Welllll... another year had passed.

Almost. It still has like... 5 hours or so.

It was hell of a ride. I guess it was a real lifechanging year, in so many aspects.

It had its highs and lows.

Who am i kidding? It was a bloody grenade, rollarcoaster and an earthquake all combined.

It literally shook my word.

And i'm not even the most sociable person on the planet, i'm only just a simple, introvert bookworm, who feels most at peace at home, sitting in the window and reading. And it was a hella hard year for me too.

I can't even imagine how hard it had been to those who actually have social life, love life and so many others things that i don't have.

2018! You've been a terrible roller coaster from day one! You tested me from all angles! Even those i didn't even know about. I wouldn't say you were the greatest year of my life, too many life changing things came from you. You have been the most stressful thing i've ever done, but mostly rewarding.

I faced my demons. A lot. I didn't won my battle with them. not yet. But i hope i will, probably the next year. I still have massive social and general anxiety, and this year i faced with some depression too. But i... i stood up again. I'm barely standing, but i am.

I would say this year has been a year of creating and being my most authentic self. I wasn't afraid to stand up and i say : i'm not okay, and hey, i'm weird, quirky, nerdy, totally awkward, bad tempered, but hey! I am me! And no one else is like me. I am me.

And for the first time in my life.. I encouraged myself to be like me, and i actually have the courage to be like me.

I'm actually a little excited to continue my journey, and be brave when i feel vulnerable and weak.

I believe that i'm stronger, and wiser and more determined than ever!

I started this year on the middle of my senior year in high school, and a little heartbroken, after that guy i was - or i am - in love with hurt my feelings a little, on the cotillion/prom whatever you call it.

As i've mentioned it was hell of a ride: finishing high school, graduation, say goodbye to old friends who were like my family and i missed them more terribly than i've imagined, getting accepted into university, Hungary's top university, on the very same afternoon when i came home from our vacation in Greece (it was nothing like My Big Fat Green Wedding, i stayed single), started university this september, and now, after a lot of suffering, i finally starting to feel like i belong.

This year i binge watched some best, og serieses ever: gilmore girls, one tree hill and downton abbey. They seriously saved my year.

Although there were heartbroken moments too: i am still single, 18 years and counting. I'm still in love with the guy i've been in love with for 3 years, and now i don't even see him, and i had a pretty depressed and lonely summer, say goodbye to my high school family, and my university class (my major consist like 50 people so its more like a class) feels strange and unfamiliar, like i would some stranger or outlander in a foreign land, sometimes i still feel like i'm not enough, that i'm not smart enough.

How to be a failing student from an honor student aka the story of my life. Brought to you by me, sponsored by Introduction of Lingustics.

(But here's a thing: my love life consist a bottle of Nutella and watching Glen Powell in Set It Up, and i'm not even joking)

And so on...

Some of the other happiest moments of 2018:

- meeting with my best friend, my soulmate, my partner in crime last month

- netflix rom coms saved us!!!

- anne with an e season 2

- writing

- that feltson moment that saved 2018

- being a bridesmaid and catch the bouquet of the bride (ha! I will be the next to get married! Ha ha ha ha ha ! what a fantastic joke!)

- getting new friends, kinda

- reading so many great books

- netflix's elite

- my otps

- legacies

- crazy rich asians

- the skam bloopers

- the last few weeks of high school

- scandinavian literature class

- the bold type season 2

(It means something that most of my happiest moments were serieses and movies)

Happy New Year everybody!!! I encourage you to be your best self, find inner peace, first of all love and appreciate yourself, put your happiness and health before everybody else's, keep pushing forward, keep fight, keep studying, listen some great music, gather some beautiful memory, visit wonderful places! Make a good life for you! Make your dreams come true!

And don't forget: Karma does exist!!! Good people does get a reward!

New years eve of 2018