all the way through high school, through all the drama and anxiety and crying, my mom always encouraged me with this:

hold on, because in a few years you will be on university, you will be among people whose interests, hobbies and personalities are the same as yours. life will be so much better.

and here i am...

now...

i love my internet-friends, they are my partner-in-crimes, my fierce amazon warriors, they are the one who always has my back...

i love my best friend from high school, because all through that, we still keep in toucha and meet and talk. she knows me.

but...

it feels like i'm more lonely than ever.

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i miss my crazy high school class. I knew everybody, and everybody knew me. not like i've have loved everybody or everybody would have loved me. but i miss the environment, the inside jokes, the familiar faces, all the laughs and love. god, i miss them so much!

and you know what?

i would love if anyone, literally anyone will came across to me on the street. i would hug them and tell that i miss them.

even if i feel like no-one would be happy if they would meet me. )

december 2018