Taehyung helped Jungkook over to the seats because it seemed like he had turned into a stone. There were no words that could comfort the older at the moment so Taehyung kept quiet as he patted and rubbed Jungkook's back repeatedly.

"Did you curse me?"

Jungkook suddenly asked Taehyung making the younger surprised.

"What?"

Jungkook didn't turn towards him as he repeated his question, keeping his head low.

"Did you curse me?"

/What is he talking about?/

"I_ no, no. What ar-"

Taehyung answered back in confusion but Jungkook immediately spun around towards him and glared accusingly.

"You did. Because I didn't leave her so you cursed me to lose her like this. Didn't you?"

Taehyung gawked at him in disbelief but couldn't say much. It was obvious that Jungkook was much too shocked and hurt at the moment that he was just voicing every non sense coming in his mind.

"Wha-"

Jungkook suddenly leaned back from Taehyung as he stared at the younger with terror and whispered.

"Or did you get her killed on purpose? Wait, that's it. You told the doctor to kill them. I saw you talking to him."

Jungkook stood up and pointed at Taehyung.

"You killed my wife and my child!"

He was going paranoid by each passing second and he was tugging at his hair more often now making him look paranoid, too.

"Jungkook, I didn't do anything. I swear."

Taehyung tried to calm him down as he spoke sternly but slowly and tried to pull Jungkook close to sit him back again but Jungkook only retreated his hands when Taehyung approached him and started to yell.

"You killed them! You killed my wife! You killed my child! You ki-"

Taehyung punched Jungkook square in the jaw and Jungkook stumbled back. Taehyung was never the one to take blame of anything and certainly not of someone's death which made him hit Jungkook right now out of habit.

"Shut up! I didn't have anything to do with their deaths. You just don't want to admit that she died in labor."

Jungkook held his jaw as he looked down. Taehyung clenched his jaw at what he did and apologized immediately afterwards.

"I'm sorry. You are hurt and I should have understood. I'm sorry."

Jungkook let go of the small balance he had in his legs and fell on the ground before he mumbled.

"How can they die when I was going to be a father?"

Taehyung sighed and went close to Jungkook to lift him back up. People around them could tell what was happening so no one interfered and Taehyung was thankful for that.

Jungkook quiet down after that and let himself be dragged by Taehyung without caring where they were going. Taehyung sat him in the passenger seat in his car and buckled him before going to the driver's seat himself.

Taehyung didn't know where Jungkook lived nor was the older talking anymore so Taehyung went to his own place. Jungkook didn't care where he was or who he was with anymore, anyway.

Taehyung's arm hurt a bit as helped Jungkook to move all this time but he didn't complain while Jungkook was working on autopilot as Taehyung sat him on the couch and went in the kitchen to put his own medicine. He came back with a glass of water that he lowered to be in Jungkook's vision.

"Here."

Jungkook looked up slightly but then shook his head. Taehyung sighed and sat next to him before he made Jungkook drink it himself as he gently said.

"You can't stop eating or drinking now, Kookie. That won't do you any good."

Jungkook took a few sips but then moved his head away and Taehyung pulled back his hand and glass.

"It's not gonna bring them back either."

Taehyung didn't respond to that as he placed the glass on the table in front of him and scooted closer to Jungkook before pulling him in an embrace.

"You have to let it out. Please, don't hold it in. Scream, yell, cry, anything. But do something."

Jungkook still sat frozen without a word or a movement other than what Taehyung made him do. They kept still like that for a long time when Jungkook finally spoke very dimly.

"You know, she said that we would name our kid 'Ha-ni' if she's a girl and 'Min-ho' if he's a boy. I loved those names so much but now that won't be happening anymore."

Taehyung didn't say anything but kept rubbing his back. At least Jungkook was talking now.

"I didn't know how to react when she told me she was pregnant." Jungkook chuckled sadly.

"I just blinked at her without saying anything and she thought I didn't want the kid. We had a huge fight that day so I had to take her out to make up for it."

Taehyung's heart hurt. He had just found out that Jungkook wanted kids which Taehyung could never give him and the person who could just passed away. What was worse was that Taehyung was filling in for that person i.e. Jungkook's deceased wife, until Jungkook got over it and found someone else. Some other woman.

Taehyung shook his head slightly to get rid of those thoughts. He had to focus on Jungkook right now instead of himself.

"What do you think? Was it a boy or a girl?"

Taehyung gulped hard when Jungkook suddenly asked him and he realized he had spaced out.

"I don't know."

Jungkook nodded as if he Taehyung's answer was what he was looking for.

"Me neither."

And Jungkook quiet down after that once again. When Taehyung didn't hear anything for a long time from Jungkook he checked to see if he was asleep or not and found Jungkook wide awake, just staring at Taehyung's carpet.

/Why isn't he crying?/

Taehyung began to worry because Jungkook was stubbornly keeping his pain bottled up and he feared that it might cause some serious damage to his brain. So Taehyung thought maybe it would be better if he forced him to cry.

/It's for his own good./

"Jungkook?"

Taehyung waited for a response but Jungkook didn't say anything.

"Are you awake?"

Taehyung knew he was awake but still asked it.

"Kookie?"

Taehyung nudged him slightly but still nothing. So he bent sideways a bit to see and he saw Jungkook holding his breath.

Taehyung immediately sat him up straight and shook him vigorously making Jungkook lose the hold on his breath.

"Why were you holding your breath?"

Jungkook looked at him with his dead eyes as he replied.

"I was just checking what dying feels like."

Taehyung grabbed the glass of water and made Jungkook drink it all

"Are you crazy? At least think about me before doing something like that."

Jungkook's eyes widened for a bit and Taehyung regretted saying that immediately as he tried to cover it up while looking down at his lap.

"I_I'm sorry. What I meant was that, um, your life is precious to a lot of people so you shouldn't think about hurting yourself like that."

Jungkook didn't say anything to that but Taehyung still kept his head down because he was embarrassed. After a moment of pause Jungkook lifted Taehyung's hands and before Taehyung could say something he laid his head in his lap. Taehyung stayed quiet as he watched Jungkook rest himself on him but didn't know if he should be happy about this moment or not. Taehyung was questioning himself when Jungkook reached for his hand and placed it on his own head. Taehyung understood and started playing with his hair softly.

/I'm such a dick. Please don't let him hate me for saying that.
He doesn't love you anymore, I think.
He does. Now, go away.
Just saying.
Well, don't./

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