hurried up the stairs. I didn't stop at my own room though, I decided it was time to face my sister's death. I took a deep breath and stepped inside my sister's room.

A/N- 996 words when I have little to no readers haha, oh well, I enjoyed writing this! Let me know what y'all think <3 

1. Have you lost someone close to you?

2. How do you deal with anxiety?

3. What would you do in Sierra's position?