James goes back into the great hall, his shirt slightly singed and goes to Lilly.

"What happened to you?" She asks as she sees Severus also has dirt and some blood in him.

"Uhhh... creature grave robbing."

"What?"

"Like grave robbing but animal graves."

Lilly rolls her head and finishes eating.

Harry crawls in James lap as he sits down, half asleep.

Lilly smiles at Harry as James looks at him in shock. And Severus with jealousy.

"Hi, daddy," Harry mumbles, sleepily.

"Hello, Harry. How was your day?"

"Weird."

"How?"

"My office looks like a crime scene."

"How?"

"A broken alcohol bottle, papers everywhere and I had accidentally cut my finger so there's some blood and a chair that is knocked over."

James nods. "That Is weird. What else?"

"Cuddles."

"You want to cuddle me?"

"Cuddles, daddy."

"Okay," James says and looks at Severus.

Harry holds onto James.

James holds him.

Lilly smiles at them.

Severus watches them grinning.

Lilly motions for Severus to come to her.

Severus walks over to her.

"What did you two actually do?" She asks him, quietly.

"Murder."

"Who?"

"Vernon."

"Without me?"

"Sorry, Lilly."

"Next time, I'm going."

"Of course."

"Where's my sister?" She asks him.

"Don't know. Haven't seen her since she said I can kill him and Dudley."

She nods. "What about Amersen?"

"Who?"

"My niece?"

"Oh, that person... dead."

"Not dead... missing." Harry mumbles.

Severus shrugs.

Harry cuddles more to James.

Severus runs his fingers through Harry's hair.

Harry smiles and looks up as Draco comes back, covered in small cuts.

"What happened?" Severud asks.

"Those fucking apples were indestructible!"

"Okay."

Draco sits in Bills lap and throws the apple in front of him.

Bill laughs little.

Draco grumbles.

Severus looks at Harry and runs his fingers through his hair more.

Harry smiles at him then looks at Draco. "Why were you destroying apples?"

Draco stares at him. "You asked me to."

"I did?"

"Yes."

"Are you sure?"

Draco looks at Severus but he just shrugs. "He's losing it..." Draco mumbles.

Severus nods in agreement.

Harry pouts.

Severus kisses his forehead.

Harry pouts.

Severus laughs.

"Mean." Harry pouts even more.

"Just a little."

Harry pouts.

Severus runs his fingers through his hair.

Harry purrs.

Severus looks at him confused.

Harry nuzzles him from James lap.

Severus looks at Lilly. "So how were classes?"

"Good..."

"Why say it like that?"

"I'm tired."

"You'll get used to it."

"Let's hope so."

"Soon. You won't need sleep at all."

Lilly gives him a look.

"What?"

"You better be fucking sleeping."

"What's sleep?"

"Severus!"

Severus laughs a little.

"Not funny, if I find you're not sleeping, you'll have to sleep with James."

"I'm sorry what?"

"You heard me."

"I'd rather die."

"Then sleep."

"Well for one it was a joke. and Two. If you need help I can."

"I'm being serious though."

"Me too. I'll help if need. The kids were always good when I thought."

Lilly nods.

"I think they were scared..."

"Got them to learn."

"Not what the voices in my head say."

Lilly hugs him.

Severus jumps a little at the unexpected movement.

Lilly hugs him tighter.

Severus puts an arm around her.

Lilly smiles.

Severus looks at her.

Lilly hugs him tighter.

Severus pulls away.

Lilly looks up at him.

Severus grins.

Lilly smiles softly.

Severus looks at Harry.

Harry falls asleep.

"Did he eat enough Lilly?" Severus asks.

"He ate fine."

"Okay.'

Lilly strokes Harry's hair.

Severus watches grinning.

"Why don't you take him to bed?"

Severus nods and takes Harry.

Harry whines as he's pulled away from James.

Severus glances at James.

Harry clings to Severus, trying to replace the warmth.

Severus holds harry tight and takes him to bed.

Harry cuddles into the blankets as Severus looks at his legs, which don't look right.

Severus frowns.

Harry wakes up, feeling Severus touching his leg.

Severus looks up at him. "I said. I don't want to hurt you."

Harry watches him.

"Why did you make me do it?"

Harry shrugs.

"Yeah well, now I need to find a potion that will fix your legs."

"Let me live with it..."

Severus glares at him. "no. I'm going to my potions lab."

"I refuse to take it."

"I don't fucking care.''

"You can't make me!"

"Yes, I can!" Severus yells and goes to his lab.

Harry gets up and hides in the closet, in one of Severus' robes.

When Severus finishes he looks around for harry.

Harry stays quiet.

Severus accico's harry to him.

Harry tightly shuts his mouth and struggles.

Severus imperious harry and makes him take it

Harry throws the spell and spits the potion into a cup.

"Harry it's to help you."

"I was stupid, and now need to live with it. I'm not going to cheat the system with a potion."

"It's not cheating the system drink the damn potion."

"No."

"Now harry."

"No!"

Severus glares at Harry. "Just drink."

"No."

Severus sets it on the dresser and walks out.

Harry sits on the bed, He's not getting his way this time, Harry won't allow it.

Severus sits on the couch.

Harry grabs the potion and places it in front of Severus.

Severus glares at Harry.

Harry sits in another chair.

"Is this punishment or something?"

"No."

"Then why don't you heal yourself?"

"Because I don't deserve it."

"You've done nothing wrong it's my fault so let me fix it!"

"No."

"Please harry."

"No, I don't want it."

"Just heal yourself please."

"No, I'm sorry, but no."

Severus gets up and grabs a knife then goes back to harry placing it next to him then shows him his scarred arm. "Cut me."

"What! No!"

"Do it. Or I'll do it myself."

Harry takes the knife and sends it somewhere else.

Severus glares at him. "Take the potion."

"no."

Severus goes to there room.

Harry gets up and walks out the door.

Severus finds his other knife and looks at it.

Harry goes to his spot in the hallway and sits down.

James passes him and looks at him.

Harry looks back.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing."

"Why are you not with Severus?"

"I have his knife..." Harry says, pulling the knife out of his pocket... by the blade.

"Was he going to hurt himself? Lilly told me he does that..."

"He told me too..."

"Why?"

Harry stays quiet, not wanting him to know.

"Harry, what happened?"

Harry starts to cry.

James sits next to him and holds him trying to calm him down.

"I'm a sick freak."

"No your not harry. You're normal."

"I-I'm not... I love to be tortured..."

"And there are people like that harry. It's normal."

"My legs are fucked up because of it..."

"Then blame Severus he should have been more careful."

"I made him do it..."

"Why not get it healed."

"Because... I liked what was done to much... and having it prenatally like this is a reminder of what can happen when you're stupid."

"Harry you shouldn't do that to yourself."

"I'm the idiot that wanted it."

"Then think about Severus and what it's doing to him."

"He tried to force a potion down my throat."

"Do you know why?"

Harry nods.

"Why?"

"He doesn't like me like this."

"Do You know why?"

Harry stays silent.

"Harry?"

Harry starts to cry again and stands up.

James stands up with him. "Harry, what's wrong?"

Harry runs towards his room.

James fallows him

Harry runs in and tries to get into the bedroom, but it's locked.

"Harry what's wrong talk to me."

Harry doesn't hear him, his brain is on autopilot, as he tries to break down the door.

Severus opens the door.

Harry collapses, seeing the other knife, and starts to sob.

Severus makes the knife disappear and kneels next to harry.

James makes himself go invisible with a seer spell.

Severus does not notice. "Harry, love, what's wrong?"

Harry continues to sob.

Severus picks Harry up barely flinching.

Harry feels wetness on his clothes.

Severus takes him to bed.

Harry wandlessly summons his healing supplies.

"What are those for?"

Harry doesn't answer as he cleans his arm.

Severus pulls away from him.

Harry slaps him and grabs his arm again, putting a healing paste on it, then covering the paste with a thin cloth and wrapping it.

Severus stares at him.

Harry summons the potion and drinks it.

Severus continues to look at him.

Harry starts to work on the other arm.

Severus lets him.

Harry finishes and lays down.

Severus watches him with no emotion.

Harry silently cries.

"Why are you crying, love?"

Harry covers his face.

Severus frowns. "Harry love talk to me."

"I'm scared..."

"Of what?"

"Losing everyone. I mean My life is falling into place now... but how long before it breaks and I lose everyone again..."

"That won't happen, Harry. I promise."

"You can't promise that..."

"I promise I won't leave you. I'll always be here for you."

Harry cries a little harder

"So... you don't want that?"

"I love you too much to think of you leaving."

"And I won't. Shay won't either "

Harry moves closer to him.

Severus holds him.

Harry cries silently, falling asleep.

Severus stays way all Night.

James leaves after Harry falls asleep, and goes to talk to Lilly about it.

We spelled Lily wrong, I'm too lazy to fix it. ~Doragon