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fratello = brother 

ti amo = I love you 

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Dino gets up and runs out of the room. He prays, while looking for Logan, that he didn't go after Dani. He gets his phone from his pocket and calls Logan. He is not picking up, but Dino keeps trying. He runs through the hospital swearing all the way, trying to think of places Logan might have gone to.

He suddenly thinks of something and gets into the elevator. When he reaches the ground floor, he runs outside and crosses the road. There's a bar there, right across from the hospital. 

He rushes in and finds Logan sitting at the bar. He sits down next to him and orders a beer for himself. He sits there silently and drinks from his beer. He has no clue what is going on between Logan, Scorpia, and Dani, and figures waiting for Logan to speak is the best course of action here.

But he knows that Scorpia wouldn't want anything bad happening to Logan, so he waits patiently while taking another sip of his beer. Logan plays with the glass of whisky in his hand, without drinking from it. 

He wipes the tears from his cheeks and asks barely audible: "Have I lost her Dino?"

Dino looks at him and replies honestly. "I don't know. Did you cheat on her?"

Logan looks him dead in the eye and says: "No! I love her. Forever."

Dino stares deep into Logan's eyes and asks: "Even if she never wants to see you again?"

Logan nods. "I'm not sure I'll survive if she never wants to see me again. But even then. She's the only one for me. I gave my heart to her forever."

Dino knows he means every word and sighs. "It's a mess bro. But I hope she'll talk to you eventually." Dino feels his phone vibrate in his pocket and sees it's a message from Ciro.

Fratello?
Have you found Logan yet?
I don't think she'll be sleeping well without him.
She's dreaming of him.
Ricardo's worried too.

Dino looks at Logan and says: "Luck might be on your side. Come with me." 

Logan seems hesitant but follows him towards the hospital anyway. They take the elevator and when Logan realizes where they're headed, he becomes nervous. Dino grabs Logan's upper arm and drags Logan with him, afraid he will run away.

They step into the room and Ciro looks relieved. They hear Scorpia moan Logan's name and Ciro gets up from the bed carefully. He gives Logan a stern look and says: "Hurry up, lay down next to her!" 

Logan nods and gets into bed with her. She immediately snuggles up to him, with her head and hand on his chest. She whispers his name and smiles. Logan closes his eyes and breathes out slowly.

Ricardo sits up and runs his hand across his face. He softly says: "We're never going to be enough."

Ciro nods and says just as soft: "She will always need that damn Scot."

Ricardo says: "Yes, especially when her subconscious speaks.

Logan looks at the other men with a pained look, but Dino says: "Come guys. Single losers have no right to judge here. Leave them alone." 

The men leave the room and Logan says Bonnie in his head at least a hundred times but is afraid to say out loud. He rubs her back and begs everyone and everything he can think of for help. There's no way he can live without her.

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He wakes up with a start in the middle of the night, because he feels something brush his cheek. His eyes search for answers in the pitch-dark room and then a little sliver of light, provided by the moon, hits the beautiful brown eyes next to him in bed. He holds his breath when her fingertips trace his lips.

"Logan?"

"Yeah?"

"Kiss me."

He pushes his lips onto hers and his heart starts beating wildly. She answers his kiss slow and investigative. She moans softly and licks his bottom lip. He hesitantly parts his lips and she slides her tongue into his mouth. She rubs her tongue against his and he can't prevent a moan from escaping.

She breaks the kiss and hoarsely says: "Say it."

Logan immediately knows what she means and says: "Oh Bonnie. Ti amo." She starts to cry and hides her face against his chest. He cries with her and rubs her back lovingly.

When there are no tears left to cry, she sits up and turns the light on. She moves over to the footboard and looks at him with questioning eyes. She pulls her knees up and wraps her arms around her shins. She rests her cheek on her knees and stares deep into his eyes.

He knows what she needs to hear and takes a deep breath. He runs his fingers through his hair and says: "I don't love her Bonnie."

She doesn't move and whispers: "From the beginning."

He sits up too and closes his eyes.

"It was the third year of fighting for Salvatore. I was seventeen and didn't know any different anymore. I hadn't been home in over a year, because my opponents were stronger with every fight and my body took longer to heal. Mario thought I fought back too much that night and had his men beat me up after the fight."

"They threw me out of a moving car, into an alley and I am convinced they were planning on leaving me there to die. Dani followed them and came running. She helped me into her car and brought me to a befriended doctor."

He opens his eyes and sees the tension rise when Scorpia hears Dani's name. But also knows she needs the entire truth.

"I had noticed her watching my fights a few times. She was a beautiful, slightly older woman. She was always surrounded by men. But all of them knew she was Mario's sister and even Salvatore was a little scared of her. She always threatened with her knowledge of his business and her ability to steal from him without him ever finding out. She could look at a guy in a way that would give him erectile dysfunction for life."

"I was very impressed by her. I dreamt of her the night she saved me and left me with the doctor. The woman they were all scared of, saved me."

He looks into Scorpia's eyes and sees the strength and the pain battle in them. He swallows and continues. "I was seventeen and all I knew was fighting. Against men, watched by men. And she..."

Scorpia looks straight at him and says: "She was female, beautiful and available."

He nods and closes his eyes again.

"I got excited just by seeing her face. She obviously noticed the effect she had on me and made use of it at some point. She was my first everything. I thought she was really hot but didn't want anything to do with her, besides sex. She kept talking about going out to dinner or the movies. I didn't even listen. All I could think of was burying myself deep inside of her."

"When she left with Mario to live here, I felt relieved more than anything. She was annoying me with all her talk about the future. I didn't know a damn thing about love. Didn't want to know to be honest."

Scorpia asks: "How much time had passed, before you came here for Lexy?"

Logan says: "A little over six months and I hadn't missed her a day. Although I have to admit that I thought of her when I..."

He looks down at his crotch shyly and Scorpia whispers: "Yeah."

"I hadn't been with anyone else but her. And watching porn is not really an option in a room full of other young men. Anyway, Lexy called me. I had one of those burner phones and Lexy was the only one who had the number. She called me right before the fight and told me in tears that she was pregnant and alone."

He sighs and tries to relax his clenched fists. "I went into that fight with Lexy on my mind and destroyed my opponent. Salvatore's men tried to punish me, but I managed to escape their grip with the adrenaline rushing through my veins. I went straight to the airport with all the money I had and flew to Lexy. "

Scorpia looks into his eyes and asks: "When did you see her again?"

Logan says: "That same week. She came to the cafe. I had just bought it and Lexy was living with me."

He closes his eyes and swallows. "I didn't know about Mario. Lexy never told me and neither did Dani. I didn't even know she was raped."

Scorpia feels his struggle with his memories and says: "Just tell me. We can't turn back time."

"As soon as I saw her... We were making out and Lexy walked in on us. She screamed and asked me if I had lost my mind. Why I was face-sucking that bitch. And she made me swear to never see Dani again. I was shocked by her reaction and didn't understand it at all. But she was pregnant, so I promised to stay away from Dani."

He looks at his left hand fidgeting with the brace on his right hand. If he would have known... He feels his heart break trying to imagine the pain Lexy must have been in. Even though she didn't know about him still seeing Dani.

Scorpia states: "You kept seeing her."

Logan nods and sighs.

"I asked them both why Lexy hated Dani so much, but they never answered me. I never wanted to talk to Dani, didn't know how. And she was usually waiting for me without her clothes on. So err..."

Scorpia takes a deep breath and asks: "How often and till when?" Logan gives her a pleading look but she shakes her head. "I need to know Logan."

"At least twice a week, at her house. Until the night you asked me for my name."

Scorpia looks at him, unable to believe his words, but he keeps staring deep into her eyes.

"You never... in the cafe? And why from that moment?"

Logan moves closer to her and says: "I never hooked up with her in the cafe. At first, because Lexy lived there too and Lucas when he was born. But when they moved to their own apartment, I could have. I just didn't want to. I used Dani. Niet consciously, but still... I went there, did what I wanted, and left. I never said I loved her. We never really spoke."

He strokes her ankle softly and says: "When you suddenly asked me for my name, it felt like I had won the lottery. I smiled like an idiot the entire night."

Scorpia smiles carefully and says: "You broke through my wall somehow and that was exciting and scary at the same time. Even though the timing was horrible, with the whole killing Salvatore plan."

Logan sighs and says: "Oh Bonnie. I can't explain our love at all, but I feel better when I touch you. I love you. I would die alone, loving you if you never wanted to see me again. I am convinced that this love never fades."

Scorpia says: "Dani claims she loves you. Even after you killed Mario." Logan looks a bit stunned and Scorpia adds: "She told me when you were out in the hallway. I might have threatened her a little." 

Scorpia looks at her ankle, where Logan's long fingers are still stroking her skin. "She told me she wouldn't go after you. Especially now that you've made it so clear that you never loved her. But I did ask her to be my lawyer. She's good Logan. I need her."

Logan looks at his fingers too and sighs. He looks up at her, while her words sink in. "Wait. You threatened her?" Scorpia looks up at him and nods. He grins and asks: "Did you tell her to stay away from me?"

Scorpia blushes and says: "Maybe."

Logan tugs at her ankle to pull her closer to him and looks at her with dark grey eyes. She gasps and he quickly pushes his lips onto hers. She welcomes his tongue into her mouth while running her fingers through his hair. Logan moans when she softly sucks on his tongue. 

She moves her hand from his chest down to his stomach and opens his jeans. She slides her hand into his boxers and giggles when she feels how excited he is already.

"Bonnie... I'm not going to last long..."

She wraps her fingers around his erection and bends over slowly.

"Oh hell..."

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There you go, chapter 38.

You will have to imagine the short steamy scene yourself this time.
It didn't feel right to me.

I am glad they're not giving up, aren't you?

See you for the next update.
XO Hankie.