Getting up slowly from the bed I blinked my eyes several times to get a proper view. My head has been hurting soo badly.

I walked towards the side table of the bed and poured some water in the glass and drank it.

Keeping the glass back on its place I held my head in my hands.

Everything came back flashing in my mind like a flash back.

No matter how I try to forget but the memories from last night won't leave me alone.

My tears had dried I had no more to cry out. I felt empty, full of pain, and emotionless. It's like I have no feeling left in me now.

No matter how hard I try to run away from the last night encounter but it comes and hits me back again and again.

Trying to forget it as a bad dream but nooo... Nothing seemed like a bad dream its a fucking reality. A fucking reality that I had to face now.

Getting up once again from the bed I made my way towards the washroom.

Eneterinh in I quickly made an ablution and came out.

Wrapping a scarf around my head I laid the prayer mat on the ground and stood on it and started praying.

Once done with praying I raised my hands and called out to Allah. Tears came down like a waterfall I cried and cried until I had no more tears left out.

Only Allah knows how I feel right only he knows what I'm going thru he knows what's going on inside me he knows the pain that I feel inside he knows the feelings that I have he knows the stinging pain that is hurting me inside out.

Getting up from the prayer mat I wiped off the tears and quickly folded the prayer mat and kept it aside.

Taking my clothes out from the suitcase that I had always kept in this guest room as there was no place in Zayn's wardrobe from my clothes.

Quickly zipping up the suitcase I entered the washroom to take a long relaxing bath.

Coming out I quickly blow dried my hairs and pinned them up.

I grabbed my white coat, setescope and my purse and headed out of the room.

Reaching downstairs I saw no sign of Zayn and Rabail.

Keeping my things aside I entered the kitchen and made a coffee for myself and came out.

Holding the cup in my hand I eneterd the dining room.

Pulling out the chair I sat down and took few sips of coffee.

Looking at the table there were a lot of dishes.

Has Nusrat Aapa made them??. But even if she did then Why??.

Taking few more sips of my coffee I heard the voices of Zayn and Rabail.

They entered in and sat down in front of me.

Zayn kya lo gay tum??. Yahan bohat kuch hai khanay keh liye!!.

Umm mujhai toast day doh mujhai or umm saath tea bhi day doh bohat bhook lug rhi hai mujhai toh.

Acha Acha yeh lo..

I couldn't sit there for long soo I quickly got up from my seat but in hurry the coffee spilled over and caught both of their attention.

Umm... Sorry woh ghalti say gir gayi mein abhi saaf kr dayti hoon.

Dekh kr utho na meri pyaari behan Rubab dehaan kidhar hai tumhara...

Nai woh bus....

I could feel Zayn's stare on me but I didn't feel like looking at him. But I chose to ignore him.

I quickly got up and left the mess as it was.

I could feel the tears stinging  in my eyes but I just wiped them off before they could even fall.

Grabbing my things I rushed out of the house not caring to close the door behind me.

As soon as the driver came I sat in the car.

Reaching my destination in no time I paid the driver and went towards the hospital.

Entering in my gaze fell on the person who I had been wanting to meet.

Harris!!.

I needed him at this moment I needed to tell him everything but I couldn't move forward.

His gaze fell on me but he quickly averted his gaze away and walked towards the other direction.

Is this the way he's gonna treat me now. Won't he even say me a hi??. Or ask me how I feel??. Am I this unwanted now??. First Zayn and now Harris.

I quickly towards the lift and entered in.

Resting my head on the side I closed my eyes.

What has my life bought me onto??. Is this the way my life is gonna be??. My very own husband marry's my sister and I couldn't do anything about it!!.

Who can I tell about what I'm feeling??. Who will listen to me??. Everyone will find me at fault?!!. Is this the way my life is going to be??.

I got snapped out of my thoughts when I heard a ding of the elevator.

Getting out I made my way towards the room.

There were lots of patients waiting for me.

Entering in I quickly asked the nurse to call the first patient.

Here's your prescription for the medicines. Take them on time and don't forget to come after one week again for the check up okay!!.

Yes doctor. Thank u.

You are welcome.

After dismissing the last patient I rested my head on the head rest of the chair.

The memories of last night started to come once again in front of my eyes.

No matter how hard I try to get rid of this but it won't leave me at all.

Rubab... Rubab.. Why are you crying??.

Rubab??... You are scaring me okay.....

Hearing the voice of Syra I quickly got up.

Huh...!!

Rubab you are crying what happened??.

Nothing Syra its just that I'm remembering my mom nothing much!!.

Rubab look at me and tell the truth what has happened and why are u like this??. Please tell me Rubab....

Fine..

Ya Allahhhh!!!. I can't believe Rabail would do this that too you are her blood sister and Zayn... I can't believe this Rubab why wouldn't Zayn listen to you....

I don't know Syra everything has come to an end. Everything is destroyed Syra everything nothing is the same now. Zayn married Rabail and where do I stand now.... No where Syra no where....

Zayn loves Rabail not me.... I.. I...

I cried out not caring about anything. I just cried my heart out.

What's my fault Syra... What's my fault??. What did I do to deserve all this??. Am I really this unwanted in everyone's life??. Am I really??.

Hey hey stop crying Rubab... Stop crying...Allah is there... He'll surely help you... Have faith in him... Everything is in his hand.... Maybe Rubab Allah has something else planned for you... All you have to do is stay strong and do not let Rabail or Zayn's words effect you... And have belief in Allah... He's the one whose gonna make everything right... Just stay strong....

Hearing a sound of something falling down. We turned to look at it.

It was Harris standing by the door. The look that he had on his face was like he was ready to kill someone.

When did this all happen and you didn't even let me know about this??.

Harris calm down!!. Okay!!..... Rubab didn't tell anyone about it... It's just me and you.... You infact eaves-dropped and listened to everything.

I don't fuckung care if I eavas-dropped or no okay!!. Stay out of it Syra and move away. Let me handle this.

What are you going to do haan!!. Kill Zayn for this??...

Shut up Syra and move away...

I quickly went and stood in front of Rubab who was standing there and weeping silently.

Why didn't you tell me all this??. Why Rubab why???.... Why did u keep this all to yourself.... If you had a slightest doubt on Zayn you should have come and asked me... But you didn't why????....

Because I didn't want to... I didn't want to...

Yeah and because of this... This is where it lead you too today... Right....

Harris is this the way you talk to her... Instead of helping her you are blaming her....

I ain't blaming her Syra I'm just telling okay.... I told Rubab that day only that Zayn will never keep her happy and look... This is what happened....

Rubab I told you not to marry him... Say no to him... But you... You just... And look what he did to you today....

Please please stop this stop this..... Please.....

Rubab rubab..... Here sit... Sit down and take deep breathes in and out to calm yourself down....

Syra go and get water for her right now...

Rubab look at me... Rubab look everything will be fine have belief in Allah... He'll heal everything...

Then why does it hurt Harris... Why does this all hurt soo badly....

I wish I could tell her the pain that I'm feeling... But I kept all them aside. I needed to take care of Rubab and that's more important. I swear to God that I'll kill Zayn and Rabail with my own bare hands. How could he even do this to Rubab??. And that Rabail...

Keeping my thoughts aside... I looked at Rubab.. She's soo weak... That happy and cheerful Rubab is nowhere now...

I wish I could have saved her before from all this... I wish...

Harris give water to Rubab..

Yeah...

Here drink the water Rubab and dint stress yourself much...

I'll take Rubab to my home...

Nai Harris I'll go back to my home it's okay... You go...

You wanna go there where Rabail and Zayn are... You are coming with me Rubab and I'm not hearing a no from you. Now get up.

All I wanted was peace and a happy life that I had always been asking from Allah but what did I get in return pain hurt and unwantedness from the people I loved. My own sister destroyed my life... Am I this worst....??

Rubab we are here...

Huh yeah...!.

Come I'll show you your room so you can rest in there.

Here this your room go and rest need anything knock on my door that's next to this room okay!!.

Okay.

Leaving Rubab there in the room I went downstairs and sat down on the sofa.

I still have feelings for her.. No matter how hard I say no the feelings that I have.. They grow more... I wish I could heal the pain that Rubab is feeling. I wish!!.

Be-lated Eid Mubarak to all of you. I hope this Eid brings lots and lots of happiness and blessings in each and everyone's life.