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heartbreak.

take a pause. breathe. open and close your eyes, slowly, as many times as you want to until you feel like there's new space inside your head; a space not already reserved for other colors.

black and red, foggy, and like slow poison is probably how it feels inside your head.

don't belittle the significance of the overwhelming feeling by merely attaching it to romantic love. instead, acknowledge it every time you feel its cold caress: when you lose someone important to you, to complete darkness. failure. the thought that the things that made you happy once mean next to nothing now. the yearning to be a child again, or the tearing realization that maybe you had to grow up way too soon. your mind telling you that you aren't doing enough even when you give it your all. looking at stars only to let the cluster of twinkles turn into thin, trembling lines in your blurry vision. becoming conscious of the fact that sometimes, you're your biggest enemy.

hiding it away is only going to give it time and the silent space to sink its roots deeper into you. until it's all but a part of you.

maybe the significance of the change it brings is why a lot of us don't remember what we were like before we got our hearts broken.

because in the end, we only become who we're meant to be.

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*to the stars through difficulties