Patton's Perspective

"Roman?"

I saw Roman turn around, as I took a few steps closer to him getting out of my hiding place while quickly putting on a fake smile.

I had seen Roman come out here and I was...worried to say the least. He looked like he was about to cry and I was really concerned. So I followed him to the balcony.

He just seems...in...in pain. I mean, he looked like he was about to burst out crying after waking up from fainting.

"Are....are you okay?" I softly asked as I took a few more steps closer to Roman.

"Patton? When....why....promise not to tell anyone about this?" Roman said to me, soon coming almost face to face with me. I just nodded in response.

"Well?"

"Well what?"

"Why were you out here?"

Roman sighed, and looked away from me. "Look, promise not to tell the lovebirds in there? Or literally anyone else? I don't want to be hated by anyone."

I nodded again, a little confused and concerned. Roman thinks that he would be he would be hated by them?

Soon, Roman began to tell me everything. And I mean everything. Well, at least most of it. Mainly about his feelings for Virgil, why he never spoke up about it, etc., etc.

After he had finished, I was....shocked. Was Roman, the man known for being a hopeless romantic, really feeling this way all this time?

After a few minutes of slightly awkward silence, Roman spoke up.

"Well, now that you know, we should go back in-"

"Roman, your not the only one who had to go through this." I interrupted. Honestly, I was a bit....nervous for what I was about to say.

I never really...planned on telling someone it, but here I am! Telling Roman Prince of all people! Not that there's anything wrong with that. He's just...dramatic at times. And loud. And...I think you get the point, kiddo.

"What?" He questioned, sounding a bit shocked. Did I stutter? Oh gosh, did I not speak loud enough? No, wait, he must think I felt the same about my dark strange so-I mean, Virgil.

I took a shaky breath and nervously smiled at Roman. "I....had feelings for Logan. And still do. But not as much as I used to."

Roman lightly put his hand on my shoulder. "Would....you like to talk about it?" He asked me, a bit softly. I'm not sure why he said it softly. Or why he decided to put his hand on my shoulder. He just...did. Maybe he thinks I'm more sensitive than him? I'm not entirely sure.

I responded to the prince like man with a nod and a reassuring smile, before starting.

"Okay, well, it all started back when I had that party four years ago...."

"At this point, we had all known each other for a while. Since college, right? Well, I had met Virgil a month before I introduced him to you guys and I thought he'd be a perfect addition to our friend group!

"However, I had no idea he would fall for Logan. And I had no idea that I had already fallen for him. I just thought I really liked him as a friend. All that happiness I thought was....normal. Well, I guess I was wrong."

I gave a short laugh. I was trying to at least lighten some of the mood. I smiled slightly, before quickly dropping it and continuing.

"I was trying to find Virgil so I could introduce him to Logan and then you. Since he seemed like he would get along with Logan better than you would at the time. No offense to you, Roman."

"None taken." Roman replied to me, giving him a shaky smile. I could tell that he was a little upset over the wedding and that he never really...confessed to him..? I don't really know and I can't really tell.
He can be an enigma at times.

Hey, that's kind of like Virgil. Huh. I guess I never really realized that until now. Oh well! I'll just dwell on it later! I'm talking to Roman now, after all, and it would be rude to think about this kind of stuff now.

"Anyways, after I was finished helping Thomas with what he needed help with, I was going to introduce Virgil to Logan. Until I saw you doing it. For a split second I could have sworn you looked unhappy, but I just ignored it.

"But seeing Virgil with Logan? I felt...jealous. Jealous of the looks that Logan gave Virgil. Jealous that he was talking to Virgil with a blush on his face instead of me. Jealous of how stupid he was in love with Virgil." I felt tears welling up in his eyes, but I wiped them away, almost in the blink of an eye, and continued.

"I know it was only a few seconds, but it was like I could sense it somehow. I just wanted Logan to love me back. It felt really weird. I've never loved someone as much as I loved Logan.

"As time went on, Logan and I became best friends. As soon as him and Virgil started dating, I kind of had to help him figure out emotions. Since, as you know, he's not very good with emotions and feelings. Luckily my own feelings for him didn't get in the way.

"It was staring to decrease, but it was still there. Somehow. Maybe just a little bit will always be there, I used to think.

"One day, he needed help planning something really important. He had come over to my house and asked me for my help. Little did I know that when he walked through the door he was planning on proposing to Virgil.

""Patton, I need your advice." Logan said, walking through the door of my apartment, almost slamming the door behind him. I put on a fa-" I quickly paused. I was....about to say 'put on a fake smile' but I...stopped myself before continuing.

"I put on a smile and turned to him.
"Hiya, Logan! What do you need?" I asked him. This wasn't the first time he had asked me for advice. I knew something felt...different this time. He looked stressed. Well, more than he usually did at the time, but I think you get the point. "What would be the best possible way to propose to someone?" Logan asked me.

"At that moment, it just felt like time...stopped all of a sudden. The man I was hopelessly in love with and just starting to get over wanted to marry someone else. But since I wanted him to be happy, I helped him anyways.

"And as you obviously know, that advice that I gave him? It helped him and Virgil said yes and...well, here we are!" I finally finish with a shaky smile on my face. For some reason I feel....weak, in some way.

I mean, aren't you supposed to feel all relieved when you get something like this finally all out on the table? Not weak!

I want to break down, I want to show that I'm sad, but I need to be strong.

For Roman.

Who's going through heartbreak as well and has it way worse than me.

For Virgil.

Who just got married for God's sake!

And for Logan.

Who's gonna be happy with his new husband.

I need to be strong. For all of them.

Huh. This...this must be how Roman feels in some way....

"Patton, are you alright?" Roman asked  me, still in that kind of soft voice for some odd reason. I shook my head 'no.'

It was.....it is hard to hide your true feelings from someone like Roman. For us, it's been easy-but sometimes not easy-for us to see each other's true feelings. So even if I said or shook my head 'yes,' he would've been, in someway, able to tell I was lying.

Then, he suddenly pulled me into a tight hug. I hugged him back, feeling a small tear fall down my face.

"Us heartbroken ones need to stick together, right?"

"Yeah."

Then, I could of sworn that I saw a figure out of the corner of my eye. Said figure stepping out, and about to say something.