A full whole day, spent wisely on studying. I studied from the text book and off the text book (referring to my books). From the most difficult subject (Mathematics) to the the easiest (Korean Literature and English Literature). I took breaks in between, I watched TV and sat outside watching the clouds before going back to my studying.

A wise man once said 'education is the key to success' and right now that key is this final year. I can't fail at all I have to be the best and nothing else.

Yesterday So-hye collected all our numbers and created a group chat. This would allow us to communicate with each other about the future events and tasks of this year. Being a Leader needs time because it's time consuming-- not even 2 days in being a Leader and I'm beat.

So many rules to learn, so many meetings to attend, tasks and duties, uniform changes and after school performances not to forget our profiles. So-hye sent the profiles, Education Portfolio, Cultural Portfolio, Entertainment Portfolio, Charity&Volunteering/Fund raising Portfolio and Student Peering Portfolio. Since there are 10 of us we are working in pairs.

I personally liked the Education Portfolio but unfortunately I don't get to choose, Jimin, So-hye and the teachers choose who goes in what domain. I hope I don't get any other Portfolio, I can't stand hearing people cry because at times, my own soul cries, so the Student Peering is out. Charity and Volunteering for me that's too much sympathy and I'll get all emotional and just become a mess. I can do Entertainment but then I'm not much of an entertainer so it beats me. As for Culture, I don't even know which tribe I'm in. I know my dad was a Kasai and Baluba but I don't know which part I take up after.

The Educational Portfolio suits me because unlike other students I know when to work hard and play hard. A lot of student see school as a social gathering and and don't take their academics seriously it's only later on in life do they realise what they want to do and the seriousness of school-- especially this last year. The school already has an impressive pass rate of 98% and I would like to be a part of the team that leads the educational system. But then again it depends who I'm paired up with, I don't know most of the people in the Leaders' team other then the usual. Rachael, Uni and Kai are new to me.

All I know is that Rachael is a mean girl, not meaner then Seolhyun but in that category. She doesn't play any games with you, with her everything is straight up. A competitive girl.
Uni is shy and quiet, I don't know much about her, but "she's smart" as said from So-hye.
Kai, I heard, is a good dancer and excelled in all competitions. He's a jerk who comes off as cold and rude but he's really just honest in a spoilt way.

Then there is Namjoon, Yoongi, Hoseok, Jimin, Seolhyun, So-hye and me. Leaders of the school, it feels really good to achieve something so far in the school year.

"Okay so let's see," I slowly pace around my room. "I can either continue studying, take a short nap or eat something." The time is 18:36... I feel tired, but I'm also hungry and I want to finish the History of the Acts topic. What do I do?

Study

Sleep

Eat

...

They all sound so tempting.... I think....

I'll eat first then finish that last topic and then sleep, it'll be 20:00 by them, I estimate.

"Refrigerator hear me roar as I approach you!" I holler walking down the steps.

Entering the kitchen I see one of the maids there, she bows and smiles.

"Yoona, good afternoon," Sunmi greets.

"Hey Sunmi." I open the fridge being giggly by all the different varieties of food. Ohhh its packed.

"Early grocery and snack shopping." She says.

"I can see that.." I take the mini red velvet cake and smile to myself. I sit next to Sunmi on the stools cutting a slice for her.

Sunmi has been working here ever since my dad got a raise. I'm not that fond of her because of how close she is with my dad but her cooking is nice and she's kind to me so why not return the generosity.

"How has school been?" She asks thrusting her fork in the cake.

"Stressful. So much work being given out," I shrug my shoulders. "But I'm coping."

"I see that very well." She says looking at me. "Your father sees you studying, late at night by your desk. He says when he looks at you, it gives him a reason everyday to work hard.. because he knows his hours of sleepless nights are not going in vain." She smiles. "I try telling him to give work a break but he refuses and keeps going." I nod agreeing to give my dad a break.

"He's determined." I pluck a chunk on my fork. "The reason I work so hard is 'cause I know I have a father to impress." I think back to when my mum used to pick on my dad and would always snarl and bark at him like some animal. If I had to think back of where the determination came from I'd say it was from the earliest points of my life as a child.

I was young and pure minded. I wondered why my mum was so violent and dominant over my dad. I'd always see her fight him and thought it was normal yet unfair, because I loved my dad. He'd always leave early in the morning before I'd wake up and return when I'd be fast asleep. When he was out my mum never failed to talk bad about him. I hated that disrespect and also her. It got worse when other men would come in our house and disturb me when I would try to study or do my homework, even when I was asleep they'd touch me in places but I always scram and ran away. Mum said she was helping dad to get more money.

I told my dad about it and in the middle of the night he came in my room and helped me pack up my clothes. He said he would take me to 'Fantasia's' (A heaven of happy ever afters and a place where all your dreams can come true- cartoon show I watched). I remembered how he held my hand tightly in his as we crossed street after street, he carried me when I was tired I slept on his shoulder and the next morning woke up in his arms, slouched on a bench head croaked to one side as his eyes firmly closed.

He lied when he said he'd take me to Fantasia's. He didn't have money and I knew it, but I was patient and obeyed. Till today, I believe he'll take me there.

"I guess, he's paranoid about what happened in the past." I say. Sunmi watches me carefully, she opens her arms and comes closer to me hugging me. I hung my head on her shoulder and whimper a bit. "He's all I have left but I feel like I've lost him." I sniff. I always feel guilty for trusting Hoseok more and loving him more than my dad.

She rubs my back "He still loves you and wants the whole world for you."

"But he's my world and I only want him."

"Everything has its time and as time moves people change. He'll come back to you my sweet."

I hug her back tightly, "Thank you."
I know I'm not close with her but she's close with my dad so I trust her...when it comes to my dad.

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"The EEA was formed in 1885- no 1995.. No 1985.." I think hard. "Let's check this" I peak at my book, The Employment Equity Act was developed in 1895. It was formed so that everyone would have equal opportunities regardless of their target.

"C'mon Yoona focus." I say to myself.

I've been trying to get this in my head for the past minute but its not getting in. I think I'm too beat for this right now, I'll just finish the Acts topic tomorrow. Monday.

I close all my books and pack my stationary away. My phone beeps, I turn around walking to my bed picking up my phone by the stand removing the charger. Someone PM'ed me.

???: Don't forget to practice for your song Dizzy.

Dizzy?

Who else would it be? I giggle saving the number as Jimin:)

Me:
Thanks for the reminder

Jimin:):
No problem

I want to continue chatting with him but I don't want to make it awkward. How do I start??

Me:
How'd you get my number?

Jimin:):
Group chat

Oh yeah... Crap this is getting awkward. I'm so bad at interacting online. Well he's the one who messaged me so he should be saying something.... Maybe I should.

Jimin:):
I told you to practice for your song.

Me:
I know

Jimin:):
Then why aren't you doing it?

Me:
I am. Its just you can't see me or hear me

Jimin:):
Okay, then I shall hear you tomorrow

Me:
You cunning sneak

Jimin:):
;) Good night Dizzy. Oh don't forget about the business test tomorrow.

I smiled before closing my phone. I should go back and study for the test but I'm just too tired.

This subject always has me pulling all nighters. I guess I'll just take a short break and continue. I wonder if Jimin is also pulling an all nighter.

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