~Mine~

Your PoV

I grabbed him tightly and kissed his lips.
My heart was beating faster than ever before.

I was aware of how his breath hitched and how hard and fast his own heart was beating. I was afraid.
I was terrified of how he would see me and feel after this. After showing him how I truly felt and how crazy he makes me become.

"Y/N..."

His fingers tightened onto my waist, his gaze was still on me and his body was trembling so close to mine. There was fear inside his heart as well. I knew that. That fear will always be stuck in there. And I don't think I will ever be able to pull it out.

With my eyes closed, I pulled the softness of his bottom lip into my mouth as I caressed the back of his neck with my fingers. I had no idea what I was doing. The only thing that I knew and wanted, was to make him mine. There was a fire burning within me. There was a tremendous desire and love for him that desired to burst out to the surface. I wanted to give. To give everything I was. Everything I represented."

I kissed him. I brushed my lips against his and took his breath away. He shivered in my arms and I bit his lip as my hands went down his shoulders to his chest and abdomen. I loved the feeling of him. I could touch him endlessly.

I knew his body so well, but I was never allowed to touch him like this. Now it was my chance and I wanted to take all the time I needed just to do that.

I half opened my eyes and searched his eyes. Those dark, intelligent eyes I've come to adore. Now they were full of tears and my heart sunk at the sight of them.

I was somehow behaving forcefully. Yes, I was entirely aware of that. I was doing the same thing they did to him. But I will not stop. No matter how much this would hurt him... I... will not stop.

I pushed him against the sink and kissed the side of his neck as my fingers brushed down his abdomen.
Show me who you are. What is your reaction going to be? Are you going to let me do this to you? Would you try and get over your dark past and pain? Would this help you heal yourself? Would you hurt me?

How much do you care about me?

I felt his body stiffening under my sensual touch. His breath came out hard and fast. But I continued to kiss his neck, covering the hickeys of someone else that were still present, replacing them with my own.

"Ah... " Jungkook shivered as I ran my lips down his collarbone, leaving another hickey right there.

"Y/N, what are you doing? " Jungkook briefly touched my cheek with his hand before bringing both of his hands to each side of my head and trapping me in his eyes.

"I am making you mine. I am giving myself to you." My voice sounded strange in my ears. It was hoarse and low. "I thought this is what you wanted."

Jungkook's breath was uneven as he looked at me perplexed. "I just had sex with..."

"Stop. I don't care. I don't want to know."

"You really don't care? " Jungkook's eyes saddened. "How far are you willing to go for me?"

"I would do anything for you."

"What about your pride? Your dignity? How can you change your mind this fast?"

"I can't lose you. " My eyes got teary, my breath stuttered. "What would I do with my pride after I have lost you?"

Jungkook's eyes softened, his fingers tracing the skin of my cheek. I closed my eyes at his soft touch.

"You will not lose me. No matter what is going to happen. I wouldn't be able to breathe without you. Can't you see? I am so trapped by your weirdness."

I laughed. "Did I scare you?" I asked as I opened my eyes, my arms wrapped around his waist slowly.

"Yes." He whispered. "You can be really scary sometimes. " His face was distorted by pain.

"I know. I can be scary when I really want something." I chuckled as I ran my fingers along his cheek. I just couldn't take my hands off him.

"And you want... me. "
His voice, full of disbelief, sparked my attention.

"Yes. I have always wanted you. From the first moment, I saw you. I have always dreamed about us... How your touch would feel... " I bit my lip as I avoided his intense gaze. I felt my cheeks heating up and my breathing coming out faster than normal.

What was I saying?

And then it happened. Faster than lighting, Jungkook dragged me into his bedroom and pinned me against the wall.

I shivered the moment his lips captured mine.

My knees weakened, and they were about to give in if I wouldn't have been held in place by his body as he pressed me against the wall, his arms encircled around me.

I closed my eyes and let myself feel. Feel how he was teasing my lips with his lips and tongue. Feel how his body burned my flesh even through my clothing.
I was already panting, and he had barely touched me.

He changed the angle and captured my lips again in a fierce kiss, this time he lightly slid his tongue across my bottom lip. Then, he tenderly swept his tongue between my lips. With an intense urgency, he dipped his tongue past my lips, caressing my tongue with his, sending sparks through every nerve ending in my body.

His hold got tighter as he felt me on the verge of collapsing onto the floor. In one motion he lifted me into his arms and carried me to the bed while I seductively worked my right hand over his chest and end up to the nape of his neck and hold on tight. Then I slowly grazed my lips up the side of his neck, covering every inch of exposed skin with kisses as he carried me bridal style. Moving up to his earlobe, I nibbled until I felt his full attention on me.

Just like I wanted. For him to see only me. My presence only, to be enough for him in his life.

Jungkook's eyes widened. He couldn't believe how his body was reacting to your touch and kisses. You pulled his head towards you and pressed your lips against his, then opening your mouth while still maintaining lip contact, you inhaled deeply.

Jungkook felt his breath being taken away and for a moment there he forgot about everything else. His mind became suddenly blank.

You left him breathless.

You smiled innocently like you had no idea what you were doing. And it was just like that. You were doing what your heart told you to. You had no idea what effect all of this had on the boy in front of you.

You felt the mattress underneath you and he was there, pressed against you, his breath on your neck as he breathed you in.

It was dark outside. The lamps in the streets shed a faint light into the room. But it wasn't like you needed a light, your mind and body were already used to the shapes of his body. Your hands remembered everything, after all, you took care of him for so many years.

So many nights, even with him by your side, you still felt lonely all the time. Because he wasn't looking at you. Because his mind wasn't there but somewhere else.

But now it was different. So different. Now he was finally there, looking back at you. And you could finally touch him and kiss him. You could finally give him your heart. Because he was allowing you to.

Suddenly, your fear disappeared as it had never been there, to begin with. All your insecurities. All your doubts and questions without answers had left your mind a long time ago. All you wanted right then and there was him. Nothing else mattered. Not the past, not even tomorrow, and what it could bring you.

This moment was everything.

This night when finally, you will become one with the love of your life. The love you abandoned everything for. Your studies, your family, your life. And it mattered. Every struggle and every tear, he was worth all of them.

You grabbed his shoulders and without any warning, you rolled him over and straddled him. His hands slid under your tank top and grabbed your waist, holding you firm as you leaned over him and pulled his bottom lip inside the warmth of your mouth.

You felt his fingers dig into your flesh a little painful, his body shivered as you heard him exhale.

You searched his eyes in the dim light.
"It's me. " You whispered against his mouth as you brought your forehead to his.

Jungkook blinked a few times, trying to concentrate on your face. Until now he never allowed anyone to touch him like this. To be on top of him. Only the idea of that happening made him lose his mind. And with you, it was already the second time or the third time. He had lost the count.
But that doesn't mean it wasn't still hard to accept it.

He wanted, he struggled to focus only on you, but his mind wasn't letting him do so. His heart was beating faster and faster as memories from his childhood started to take over his mind completely.

You felt him and saw how his eyes widened in fear. You placed your hands on each side of his head and made sure he was looking at you.
"Feel only me. Feel my touch. Feel my heart. See only me. My love, I will not hurt you." You whispered as you softly kissed his cheek.
"Let me love you. Let me touch you. Let me show you how different it can be. "

You kissed his other cheek and every inch of his face while whispering sweet things to him.
"I love you so much. I really love you. You are everything. You are my heart. Never forget that."

Jungkook's eyes closed slowly as he felt your lips kissing his forehead, then the tip of his nose, the scar on his left cheek, the mole under his bottom lip, and then the side of his neck, his chest, and abdomen.

Your whole body was trembling and you were breathing heavily. Maybe because of the powerful desire you had for him. His scent made you dizzy, your knees felt numb and you had a million butterflies in your stomach.

Your body felt hot and longing after touching and kissing every inch of him. Your eyes were darker and full of love and desire when they locked with his. Jungkook sat up as you were still straddling his lap, his fingers closed around the back of your neck guiding you closer until your lips touched.

You felt his fingers shifting the loose red tank top sleepwear aside, exposing your breasts encased in your black lace bra.
You squirmed as he cupped one of your breasts through the fabric, your back arched under his mouth teasing the side of your neck.

You lost your mind so bad that you started to grind yourself against his thigh as you were searching for some relief. His mouth moved down your chest, his teeth teasing your hard numbs through the soft material of your bra as one of his hands was now slowly sliding down your stomach and stopping at the hem of your white sweatpants.

A moment later, after he got rid of your sweatpants, while still straddling him, you felt Jungkook's fingers tugging at the fabric of your underwear. His other hand pushed aside your hair and you felt his lips on the side of your neck, leaving a hickey there. It was the first time doing that. He used to leave marks on everyone, but not hickeys. It was something he never felt like doing to someone else, only you.
Your breathing got shallow as his hand traveled down your arm lightly, then he reached your back and easily released your bra.

Your fingers grabbed his hair tightly at the back of his head the moment his lips closed around one of your nipples. While he was teasing you with his tongue, you could feel his hand on your thigh, tracing your tattoo before suddenly pushing your underwear to the side and caressing you lightly.

You shivered, and your cheeks burned under his sensual touch. Jungkook felt you and how you trembled in his arms. He smiled, then his mouth moved to your other breast as his fingers slid inside of you.

A low moan escaped your mouth. The sensations began to build, the way he was teasing your breasts and touching your sensitive spot, you couldn't help but cry out as a gentle orgasm washed over you. You wrapped your arms around his neck and pulled him closer as he sucked your nipple inside his mouth.

Then your gazes locked as his fingers went a little deeper into your warmth. You clenched around his fingers, the pleasure starting to build. All your concentration was on the feeling of the sensation his touch gave you. You couldn't think. You couldn't move. You just let him do everything he wanted with your body.
He felt amazing, hard, and warm. And you needed more of him. To touch you more. To kiss you more.

Again, you trembled, the muscles in your stomach tensed, and you buried your face into the warmth of his neck as you hugged his head gently. Jungkook smiled again as his lips began a path of sweet torment, tasting and nibbling your sensitive skin from your ear down your shoulder as his fingers left you so he could unhook the buckle of his belt and then the buttons of his jeans.

Wanting to touch him more, you made your way down his chest and abdomen. The hard curves of his abdomen tensed beneath your fingers. He was restraining himself, you could feel it from the way he was breathing.
You tugged his jeans and boxer briefs down just enough to release him. He was hot and burning with need as you circled him gently. You heard him sucking in a sharp breath the moment you tightened your fingers around him and moved your hand along his length.
Jungkook cursed under his breath before taking your mouth in slow, deep kisses.

Your breathing was ragged. You ached for him, to have him inside, to finally feel all of him.
You moved and pressed yourself against his arousal and the thick tight muscles of his thighs, feeling your body burning with need. And then burying his face in the crook of your neck, he pushed your underwear aside and slowly slid inside of you.

Until now he had always cared about protecting himself, every time he was doing it. But now it had slipped out of his mind completely. And the truth was that he didn't care. You were there in his arms. He was finally able to touch you, to have every inch of your body. Fuck condoms and everything else. He needed to feel you whole.

Your eyes opened wide, a small cry leaving your lips as your body stretched to accommodate him. It hurt just a little. He was too gentle and careful with your body to feel any strong pain. He teased you so much until your body was 100% ready to receive him. Just to be sure he will not hurt you. He knew so well what to do and how to caress you. He could be so caring.

You closed your eyes at the feeling of his hands on your hips as he started to move you against him with cautious and measured strokes driving you crazy with need, each movement bringing you closer to the edge.

Jungkook searched your face as he held you tighter by your hips. His breathing was unsteady, cold sweat could be felt making its way down his spine. He tried to concentrate and control his movements. While maintaining his lucidity and not losing himself. Not when you were the one he had in his arms.

His heart was racing as you were holding him tightly. This position, with you straddling him, holding each other, was somehow intimate and foreign. But he loved the way you felt in his arms. The way you tightened around him with each stroke.

He felt the impulse to lay you on your back and take you furiously. His blood started to boil through his veins only at the thought of it. His eyes darkened, his hold on you becoming a little painful.

You whimpered his name and he quickly loosened his grip. Still, his movements became a little faster as he drove hard into you. He felt you pulsing and clenching around him and he knew you were close to your climax.

You kissed his lips and pressed yourself harder against his warmth, your body shuddering as he became bigger with each thrust.
Then both of you came at the same time.

Your arms were around his neck as you tried to catch your breath. Both of you were breathing heavily as you hugged each other tightly. Brushing his bangs away, you kissed his forehead before searching his eyes that were now warmly looking back at you.

"Now you are only mine. And I will never let you go. You will be stuck here with me. " You whispered against his lips and Jungkook smiled as he brushed your lips with his.

"Then hold me tight and make sure to never let me go. "

"I love you. " You whispered.

Jungkook hugged you and pulled you against him. His smile was nowhere to be seen.

"How much do you love me? "

"I would do anything for you. Aren't you aware of that already? "

Flashbacks of his nightmares came across his eyes. His arms trembled against your body.

"Get away from that monster. "

"No. Don't hurt him. Please... Don't hurt him. "

"I will not let my own daughter destroy her own life. Not when I am here, breathing."

"Y/N, please stay away. "

Then gunfire was heard and Jungkook placed his hands on his chest. But there was nothing. No wounds. No blood.

Lifting his head and looking ahead of him, his eyes widened, his heart missed a few beats at the sight of your body collapsing in his arms.

"Why do you have to save me all the time? "

"Don't leave me. " Jungkook held your unconscious form tightly.

But he could only hold you for a little while. Because they already took him away from you.

"Please save her. Please... " Jungkook broke into tears as the police forced him into the car.