Shravani's POV:

Flashback begins...

He held her left cheek in his palm as she kissed his cheek and claimed him as hers!!!
His eyes were darted on mine like he was questioning me asking loudly with a devilish grin...

'How does it feel Shravani???'

And I honestly felt numb!!!
I couldn't sense anything after I understood that he embraced the kiss and did not revolt against her claim!!!

She was his girlfriend!!!
Kanishka and Satyendra are now a couple!!!
I suddenly felt like someone dug a hundred nails in my chest with a hammer and strangled my throat with a painful leesh and I was left struggling for air...It was killing me from within...
I suddenly felt claustrophobic!!!
I needed to breathe...
I couldn't stand there watching that scene there!
He cheated upon me!!!

Wait!!!
Can I say that???
We werent in a relationship!
But his advances??? What about that???
What were those???
He kissed me today morning...
His husky whispers in my ears...our proximity!!! What was all that???

Two years of knowing each other!!!
Two years of being in something silent!!!
Two years of being into an unspoken something!!!
Relationship???
Can I call it one???
Every single thing kept flashing infront of my eyes...
Everything!!! The moment on the terrace, that unspoken silence, his fierce gaze on me all the time, him eating my food, him smiling and blushing, him trying to start the conversation???
Everything just shattered!!!

Why did he do it to me???
I felt my head would explode!!!
I couldn't stand there anymore...

'Ex...Excuse me guys...my head is aching..I need to catch up some...some...sleep!!!' I muttered with utter difficulty trying to hide my unshed tears and I ran from there...

I could hear Shonali...Rithika...Rishika...Gogi...

So many voices!!!
I couldn't stop myself...my legs continued running upstairs and I slammed the door of my house wide open and my father was sitting with Sattu's father, Chetana's father and Iyer uncle having a drink and discussing and smiling...
My teary eyes scared them...

'Shravu are you ok beta?' my dad asked me and I didn't really have an answer...

'Something went into my eyes dad...I'm good' saying I rushed into my room and closed my bedroom door with a thud.

My body was pushed down to the floor... while my back rested on the door...I closed my face with my palms. I felt like my head was spinning. I sat looking at the roof trying to understand what was happening...I don't know for how long I kept looking at the blank space in the roof...

After sometime I heard Shonali's voice and a continuous knock on the door...

'Shravu... please open the door...once please Shravu...' she was whispering... probably because she didn't want dad to hear me...I opened the door and she looked at me and huffed holding her stomach...

She quickly stepped into my room and closed the door and next second she hugged me tightly...

'Shravu...are you ok??? Please...he's...he's mad...you know him...his anger...you have seen it before Shravu...' she kept on blabbering but I don't know why I didn't cry...I didn't cry a drop...I suddenly felt very empty from within...

'Shravu are you ok?' she asked and I looked at her saying...'I have my exams coming up soon...I have to prep for my entrance exams...I have to become a doctor Shonali...please go...you have to celebrate with friends' and Shonali looked at me in a state of shock...

'Shravu...it's ok...you can cry it out' she said cupping my face and I don't know why I couldn't...

'I don't feel like Shonali...I have to prove to a certain someone of whom he's chosen against whom!!! He's perfect for that desperate Kanishka..
Shravani is neither desperate nor dying to have a relationship...
I had probably moved away from my goal...my mistake...but I'm glad I'm not late!!! I still have time for exams and for my medical entrance exams Shonali and there is so much to study!!!

Please excuse me!!!' saying I went to washroom... changed into my pajamas came back and started studying!!!

Shonali stood there in a state of shock...she wasn't understanding what I was doing!!! Honestly even I didn't know!!!

All I could see was I have to get into the best medical college in Tamilnadu!!!

And since that day I cut down every single medium that reached him.

I stopped going down to play area and joined a shuttle club to practice shuttle as studies alone isn't good and physical activity is important too...I stopped going to college cafetaria and began carrying food from home and ate in classroom during lunch break...At times I would meet him in and around
..I could feel his gaze on me but I would simply avoid him and take a different route...

One day Rishika stopped me and held my hand saying...
'Shravu please...will you avoid me too??? I'm your batchmate' she said and I smiled saying...

'Nothing like that Rish...I just have to get my physics lab records to corrected from Chandra Mam' and kept walking towards the lab and she said once and for all...

'Bhai accepted his stupidity Shravu...it was just a dumb decision in a fit of anger...he's not with Kanis'

I closed my eyes tightly and said it once and for all...
'I dont care Rish...I don't even know that man anymore... what he does..who he cares for .. infact I don't know anything!!! And yup... whatever he does in his life is his choice!!! I don't care!!! Infact I'm glad I'm out of that stupid infatuation!!! Next time please don't ever pick on this topic' I said and was about to walk away while I felt his gaze on me from first floor...

I was pretty loud ..I didn't know if he heard me but I was least bothered...
Rish kept a small piece of paper in my hand...

'Read this when you are free please...Bhai sent this' she said and I could see him looking at me with an unspoken emotion...his eyes looked deep and painful.. my eyes yet again had unshed tears...
I looked at the letter and I could still feel his gaze on me...
I took the letter in my hands and in one go tore it into a billion pieces and dumped it into the trash can nearby and walked out of the college.

That was the day when everything ended between me and him!!!'

Flashback ends...

'Are you comfortable Kar?' Ruby mumma asked her after helping her settle in the guest room and I was out of my trance...I saw Ruby mumma had got her a cup of coffee and some biscuits...

She hugged Ruby mumma. She looked sad and tired but she smiled as she leaned to Ruby mumma's height to hug her warm...'Thank you Ruby aunty...you didn't have to do all this...' she said softly while Ruby mumma cupped her face saying...
'You are as much my child as much as I consider Sattu...you know we will always be there for you...' Ruby mumma said and she wiped her tears saying...
'I am sorry Ruby aunty...Few things are not in our hands...I love Satya...but then I also understand what he's saying...but he should also understand my point right? If he loves me why can't he agree for this? We can manage it...I don't care Rubi aunty...until and unless Satya agrees for this...I'm not leaving this home...Yes I love him doesn't mean I listen to everything he asks me to do...' she said and my world came down shattering...

They both love each other???
What is he not agreeing for???
What does she want now???
Weren't they divorced???
If they love each other why did they get divorced???

Eavesdropping is not right but I couldn't help but listen to what they were speaking...
'Look Kar...you must believe in your love...you can't just let it go' Ruby mumma said and I was shocked... what is Ruby mumma doing??? Seperating me from Sattu??? Provoking Karishma???

'I know Ruby aunty...but two hands come together in a clap...I can't wait any longer...I need what is mine and this is mine!!! He has to accept it!!! He must!!! I'm not going to listen to anything...he keeps telling me how much he loves me and how much he is struggling without me...how much he misses me and now when I'm ready to leave everything and settle down here he is giving reasons??? I don't care!!! It's time he proves his love and understands my emotions too

Last time he said it's pure business and I understood but this time it's beyond everything Ruby aunty...I'm not letting go this time...I want this!!! And I'm stubborn!!! Satya must prove his love this time...he must aunty!!' saying she hugged Ruby mumma and kept crying non stop...

I was clear!!! She is here to claim what's hers!!!
But what shook me was...
If Satya loves her then the moments we spent with each other what were those?
Yes our emotions were unspoken again but did he cheat upon me again like last time???
Did he lie to me???
Was this yet another angry decision???
Our months of marriage...now that I am pregnant with his baby!!!
All this is a compromise???
For what???
Karishma said business...

Does that mean Sattu did all this for dad's property???
Oh come on Shravani... wasn't he clear from day one that he is with you only for saving the farmers daily living??? So I don't sell the land!!!
But time passed and we got closer...
I got emotional and opened up my feelings...
Maybe it wasn't same for him??
What if all this didn't matter to him???
Whatever we had between each other was just our hormonal requirements???
Nope!
I love Sattu!!!
It was pure!!!
But then whatever Karishma is saying what about all that???

Just then I heard Ruby mumma say...
'Arey Shravani... come here baby...come in...Shravani...meet Karishma...Sattu's...'

'I know!!!' I said at once and I didn't want more details...I had heard enough of it!

'Hi Shravani...it's nice to meet you...I am sorry I came here without any notice...actually I didn't know where to go and what to do as I came back from Capetown...I couldn't stay alone in Chennai...So when I spoke to Satyendra he asked me to come here...and he probably didn't get time to explain you everything but don't worry we can talk everything' Karishma forwarded a handshake and I hesitantly gave in...

'Hello' I said as I felt awkward... that's when my eyes fell on her ring finger...it had a ring with initials "Satya" and my throat filled up...

She is here to chuck me out!!!
To claim what's hers!!!
Sattu asked her to come back!!!
Which means he is probably coming back soon here to discuss how are we seperating so he can reunite with him again!!!

How could he break us yet another time???
He didn't think once how could I feel???
But wasn't it my fault too???
I stepped into an unspoken relationship again!!!
I must have not repeated my same old mistake again!!!
Without knowing the meaning and future of our relationship like a horney teenager I went with a flow!!!

Oh god not again!!!
I hate Sattu but this time I hate myself more!!!
I wanted to run away from here...
Far...
Somewhere away from everyone...
I wanted to hide myself from this cruel world who never understood my emotions!!!
This was beyond painful!!!
How could you do this to me Sattu???
Yet another time!!!
It's like our past present are all in pain!!!
Immense pain!!!