We were sitting in our normal spot " John why haven't you talked to me since this morning" Cry said setting his head on my chest.

" I have a lot on my mind" I said and he moved to look me in the eyes " Does it have to do with Evan" he said with a sad look in his eyes.

I looked away and I heard him sigh " What happened" Cry asked sounding a bit upset and I took a deep breath looking back at him and feeling a pain in my chest.

He looks really upset I should have never even come to this school.

" Kinda" I said and he let go of my hand looking at the ground " You like him don't you" he said and I could see the pain in his eyes through the small smile he gave me.

" I think well I'm not sure... I do but yet he's straight and I know he's only using me" I said and Cry set his head back against the fencing.

Please don't be upset.

" Cry please don't be upset I'm nothing special you shouldn't even like me" I said putting my head down and I heard a gentle breath come from him.

" I knew you would like him... who wouldn't but I just don't want you hurt so answer yourself truthfully do you like him" he said looking at me again.

Do I, everytime I see him I get lost in his eyes and he gives me this weird feeling when he's around me.

" Yes, please don't be upset I'm a nobody" I said and I saw a tear run down his face so I lightly reacted up whipping it away.

" I'm not upset I could never be with you, I just I know how he works it's a small group and rumors go around and I just" he took a deep breath.

" I don't want him hurting you I know you will but I can't stop you from being with him" he said and another tear rolled down his face.

" Don't cry for me and I'm not with him I'm with you right here and now" I said cupping his face watching the tears slowly come and go.

I pulled him into my lips kissing him until I felt his heart beat slow down to normal.

I can't hurt him I don't want to.

" Just promise me that if you fall for him to tell me" he said grabbing my hand and I looked away at the sky before I turned back to him.

" I promise but for now I'm yours" I said and he shook his head making me feel the pain again.

" We can still kiss and I will be here for you always but until you know for sure this is what you want lets not label us as anything" he said and I felt my whole body crack.

No I've been hurt and now I'm hurting him.

I looked away and felt the tears starting before a gentle hand was placed on my face and I turned to look at those caring eyes.

" John nothings changing I'm going to love you the same I just don't want to make anything hard on you so let's hold off on the boyfriend thing although I'm still going to treat you like it, I'm just going to wait till your ready" he said kissing me gently more caring than the other times.