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Sorry but due to some unforseen circumstances I couldn't update on time!!!! Anyway

Today's chapter is all about emotional confrontation & confession and also by far the longest one.

So if that makes you bored...My apologies in advance !!!!

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Sidharth what's wrong? Tum sun kyu nahi rahe ho

STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME !!!!!!

Sidharth roared jerking her hands off him.

Shehnaaz flinched at his tone completely taken aback by his sudden anger but soon her expression changed into frown when she saw his painful state and that churned her heart

It was evident that he cried but why ??

He looked like a mess !!!!!

Moments ago they were so happy what could have gone wrong???

Shoving her thoughts aside Shehnaaz immediately stood by his side gripping his shoulder

Sana : (worried) What happened Sidharth? Why do you look so angry? Am I missing something?
Please batao mujhe !!!!!

He didn't respond instead looked her in the eyes as if trying to read something.

Smiling painfully, he held her hand in his and made her sit quietly while she obeyed silently still clueless about the whole situation.

She knew something was definitely wrong BUT what was the question.

Breaking the long silence Sid spoke nonchalantly

Sid : (calm) You know I love you right ?

She nodded her head surprised at his question. She wasn't getting a good vibe about this at all, her heart beat was racing

Sana : Off course I do Sidharth but why do you ask.....

Before she could complete he threw another question at her

Sid : WHY ARE YOU WITH ME SHEHNAAZ?

Sana looked at him with vague eyes.

Sana : Sidharth yeh kaisa sawal hain....tum bhi jaante ho.......

(Another question)

Sid : Do you love me?

Sana was now utterly confused. What has gotten into him all of a sudden?

Sana : Sidharth why all this........

Sid : Yes or No ?

Sana : Sidharth is something wro........

Sid : (loud) JUST YES OR NO ?

Shehnaaz looked at him in disbelief. She was getting angry now, she immediately got up matching his tone

Sana : STOP IT SIDHARTH!!!
WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU??
Ho kya gaya hain tumhe achanak? Aise kyu behave kar rahe ho?

Sid kept mum, hurt still reflecting in his eyes. Shehnaaz's eyes immediately softened

After having gone through so much they're finally together. And now there is no way Shehnaaz was going to let anything go wrong amidst them. Nothing can drift them apart.

Moving closer she placed her palm on his cheek

Sana : (soft) What's the matter Sidharth? Did I hurt you? Agar aisa hain toh please tell me...I promise I will fix it. I can do anything for you. But just please say something.

Sidharth removed her hand from his cheek and her heart ached.

Sid : Let's watch a movie. Come !!!!

She was stunned by his reply
Why was he acting so weird??
She kept staring at him in silence until a video caught her attention

Sana's eyes widened in horror. She froze in shock

Averting her gaze from the screen she looked at Sidharth who had no expression on his face

Flashback

Ashok Shukla & Shehnaaz were settled in the hall having a conversation

Ashok : I don't know how is it gonna come across to you Shehnaaz but I want you to know this was by far the most difficult decision I had taken in years

Sana was confused. What did he mean?

Sana : I'm sorry Mr Shukla but I really don't get you. If you don't mind, can we please come to the point?

Ashok : Alright then!!! The point here is Miss Gill that we may have to reconsider this Contract
(He blurted straight)

Sana : (immediately alert) What do you mean Reconsider?

Ashok : Miss Gill what I mean is....that I've added an extra clauses in the contract. And that we can only go ahead with it.....if I get your signatures on this agreement papers. Just a signature & we are on. As simple as that.

But if at all you disagree then I'm afraid we may have to withdraw and cancel the contract with Gills.

Sana was shocked would be an understatement. She couldn't believe what she heard.

Was he serious??

Just when her faith was restoring a little that may be there are people honest & wise like him that do exist.....but it was all short-lived .
He was no different than others...he too belongs to those same cunning & manipulative bunch. She should have known!!!

She was extremely disappointed. May be Sidharth was right about him after all. May be he really isn't worth respecting
She replied him with anger & disgust evident in her tone

Sana : I don't believe this !!!!!!
Such a shallow & unprofessional move from a man like you simply doesn't become you Mr Ashok Shukla.

This right here might just be a piece of paper for you Mr Shukla.
But this means & matters a lot to me cuz I've earned it. I've worked day & night harder to reach where I am.
And I don't give that right to mock my hardwork to anyone. Not you...not anyone !!!
Pehli baar aisa lagraha k shayad maine kisi ko pehchane mein galti kardi.

Ashok : Before you jump into any conclusion Miss Gill please hear me out. Shayad tumhare liye decision lena itna mushkil naa ho

Shehnaaz averted her gaze from him disappointed. She was about to walk out when his words made her stop in her tracks immediately

Ashok : Janti ho log kya kehte hain??
K duniya mein aisi koi chiz nahi... jo Ashok Shukla Kharid nahi sakta ya phir ushe hasil nahi karsakta!!!
Galat kehte hain....ek aisi chiz hain jo duniya mein Mere liye sabse zyada keemti hain par main cha kar bhi ushe kabhi kharid nahi sakta
Mere bete ki khushi...ushe kaise kharidu??

Shehnaaz turned to face him. She looked at him with vague eyes while he continued

Ashok : Right now it's not Ashok Vardhan Shukla The Business Tycoon sitting before you Shehnaaz
The Man you're talking to is a miserable father who loves his son and who can do anything to see him happy. But I'd need your help. Because it's you who can make it possible. Only you can !!!!!

Shehnaaz was too numb to react. She had no idea where was this conversation leading to and how was she even related to all this.

Sana : What do you mean?

Ashok : Yes Shehnaaz..Only you can heal my son. You are his source of happiness
Because.......HE LOVES YOU !!!!!! SIDHARTH LOVES YOU A LOT !!!!
I had seen the change in him eversince you entered into his life. His happiness lies in you. I had seen him yearning for you.
You are my last ray of hope Shehnaaz to bring him out of darkness
Only you can end all his misery.
Bas uski zindagi mein shamil hojao.. Help him heal

I may come across to you as a selfish man for now but I'm doing this for my son.

Par iska matlab yeh bilkul nahi k main tumhe kisi bhi baat k liye force karunga.
It's on you to decide.
I know you may not love him now.....but you can try at least. I never doubted your professional abilities Shehnaaz but main yeh sirf apne bete k khushi k liye kar raha hu !!!!!

He finished speaking waiting for her final decision

Shehnaaz was still reeling from the shock, she felt her head spinning. All this was too much to process.

What the hell was happening??

Sidharth loves her...Does he?

Could this really be true ?

Although their was no denying about their feelings for each other that has grown much intense & deeper with time.
But that still doesn't change the fact they haven't confronted or confessed the same to each other

Shehnaaz was in a great dilemma now

A part of her jumped & screamed in joy after knowing that Sidharth loves her.
She was over the moon but another part of her felt this was unfair.
How could she agree to such condition. Love can never be conditional!!!!

After a long silence and debate between her mind & heart Sana knew what she had to do. She simply extended her hands forward for a handshake

Sana : DEAL !!!!!
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Shehnaaz immediately ran to him holding his hands. Fuck NO...he was clearly misunderstanding and that scared her to death.

Sana : (stammering) Sidharth...I....I can explain. You're misunderstanding...please believe me. Main tumhe batana bhi chati par....

Sid : (tearful) Kya batana chati thi Shehnaaz?
Huh?? KYA??
THAT.....How conveniently you played with my feelings...??
How brilliantly you faked emotions.....??
(choking) YOU....YOU USED ME Shehnaaz Gill??

He choked while Shehnaaz continously nodded her head in negative

Sana : (crying) NO NO NO please don't say that Sidharth.
That is not true. You're misunderstanding
(choking)
Tumne.... jo dekha woh sach.....sach hain par.......

She couldn't complete her words as he shut his eyes turning away. He clenched his fist as soon as she blurted out last words.

Shehnaaz had never been so scared in her life before this

NO....not his anger that she was afraid of but it was him.....she was afraid of losing him.

Sidharth still wasn't able to believe that his Naaz could betray him

She cried clutching his shirt feeling helpless

Sana : (pleading) Sidharthhhh.......I didn't mean to hurt you, I swear but main tumhe..........

Yet again interrupting her from speaking, he ran his fingers over his hair laughing painfully he wiped his tears

Sid : (laughing) Itna bada ehsaan kar rahi thi Shehnaaz Gill ? Ha??
K chalo pyaar nahi toh kya hua ? Pyaar ka natak hi kar lete hain......Hmmm???
Puri life bichare ne thokar khayi hain....uspar thoda rehem toh khaa hi sakte hain....Hain na ???
Aur upar se bevkuf pehle se hi mujh par Mar mita hain....toh zyada mehnat bhi nahi lagegi....Kyu???

Kaise Miss Gill.....Kaise chukau main aap ka ehsaan??

Shehnaaz's heart was breaking. His accusations felt like an arrow stabbing her heart.

Sidharth was hurting too much & so he kept blabbering all sort of nonsense. He kept repeating those words again & again

Sid : (Exhausted) I LOVED YOU SHEHNAAZ... I LOVED YOU MORE THAN MY EXISTENCE BUT YOU DON'T......YOU NEVER DID !!!!!
Everything was a pretence!!!

But look at me.... Like a pathetic...hopeless loser...I still love you !!!
You were always right I am a LOSER....SIDHARTH MATHUR IS A WORTHLESS LOS......

He couldn't complete his words as Sana pulled him in force sealing her lips with his shutting him up at once. She kissed him fiercely but pulled away quickly before Sidharth could respond. He stood rooted at his spot staring at her bewildered & motionless.

The lioness Shehnaaz was back & she snapped back annoyed

Sana : I'M SORRY BUT YOUR BLABBERING HAD TO BE STOPPED !!!!!
ENOUGH Sidharth....Tab se bas tum hi bole jaa rahe ho.....
Aur kuch bhi bole jaa rahe ho.

FINE I'M SORRY.... I kept this truth away from you....& the only reason was because I didn't know how you'd react....
I was scared okay !!!!!!
I was scared of THIS....EXACTLY THIS.....
YOUR EXTREME REACTION....
Koi sympathy or pretend nahi kar rahi thi main kuch !!!!! Nothing was a pretence Sidharth !!!!

Main bas tumhe yeh sab aise waqt par batana chati thi jab tum meri baat sirf suno nahi.... use samjho bhi !!!!!!

Her hands traveled upto his nape, cupping them gently she looked at him with eyes full of love and spoke with extreme softness in her tone

Sana : Mujhe mujse se bhi acche se Janne ka dawa karte ho na tum......Yehi jana hain tumne???.....Bas Itna hi jaan paaye mujhe ???

REHEM....SYMPATHY?? REALLY SIDHARTH??

(After a pause...)
Sidharth main tumhari life mein apni marzi se shamil hui hu.....kisi k kehne par ya kisi ka favour k lautane k liye nahi...
(Choking)
Main kaise samjhau tumhe Sidharth..... that....that YOU MAKE ME HAPPY !!!!
I'm the most happiest person when with you !!!!!!!!!!!!
You're my safest heaven !!!!!!
And most important of all.....
With you...I can be myself....the person that I really am !!!!!!!
I'm just Me Sidharth....no inhibitions no insecurities....Just ME !!!!!!!!
Koi dikhawa ya jhoot nahi tha Sidharth.....sab sach tha !!!!!

Tears welled up in her eyes & this time even Sidharth let his tears flow

Shehnaaz was heartbroken when he walked away without responding. She kept staring at his retreating figure feeling extremely restless

What is she suppose to do to stop him from leaving.

To make him understand???
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As much as Sidharth wanted to believe her he was too fucked up in the head that he just couldn't think straight. He was confused what is it that was making him more mad the video or his past?

Shehnaaz followed him inside the cabin & the moment he saw her he got up to leave when her words made him stop in his tracks

Sana : How far Sidharth? How far do you think you can keep running away from this?? Kabhi naa kabhi toh face karoge na?

Sid turned to face her trying to comprehend her words while Sana continued looking him in the eye

Sana : Tumhe kya lagta hain main nahi samajti...Main janti hu tum mujpar gussa nahi ho....Tumhare gusse ki wajah koi aur hain....It's HIM...hain na??

Sana saw his face becoming pale. They way his pupils darted said it all.

Mustering up her courage she walked a little closer gulping in nervousness as she knew this was an extremely sensitive topic for Sidharth

Sana : Sidharth I may not know the entire truth but whatever I had observed so far can't be a lie either !!!!!
I...I have seen him miserable Sidharth.
I have seen him helplessness.
He cares for you. He really loves you Sidharth & misses you a lot

Sidharth eyes were turning red in anger and breathing uneven yet Shehnaaz continued gathering all the courage unaware of the storm that was building inside him

Sana : May be it was all a misunderstanding....May be you misunderstood him aur sach kuch aur hi ho....Maine jo dekha woh jhoot nahi ho sakta. After all he is your father Sidharth....How can a father wrong his own son. He begged me for you happiness Sidharth. Woh bas tumhari khushi chate hain. Trust me he really loves you.
He really does and........

Sidharth was beyond enraged. He was constantly clenching his fist & letting it lose trying to not lose his calm. She had no idea her every words were only triggering him aggravating his anger by ten fold

Finally his last thread of patience broke & he busted gripping her shoulders with immense force hurting her beyond extent

Sid : SHUT THE FUCK UP SHEHNAAZ GILL JUST SHUT UP !!!!!

All hell broke loose for Sidharth & his body shook with anger. Leaving her immediately he started pacing like a mad man breaking & destroying things that came to his reach. He needed to vent out his anger before he did something he regretted.

Shehnaaz couldn't fathom the amount of hatred he had inside him for his father so much that he wasn't even ready to hear the good about him. She stood there unmoved & completely shocked

Sidharth turned to her and spoke making the most painful confession of his life that could have made a stone cry

Sid : (agonized) DO YOU KNOW WHAT IS IT REALLY LIKE TO FEEL MISERABLE??

What actually being helpless feels like??

Taking two steps back Sid tore his shirt at once revealing his upper bare body while a chill ran down her spine. Her heart churned

Sid : Do you see these scars & burn marks This is how I was torchured. They use to torchure me burning me with cigarette and hot skewer on my skin

They use to drug me each day so that I lose my mental balance.

Mujhe shock dete the kyun ki main dard mein rota tha....tadap tha....chilla ta tha

Shehnaaz covered her mouth with both hands. It was too dreadful to even imagine. She was completely shaken. Sid started crying like a baby choking

Sid : Only because that woman hated me & my mother. Meri Maa ki jaan le li phir Mere saath yeh sab.......

(Crying)
Koi kisi k saath aisa kaise kar sakta hain Shehnaaz ??

Koi ek bacche k saath aisa kaise kar sakta hain??

Kitna dard hota tha mujhe.... kitna tadapta tha !!!

Par itna majboor aur bebas tha k rone se bhi darr lagta tha...har pal khauff mein rehta tha....k pata nahi kal kya karenge??

it was worst than death !!!! Pal pal Mara hu main !!!

And YOU SAY HE IS MISERABLE ???

Itna hi pyaar tha toh tab kyu nahi the woh Mere paas?

Jab main raat raat bhar behosh pada rehta tha?

Itni fikar thi toh tab kyu nahi ek baar dekhne aaye k kahi...mera baccha zinda bhi hain ya mar gaya?

Koi nahi aaya tab Shehnaaz !!!!! Koi Nahi !!!!Tabhi nahi when I was fighting with my life My spine was damaged & I just laid like a lifeless body for months....I almost died.

Par main Dara bilkul nahi....main khush tha k ab main finally apne Mumma k paas jaa rahi hu.....

Par ush halat mein bhi meri ek hi khwaish thi...
I just had one wish before I died.

I wanted to meet him. I wanted to meet my father. Ek aakhri baar.....par woh nahi aaye Shehnaaz...woh kabhi nahi aaye.

Aur zindagi bhi aisi k chain se marne bhi diya...Bach gaya main...kyunki shayad thoda aur dard dena reh gaya tha

Agar Bosco nahi hote toh shayad aaj main zinda bhi nahi bachta. Woh log mujhe torchure dekar hi maar dete yaa phir zindagi bhar k liye mujhe pagal kar dete !!!!

(Choking) Maine zindagi main kabhi koi afsos nahi kiya Shehnaaz....sivaye ek...
Maa k saath saath ush accident mein main bhi kyu nahi margaya ??

KAASH USH DIN MAA K SAATH SAATH ush accident mein meri jaan bhi chali jati

Pehle Meri Maa ko cheen liya mujhse...phir meri zindagi tabah kardi...They ruined my life Shehnaaz....they ruined me!! I can never forgive them...Never !!!!!

Sidharth broke down on the floor completely devastated while tears streamed down her eyes uncontrollably. His painful was unimaginable.

Sana was immediately on her knees to his level. She hugged him wrapping her arms at the back of his neck while sid reciprocated buring his head on her chest She tightened her hold more comforting him. Her touch was working magically on him calming his senses

Sana : (sobbing) I'm sorry Sidharth..I'm really sorry. How did you even endure all this? Itna kuch kaise....kaise seh liya tumne? Kaise kar liya Sidharth? Dard.... Kitna dard hua hoga tumhe?

Her words breaking as she cried uncontrollably hiding him in her cocoon. It was hurting her too much & making her extremely mad to know about his sufferings

Sidharth again tried to wriggle out of her hold while she didn't budge at all

Sid : (tired) I don't want anybody's sympathy. Just leave me alone Shehnaaz please. I don't...don't have energy to argue...mujhe akele rehne hain. Jao yaha se

He kept pushing her away but Shehnaaz was too adamant instead she clung onto him even more

Sana : (yelling) No I'm never leaving you chahe tumhari marzi ho ya naa ho....not now not ever. Ek baar tumhe kho ke dekh liya Sidharth ab kabhi nahi..

Tumhe andaza bhi nahi hoga tum Mere liye kya ban chuke ho...
Tum Mere liye sab kuch ho...aur jo bhi tumne dekha woh pura sach nahi hain.... Tum woh pehle insaan ho jiske liye main sab kuch kho sakti hu....khud ko bhi.....par tumhe nahi kho sakti
Because you're worth it !!!!!!

Shehnaaz pulled away from the hug & stared at him with extreme love & intensity & Sidharth felt himself melting

A sudden silence fell in the atmosphere

Shehnaaz cupped his face and made the most awaited & heartfelt confession to him

Shehnaaz : I LOVE YOU.... I LOVE YOU SIDHARTH... !!!!!!
I love you SO MUCH...I ALWAYS DID !!!!!!YOUR LOVE IS LIKE A DRUG TO ME. I NEED THAT DRUG TO FUNCTION !!!!!!!
YOU COMPLETE ME SIDHARTH.
And I can't imagine my life without you. I can't lose you!!!

She held onto him so tight almost closing the distance as she repeated the words clutching him fearing he would walk away leaving her again

Sana : Mere itne kareeb aane k baad Mujhe apne aap se dur mat karo Sidharth....
I need you & I just need you. May be I'm selfish but I'm selfish for you love. Please don't push me away Sidharth...please....I LOVE YOU....I REALLY DO.....

Not letting her complete Sidharth closed the remaining distance...He kissed her passionately and Shehnaaz responded instantly pouring all the love she had
It was a kiss with mixed emotions. Pain Fear, need and love.

They pulled away slowly gasping for air. Their eyes reflected the deepest desire of feeling each other close

Unable to handle his burning gaze on her she lowered her eyes only to frown..her eyes traveled to his torso and a lone tear escaped from her eyes.

Those burnt marks & scars on his body made her heart cry in pain.
It was hurting her so much that she wanted to kill those monsters who tortured her love so brutally & caused him immense pain.

She so wished to heal them, erase them all with her love...And she did just that !!!!

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Sobbing she trailed her fingers slowly on those scars making him smile. Sidharth felt a tear drop fall on his chest. She bent a little placing her lips right above his chest kissing him lovingly.

She continued caressing each marks on his body weeping & trailing kisses from his chest to his mid riff moving all the way down to his abdomen and all over his torso where the scars were visible. She was trying to heal him with her gentle kisses and love while Sidharth had his eyes shut all throughout as her soft lips touched his skin

He felt so much love for her that moment at the same time he realized the depth of her love for him. How much he meant to her.

And why not after all they were a Twin Flame of One Soul

Shehnaaz didn't stop there. She continued peppering innumerable kisses on him pouring all her love. She made her way upwards kissing his neck...his jaw...she kissed his cheeks and finally placed her lips on his eyeslashes one by one kissing his tears away

Her actions were igniting fire within his body...An intense desire ran through him to love her like never before
Unable to resist anymore Sidharth again placed his lips on her and this time the kiss turned more heated & wild

He lifted her up in a bridal style without breaking the kiss and gently placed her on the bed.They were high on love.The fear of losing each other had gripped their mind so much that they wanted to hide each other inside themselves for eternity.

Slowly leaving her lips he moved to her ear pressing his lips on her earlobe, sending shivers down her spine.
Nuzzling his nose against her cheek..he huskily whispered in her ear making her cheeks flushed in heat

Sid : I want you NAAZ !!! I NEED YOU !!!!! I want to love you....BUT your comfort is foremost. I will not proceed if you're uncomf..........

Shehnaaz pulled him in for a quick kiss letting him know that she loves him as much as he does & she needs his love as much as he need hers!!

Pulling away from the kiss she whispered hiding her face in his chest

Sana : Does that answer your question !!!

Sidharth instantly smiled & slid his fingers in hers interlocking them together he moved their arms upwards

He buried his face in her neck trailing feather light wet kisses on her jaw moving down to her throat & all over her collarbone while Shehnaaz's toes curled up in need & she moaned his name in desire making him go crazy

His hands travelled up her shoulders pulling the straps down while peppering kisses on her shoulder blades

He touched & traced every inches of her skin with his fingertips sensually making her squirm under his pleasing touch

He moved all the way down till her cleavage and placed a deep kiss there driving her insane.

Shehnaaz's breath hitched when he pulled the hem of her dress sliding it all the way down off her body.

There she laid all bare in front of his eyes like an Angel from heaven.
He lay above her & the moment their bare skin came in contact it was all fireworks.

She was too shy & immediately hugged him in response hiding herself completely into him.

Sid : You're an Aesthetic Beauty Naaz & All mine. Just Mine !!!!

Sidharth kissed her temple and whispered with pride in his eyes. Shehnaaz cheeks flushed but at the same time she felt blessed to have found such partner who loves & respects her Endlessly

She arched her back in pleasure clutching the sheets as his hands moved on her curves exploring every inches of her flesh. Making his way down he pressed his lips on her stomach and she moaned his name like a prayer

Sana : Sidhaaarth!!!!!!!

Sidharth wasn't just loving her but he was worshipping her body. His each touch & kisses were bringing her every cell every fibre of her body back to life.

Soon he removed any last barriers between them as every inch of their skin came in contact making them lose their last bit of senses.

Sid : I LOVE YOU NAAZ !!!!!

Sana : I LOVE YOU

Shehnaaz murmured breathing heavily

Confessing again Sidharth slowly eased himself into her taking her breath away.

Shehnaaz immediately bit her lips and instantly wrapping her arms on his back...she dug her nails into his skin scratching him trying to take in the sharp pain that crawled inside her

A lone tear of pain escaped her eyes but Sidharth kissed them away

SID : You'll be okay NAAZ. I won't hurt you...I promise !!!!

And Sidharth did just that...he kept his promise

After giving her enough time to adjust, Shehnaaz relaxed a little. When he felt her breathings were even

Sidharth again sealed their lips together kissing her before he plunged himself deeper into her while she gasped writhing & moaning in passion all night completely indulged & drowned in his love !!!!!!!!!

All night they kissed eachother's every wound every scar to show how beautiful they really are. No matter how imperfect they were as individual..For eachother they were an epitome of Perfection !!!!!
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See you soon folks 😘🤗