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My heart tears every time I see you,
frolicking with pain at how happy you are,
the happiness that was once mine,
happiness that I had rented out.

My mind numbs every time I see you,
at how I amounted to nothing at the end,
just another chapter in your life,
just another one in all.

My soul shatters every time I see you,
reminding me of all my futile efforts,
those that I thought were what you loved,
those that I thought were permanent.

I explode into ashes every time I see you,
uncomprehending of my life wasted,
for all along I thought I hated you,
when all I did was hate myself.

For hating you.
For loving you.
For you.

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A/N: Hey guys, firstly I hope you are all doing great. Thank you for the amazing support you have all showered upon me so far, I cannot even begin to tell you just how inspiring it is for me to share my works and get the kind of response you guys give me. I love you all!

And today, I want to share with you this - my 300th poem on this platform. It's quite an unbelievable milestone for me and none of it could have been possible without you. All of you. So thank you for being a part of this journey. ❤ No amount of thank yous are going to be enough but yes, loads and loads of love to all of you.

Until next time!