im sitting here  10:38 reviewing my text. Hannah if you are reading this i am so sorry
aL i can say is sorry so here.
im sorry.im sorry.im sorry.im sorry.im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry.im sorry.im sorry.im sorry.im sorry.im sorry.im sorry.im sorry.im sorry.im sorry.im sorry.im sorry.im sorry. im sorry.im sorry. im sorry. im sorry.im sorry.
This. what i am doing to you. you dont understand what i am doing to myself. I am so lost and scared and afraid. I am afraid the one person that gives a crap if im dead or not will stop caring. Im sorry for pushing you away Hannah. Im sorry. I wonder if showing you i want and need you to stay will make you. I need you. You picked up what everyone else stepped over and ignored. You were sent to me by god and i didnt know. I didnt know what i have been crying and praying for i had been taking for granted and pushed away. I need to let go. But first i need to tell you why im so unstable and insecure. That monster inncident.
Fifth Grade,2013 january 12.
"Caitlyn,Ellie wait up!" caitlyn tweed and Ellie dollan didnt stop they just told me to go faster. I transfered to Stearly Heights Elementary and i needed to get friends,even if it meant hurting the people who liked me."We're playing a greek god game,you are daughter of Apollo,controler of the night."
A few minutes later
"I never knew conor had liked me" i blushed at the fact. "Ugh dont date that fat loser he is so not worth it have you seen him?!?" i was so angry "I have!!!"
time skip cuz a lot of crap happened later
Conor passed me a note "Why are you breaKing up with me?!?" i sigjed and ket a tear fall but i wiped it before anyone could see. "because i dont like you" tesrs were threatining my eyes i didnt want to but Caitlyn threatened our frienship for him
After school
I was miserable i Grabbed my scooter and was about to go home. "Kaitlynn wait!!!" i was grabbed by my shoulder "i never got a kiss!"i scoffed holding tears down ,being careful about the tone of my voice. "i brokevup with you remember?" that was when something inside of him snapped. He stripped me of my first kiss. He brought me behind the building and Forced his lips on mine. I pushed him off and rode home. He tried to get his minion to run after me but i lost him after a while.