~HOSEOK POV~

Tonight we all decided to sleep in Y/n's bed in cat form. Sometimes we do this and sometimes we don't as in what forms we sleep next to her in.

So one night there's some of us human form and the next cat form, we take turns really. We only do this because we like to keep close with her right now. Sleeping in the other bedrooms just doesn't feel right, right now so we all sleep with Y/n in her bed.

But right now I can't sleep.

The guilt of keeping secrets from her is starting to get to me and I almost told her the other day in the pool. I wanted to tell her and I still do but at the same time I don't want to betray the others because we all know when she finds out we'll be kicked out and she'll never want to speak to us again.

It's understandable and it's what we would deserve but because I love her as the others do it'll be very hard to accept. I know she'll find out sooner or later but when is the question.

She might end up finding out from me or maybe one of the others. The secrets is getting to pretty much everyone but Namjoon is determined to keep it all a secret. I think it's more because of what he did to her, she'll hate him the most possibly.

Because I can't sleep I jumped off the bed and out the room to walk to the kitchen. I need a drink, not something alcoholic because I think I might spill the beans if I do that.

I changed back to my human form walking into the kitchen naked. I mean who cares everyone in this house has seen me naked.

Opening the cupboard I grabbed a glass, closing the cupboard again quietly and turning on the tap for some water but even after I just stood there within my own thoughts about this whole thing. It's driving me crazy.

It's all I think about and all I want to do right now is wake her up and tell her everything but I just can't. I'm scared.

Not to mention she asked if we wanted to visit her work office. I panicked when she asked that, I didn't want to go and I still don't. Never will I go to that place. It may be buildings filled with offices but I bet you we could still run into someone that was working at the facility at the same time we were there. Someone would recognise us.

"You couldn't sleep either?"

I yelped in surprise to he sound of yoongis voice standing at the door.

"Sorry usually you would of heard me coming." Yoongi

He scratched the top of his head, walking further into the kitchen while I tap my fingers on the counter.

"Well I've got too much on my mind right now."

"Same here. I couldn't sleep." Yoongi

He took the glass I had still filled with a little bit of water and drank the rest of the remaining water inside.

"Are you thinking about everything too? The secrets just everything?"

He nods quietly staring down at the glass and rubbing his eyes.

"Sure am. I don't know how long I can keep it from her. I might end up blurting it out to her one day." Yoongi

"I feel the same way."

"Yeah me too." Jin

We both look in the direction of Jin walking in the kitchen now with Jimin and Jungkook right behind him. Meaning Y/n is now left with Namjoon and Taehyung in bed.

"Can anybody sleep in this house tonight?" Yoongi

I shook my head but watching the three others come walking in to stand around the kitchen island that we're all crowded around.

"Nope." Jungkook

"Yeah Namjoon and Taehyung are awake too. It's just they couldn't leave her alone." Jimin

"We all know why that is." Jin

I only hummed in response as Yoongi did.

"This is so messed up."

I whispered but I know everyone in the room heard it.

"You don't have to tell me that." Jin

"But seriously though, how long does Namjoon think we can just keep this secrets from Y/n?" Yoongi

He whispered yelled, leaning over the counter top with his annoyed expression.

"I agree. I feel dirty." Jungkook

"Same here bro, same here." Jimin

Jimin pats Jungkooks shoulder pressing his lips in a thin line as he does so.

"One of us is going to tell her sooner or later. I almost did."

I admitted but they knew that already because they seen it.

"Yeah well one of us will definitely end up telling her soon. It's driving me crazy." Jin

"I think it'll be one of you two." Jimin

He points at me and then Yoongi. I felt a little offended even though it's true but Yoongi however just shrugged like it was nothing.

"If we do, we do." Yoongi

Jungkooks gasped and leaned his elbows on the counter giving Yoongi his sad puppy look that he can pull of so easily despite being a cat hybrid.

"But she'll hate us hyung. I don't want her to hate us, I love her." Jungkook

I bit my bottom lip lowering my gaze to the counter hearing him sigh heavily.

"We've already talked about this Jungkook. If she ends up hating us there's nothing we can do about it. She'll find out eventually. I don't know what Namjoon was thinking about coming here and living with her." Jin

Me neither. It was his idea to come here in the first place but there was a change of plans, we all ended up falling in love with her and that was not part of the plan.

Though Namjoon was in love with her way before we were he just didn't know it, but now that he remembers about Y/n from years ago, he's definitely come to terms with how he feels he's just got a funny way of showing it. Especially with what he asked Jin to do.

"Can we talk about something else please? We'll never go back to sleep thinking about this." Jimin

I couldn't agree more. Thinking about it is hard enough never mind actually speaking about it.

"Fine but we all know it's gonna happen. Y/n will find out and we'll never see her again." Yoongi

Jungkook quivered a lip stare the thought, while Jimin just wrapped a arm around his shoulder and took him out the room before he could get even more upset.

"Just stop Yoongi." Jin

"What it's true. And with everything else it'll just be worse and you have thanks to that by the way." Yoongi

Huh?
What's he talking about?

"Me? It's all of us that have parts to play in that not just me!" Jin

"You should of just said no and told Namjoon to do it himself!" Yoongi

They started whisper yelling at each other and I was clueless as to what was going on. What were they talking about?

"Erm, guys care to explain what's going on?"

I looked at each of them glaring at one another across the room.

"Jin here did something. Remember that plan that Namjoon asked of us?" Yoongi

Yes I remember it very well. I kind of liked the idea but wasn't too sure about it.

"Yes, why?"

"Because Jin here messed around with Y/n's pills." Yoongi

He scowled at Jin from across the room, pointing at him and then dropping his hand down with a slap.

"What?! Seriously you did that?"

I asked Jin but he couldn't look at me. After glaring at Yoongi he sighed sadly lowering his gaze to the floor with guilt.

"Yes I did that. She hasn't even noticed." Jin

I couldn't believe he actually did that. I mean really messing with her pills?!

"I never thought you'd do such a thing Jin, I mean why? Why would you do that when you were so unsure about it in the first place?"

He shrugged his shoulder to then tug on his hair aggressively.

"I don't know. I just really don't know. Desperation maybe? The thought of losing her I don't know." Jin

He wipes his face with both his hand and yoongis scoffs at him.

"Yeah well we all know how that has turned out some we and it'll just make everything worse." Yoongi

He said glaring at Jin but barging past his shoulder as he walked past leaving the kitchen. Now it was just me and Jin in the kitchen.

"I guess it's too late to reverse it now huh?"

Jin nods with his head still lowered, his chin resting on his chest. I sighed and walked towards him, patting his shoulder.

"Let's just try and get some sleep then? Okay?"

"Yeah." Jin

Nodding we both walk out the kitchen changing back to our cat forms and ran back to the bedroom. It seemed like everyone was now asleep. Yoongi however not yet but drifting quite fast as he cuddles in to the side of Y/n's left leg.

Jin laid down in a space on the opposite side of Yoongi where as I just took up a space next to Taehyung on Y/n's shoulder. Cuddled up against both Y/n and Taehyung getting ready to drift off to sleep. But before I could do that I noticed Namjoon on the other side of Y/n's sleeping body his head laid on her shoulder. He was blinking at me blankly before he squinted his eyes at me while I stared back it then shrugged off his own stare and closed my eyes ignoring him.

Now I can try and finally get some sleep even if I still can't stop thinking about everything and what is to probably come.