"take baby steps" really is the best advice anyone can give you

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sooo i figured i would roll out of bed and try to update something, this is not going to be one of those fancy updates where you read it and wonder if i was talking about a girl, a friend or not being able to find my sock until a week later behind the dryer. ive sorta been wanting to for a few days but i havent had time to really sit down and just talk about whatever until now. kinda weird how i havent been having this problem as much as i usually do but i cant sleep for some reason.

first thing to talk about. where do those really annoying screen names come from with random numbers that have no meaning and missing letters? i found out. i dont really like my sn and i thought up a few more that were taken, this is the options aol gave me when i asked for a suggestion...

PtWen9
PetWn2
PtWn483
WnP221
WntzPt280

nthnx2u4that1aol. i guess i am on my own with this.

it was my birthday exactly one week ago.. this was my birthday cake:

okok just kidding i only turned 29 not like 290.. i am getting up there though haha. it was pretty awesome for once cos a lot of people i didn't know would care imed me, commented, or made a post to tell me happy birthday. thank you to everyone that thought to do that- it means a lot more to me than you probably realize. i am forever going to be this awkward boy that feels like he doesn't really fit in anywhere. it was really touching. i also got more phone calls and presents from friends than i have in a while. i remember a few years back being kinda bummed cos the fans remembered my bday and not too many of my friends but that has definitely changed.

as far as politics go i missed the update challenge about who you are going for in the 2008 presidential election so i might as well throw that in here. i have been rooting for obama for a while now and am pretty glad to see he made it in as the democratic nominee after a tight campaign- i am always one to root for the underdog but this time the underdog was already my top choice. if you're an obama supporter and you have been for a while you get what i mean when i say it feels like a personal victory that he made it this far. my parents are huge supporters of him as well. i think its pretty amazing to see the way he can bring everyone together, to be around a crowd during one of his speeches- something this country desperately needs to have happen. one thing that actually shocked me was he did vote against drilling in the united states for oil, as well as both hillary and mccain.. it was four votes short of passing cos more people are worried about protecting the wildlife and endangered animals. that means if the supply and demand for gas overseas keeps up we could be paying $4 a gallon by summer. i love watching cnn can you tell? honestly, nothing against canada, but i'm just embarrassed that your currency is worth more than ours now because i remember buying comic books and shit from canada because it was cheaper to. now the economy in the united states is going to shit, so i just hope my hoodie (spell check says hoodie is not a real word btw) and shoe obsession helps it out.

once upon a time long long ago.. i used to be in this band, i dunno did you forget about this band i was in already? fall.. something.. fail out boy? whatever it was. nah i'm joking, but for real it feels like we aren't sometimes. it feels off. we're hoping to do a few shows cos it's been so weird being off tour for this long. i start to wonder if our fans will even still want to come out and see us. i miss touring, i miss making new songs, i miss making new memories, not just for myself but my friends and the fans. we always have something up our sleeves, even in tank tops, so keep an eye out for old dogs doing some new tricks. we have too strong of a friendship and too much love for our fans and the music to ever be counted down and out. this update is never going to end is it? if you've read this far, do yourself a favor and just stop now- it doesn't get any more interesting or interesting at all this time. maybe next update.

the fn mtv premieres thing has been hyped up a lot (mostly by mtv who is very proud of their decision to have one whole hour of videos on a week- and put it on the air during a time when most people are out..), and honestly kind of thrown in peoples faces to the point it hasn't even premiered once yet and people are sick of it. blah. i know it isnt meant to be this huge evolutionary change in what you see on mtv. it's just a way to get a little bit more videos on a channel that used to be all about the music, like.. back in like 1984 or whenever it started anyway. dont get me wrong, a lot of these reality shows they have on are entertaining and i watch them when i cant sleep but i miss seeing WHOLE videos and not just 15 or 20 seconds of them on trl. what is the point of making a complete video? if you want to see the whole videos you have to stay up until 5 or 6am or watch fuse- and not everyone has fuse. i think it's awesome to be able to be a part in making a baby step backwards to how mtv used to be before most people reading this entry were born. truthfully i don't see mtv ever going back to how it used to be, but they have enough alternative channels you'd figure they could make a channel just for their dating/reality shows. besides i wonder if beavis and butthead would still be funny to people if mtv had new episodes of them. i hope butthead would call me an asswipe and comment about my teeth.

ok wow so the update does end. i am going to go try that sleep thing again. thanks again to everyone who wished me a happy birthday- i hope i remember to do the same for you. sorry no personal mentions or anything this time, i think i'm content with everything going on in my life right now. i promise i am not quite as boring as this one probably makes me sound, but still pretty boring. goodnight xo