Imagine for a moment a story of one person life that you only believe you see in movies and based on true life stories of different people and some movies you may think that may not even possible but you wish so much it could be.

It actually true and it's my life and it started from the time I was convinced inside my momma.

Have you seen the movie the mockingbirds don't sing. Imagine being born though January 10th 1970 and you see that crib except I had a net over it every night but I wasn't treated like that father treated his daughter.

I watched a different father through my tiny eyes and heard him every single night as he put that net and tied it and secured it every single night.

When he was done he clinch his fists at his sides every single night and have that look that said it all. Snap her neck and end it all now!

But then he turn around and say, "I can't do that to Jack! I made her promise." Then he turn and walk out and slam the door behind him.

At the time he never looked at me or held me or touched me with love.

Then a day and a year apart exactly my so called sister was born and my dad treated her with such love.

Tears always fell from my eyes. So one night I figured out how to get out of my crib.

I closed my eyes and focused and cleared it. I knew I wanted out of my prison.

I watched the scene play out again of me watching him putting the net over the crib and tying it.

Then I flipped myself backwards and I was above him watching him doing everything from beginning to end and when he was tying the net I waved my hand to back it up so I could study and slow down how he tied it up and then I went forward to the next morning when he thought I was sleeping and watched how he was untying it in slow motion and repeating it so I knew exactly how to put it back in place when I made made my escape and he couldn't figure out how I did it.

I smiled and I made my escape. Perfectly.

Now imagine doctors telling my mom that I'm retarded and I have all these and will have these birth defects and I will die no ifs ands or buts.

But no after no doctors will even touch you because you figured out how to break and go poof and disappear quicker than shit.

You can do all these things that people and your family would never believe and if you tell anyone you would be locked up tight in a Looney bin. But your dad's was already trying to put you there or make you disappear.

Already once secretly because he was part of a secret society evil at that and I was a little older than and I was having a surgery to fix a birth defect.

A little planned murder. Oh I just died during surgery. No biggie for in the early 70's right. For someone like me.

But likely I had the right anesthesiologist and surgeon that always worked with me and knew me and took the extra time and care with me and the anesthesiologist knew instantly what happened the minute it happened when I was in his arms and he whipped his head to his table where he had all my meds set up for me and they were still there and he snapped his head up to the nurse and went fucking off.

I was actually standing outside my body when this happened watching this all this unfold.

He told her. "WHERE IN THE HELL DID YOU GET THAT FROM?" He snapped at her and she pointed at a table with two more filled syringes.

"Wait a minute! I don't know you and those aren't supposed to be in here. Get her out of here now and I want security and cops at that door." He gently laid me on the table and got my heart beating again and I was still having some problems breathing but they managed to get me through surgery that day.

That's just part of my story for now.  I will tell you more when I'm ready to. But you have to be patient with me please.