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today, 2:19am

eunhee
is anyone awake?

heeseung
girl it's 2am..

eunhee
i'm aware of that

but none of my friends are awake right now

so i'm kinda just laying here doing nothing yk

heeseung
why are you awake?

don't you have school in the morning?

eunhee
i could ask you the same thing

and yes, i do have school

heeseung
i asked first

eunhee
fair enough

heeseung
wait just dm me

everyone else is asleep rn so i don't wanna wake them by blowing up their phones

eunhee
👍
seen

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lee_h01
today, 2:22am

eunhee
hi

also sorry if i woke you up or something

heeseung
you didn't dw

i'm always awake super late anyways so idrc

anyways, what's keeping you awake?

eunhee
idk if it's tmi tho

heeseung
are you comfortable talking about it?

because if you aren't, you don't have to talk to me about it.

eunhee
i'm comfortable with it

i just don't really know if it's too early to talk about something like this with you?? if that makes sense?

we've only really known each other for a few days so i wasn't sure if you were really okay with me talking about deep stuff ig

sorry if i'm ranting

heeseung
don't apologize if you haven't done anything wrong

it's alright, i'm fine it

we're friends now, remember?

you don't need to hesitate to talk to me

i won't judge, i promise

i'm here to talk if you ever need me :)

eunhee
wait stop bc you're making me cry more

heeseung
you're crying ??

eunhee
yes

heeseung
why ?? :(

eunhee
the same reason i'm even awake rn lol

heeseung
and why is that?

eunhee
it's kinda stupid

but graduation is coming up soon and i was just thinking

no one will be there for me

like at the end

in the crowd where all the parents are

watching their kid go on the stage and stuff yk

heeseung
why? if you don't mind me asking, of course

eunhee
i already let you know that i'm comfortable talking about it, so no need to constantly ask if it's okay to ask stuff

but thank you for being respectful

heeseung
of course :) i just don't want to accidentally overstep one of your boundaries

eunhee
that's understandable

heeseung
so, what happened? won't your parents be there for you?

eunhee
that's the thing

my mother passed away when i was six, and my father and i never had a good relationship after her death

he blamed me for it, and honestly i sometimes look back at it and blame myself as well

we were in the car and i was begging my mom to turn on the radio. she had all of her attention on trying to get the radio on because it wasn't working properly and she wanted to please me

we ended up running a red light and heading into oncoming traffic

she passed away shortly after arriving at the hospital, where as i survived with only a broken wrist and scars and bruises

i'm sorry if it's a lot

heeseung
no, no it's okay

i'm so sorry you had to go through all of that, eunhee

eunhee
it's okay

it's been years since then

heeseung
you're a really strong person, eunhee

i hope you know that

and i really want you to know that it wasn't your fault. you were never the one to blame

you were only a little kid, you had no harmful intentions

it was out of your control

eunhee
i know

that's what my friends told me

but i can't help but feel guilty

if i hadn't been so set on listening to the radio that day, things would have most likely turned out differently

heeseung
i understand how you can feel the way

but please, do not blame yourself

again, i'm always here for you if you ever need someone to talk to

eunhee
lol i'm literally crying even more

thank you

heeseung
you're welcome :)

also, about your dad

you didn't have to stay with him, did you?

eunhee
no, fortunately my aunt on my mom's side took me in

i was staying with her for most of my childhood and moved out on my own shortly after i turned eighteen because i felt like i was burdening her by staying with her all that time

she's currently on a business trip in busan so she won't be able to make it to my graduation ceremony

she already apologized for it

my father does send me money frequently to help cover the cost of rent, school, food, etc.. because i am still his daughter afterall, even as much as he hates me

heeseung
that's good

also if you need help with money or something, tell me

i'm more than happy to help you out

eunhee
that's really considerate of you, but it won't be necessary

i'm doing pretty well right now

heeseung
okay, that's fine

also..

eunhee
?

heeseung
i'll show up to the graduation ceremony for you :)

eunhee
really??

you will?

heeseung
hehe yes ofc

eunhee
what about jungwon and ni-ki?

heeseung
ehh i'll cheer for them ig

but i'll cheer louder for you ☺️

eunhee
i'm not sure what to say

but thank you so much :(

heeseung
there's no need to say anything

just go to sleep now

you have school in the morning !!

eunhee
you're right

thank you for talking to me

i honestly thought all of you were gonna be asleep or i'd just get ignored or something lol

heeseung
noo i assure you, if the other's were awake, they'd all immediately reply to your message

we're all besties, remember?

that's the whole point of the group chat name

anyways, goodnight eunhee :)

get lots of rest!

eunhee
goodnight !!

thank you for everything again
seen

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AUTHOR'S CORNER
i'm really sorry for taking so long to publish this !! :(

i've had a really rough start to 2023 and a doctor's appointment scheduled for tuesday 😔

i should probably be sleeping right now, but i can't sleep at all so i decided to come on here and try to write a little bit

this chapter is just diving deeper into eunhee's backstory a little, along with her getting closer to heeseung

once again, i apologize for the delay on updates to this story. i'll try my best to get upcoming chapters uploaded quicker next time.
january 14th, 2023 -- 2:14am

not proofread.