OKAY BUT THE LAST TIME I UPDATED THIS BOOK WAS IN JANUARY?!

I AM SO SORRY

BUT ALSO LIKE WHO CARES ANYWAY

HERE IS A POEM BECAUSE I AM AMIDST A MENTAL BREAKDOWN ABOUT MY IDENTITY!!!! WHAT'S NEW!!!

Throughout my entire life
Difference has suffocated me
Trapped inside a box
Petrified to be

Curled up in a ball
Crying in the nighttime
I failed to bond
Too scared to step out of line

Seemingly endless aches
Stomach pains and anxiety
I wanted a hole to suck me in
To help set me free

Now there's opportunity
But my legs are shaking
Tell me the way; the rules
Help me on the journey I'm making

Do I open my mouth?
Do I say the term?
Or do I click my fingers again
And forget everything I've learnt?

I just want to change
To be more like you
I'm sick of stressing, obsessing, messing up
I don't know what to do