Waves Of Memories

   WOKING up with my body aching all over, especially my down there. I smiled when I saw Croisx's handsome face beside me.

He was still sleeping with his arm below my head and his other hand wrapped around my waist. Nasa leeg niya na ang mukha ko. His breathing was so calm and warm it was hitting the top of my head.

I smiled and stared at him, admiring his face the whole time. I stayed in that position for a few minutes, savoring the majestic view. He looked so peaceful while sleeping.

After he asked me to be his girlfriend again, I kissed him as an answer. And yes, we ended up at the bed again doing cardio.

We didn't end at the second round. We had our third in the bathroom, on the bathtub while I was riding him, on the balcony while he was taking me from behind. We even did it on the wall- he was standing while my back was slamming on the wall, and my legs wrapped around his waist.

Hindi ko na alam kung anong oras na kami natapos o ilang sukdulan na ba ang narating ko sa sobrang nakakabaliw na sarap na idinulot niya sa akin. But it was already dark, hindi na rin kami nakakain nang dinner dahil pareho kaming nakatulog sa pagod.

I moved my hand and lightly traced his face. My eyes widened when he suddenly held my hand and moved it inside his boxers.

I tried pulling my hands when his shaft twitched by the sudden move. I couldn't help but gasped. Nakita ko ang pagmulat ng mga mata niya at paghugit nang ngiti sa kanyang labi nang makita ako.

"Good morning," he greeted me using his husky voice.

I smiled. "Morning. . ." I pulled my hands out of his boxers. I saw his lips twisted for a wicked smile.

Matagal kaming nagkatitigan bago siya ngumiti muli at hinaplos ang aking pisngi. My eyes shut when he planted a soft kiss on my forehead.

I let out a moan when his lips went down to my lips, biting the bottom lip and pushing his tongue inside my mouth. I moaned again as I deepened the kiss. I changed my position without breaking the kiss. I sat on his stomach and straddled his hips.

He groaned when he felt my weight. Nagmulat siya ng mga mata. Binigyan ko siya ng makahulugang tingin pero umiling siya. He held both side of my hips slowly sat down from the bed with me on his lap.

"We can't, babe. You're still sore, and I still have flight to catch on," he muttered gently, trying not to break my heart again.

"I'm okay, babe. Ditch that flight and just use my private jet," I muttered, started grinding above him. He sighed heavily as his gaze darkened. There's a flame of lust in his eyes.

I smile seductively and lean over his neck, planting kisses. "You smell good,"

I felt his adams apple move in anticipation. Bahagya akong bumangon at tumitig sa mga mata niya. He licked his lips and cursed before attacking my lips. I groaned in triumph.

Since he was only wearing a boxer, it was easy to have access to his manhood. He gripped my ass and slowly helped me to fit his cock on my core. We moan in unison when we felt each other's heat. He's so big! Palaging punong-puno ang pagkababae ko sa kanya!

I smiled when I spot Croisx cooking breakfast. He showered first on the bathroom before me. May bitbit naman pala siyang damit na nasa loob nang kanyang bag. Hindi na kami nagsabay at baka hindi na kami matapos sa pagligo.

He's now wearing a white oversized sweater and a pair of navy blue slacks. His hair was still a bit wet making him look so hot. I marched towards his way and sat on the table, making him glance at me. His lips automatically formed a smile when our eyes met.

"Patapos na to," he muttered, pointing the spatula on the frying pan.

Ngumiti ako at tumango. Nang matapos siya magluto, he served the food he cooked on the plate before sitting next to me. He just fried eggs, toast some bread and sliced some strawberries.

"Thank you for the food," I smiled at him before eating.

Suddenly, I feel him. His lips are in my hair as he leans over me. We smiled at each other. "You're welcome, mi vida."

We talked as we ate. Malapit na namin maubos ang mga niluto niya nang magsalita siya.

"Is your period coming?"

My forehead wrinkled. "Why? I'm not really sure. My period mess up because of stress."

I felt his hand on my hair. "Because you were too emotional last night. You were crying, then your mood suddenly turned irate until you were crying in so much pleasure—"

I instantly choked on my food. Mabilis niyang inabot sa akin ang baso at pinainom 'yon sa akin. Inubos ko ang tubig at binagsak 'yon pagkatapos.

"You shouldn't bring back the past!" I yelled, hitting his arm.

He chuckled, and his brow raised teasingly. "How can't I bring it back when I still remember how you begged me to fill you with my—"

Mabilis ko siyang sinalpakan ng tinapay sa bibig. I felt my cheeks blush with his lascivious words. I took a sip of the coffee he made and stood up, pulling him with me.

"It's getting late! I think it's time for you to go. Baka ma-late ka sa flight mo," I muttered, biting my bottom lip.

His lips twisted for a wicked smile. "But babe—"

"No buts! Tara na, baka nasa baba na si James." I muttered and pull him with me. He stared at me for a moment before shaking his head. Hinila ko ang jacket na nakapatong sa sofa at sinuot 'yon.

I told my driver to drive Croisx to the airport so he wouldn't have to wait for a cab. Habang lulan kami ng elevator ay tahimik lang kami. I zip up my jacket and brush my hair using my fingers.

I caught Croisx looking at me in the reflection, watching my every move. I playfully rolled my eyes at him, making him chuckle.

"Let's go." I pulled him out of the elevator when we reached the ground floor.

Hinatid ko siya mismo sa labas ng building dahil wala pa si James. I smiled and look up at him when he reach my hand and intertwined it with his. Pagkatapos, pinasok niya ang kamay namin sa loob ng kanyang suot na jacket.

"It's Khrizanta!"

I froze as my eyes widened when someone recognized me. I unconsciously touched my face and cursed when I didn't feel a mask on. I looked at Croisx when he pulled me against his body, covering my face through his jacket.

"Don't crowd us, please." I heard Croisx politely requesting the people.

"Who are you? Are you Khrizanta non-showbiz boyfriend?" someone asked but Croisx didn't answer.

The people around us started crowding the place as the flashes of cameras went wild. I immediately panicked, and my heart beat so fast. Mas lalo ko pang binaon ang mukha sa dibdib ni Croisx. I only looked up when I felt a hand intertwine with mine. Nagtama ang mga mata namin ni Croisx. He gave me a subtle smile before he pulled me away to avoid the media.

"Khrizanta, wait up!" a male paparazzi chase us. "Are you together?!"

"Miss Khrizanta, is he your secret boyfriend?"

"What is your relationship? Are you guys together?!" a lady paparazzi asked.

Sunod-sunod ang tanong ng tatlong taong 'yon. I stopped walking. Croisx immediately looks at me with confusion. His eyes were worried as he looked at me. I smiled at him, giving him assurance. Mabilis akong humarap sa mga paparazzi, the flashes of cameras blinded my sight.

What's the point of running away if they will still make rumors about me? About us? It's better if they will hear the truth from me.

"I'll answer your questions, but make it quick," I muttered firmly.

"Miss Khrizanta, the rumor about you dating the famous singer Henry Style, was it true?"

I sighed and glanced at Croisx when I felt him squeeze my hand. His eyes brooding. He looks jealous! Damn it! "No, Henry and I are just friends." I clarified the rumors.

After answering the first question, more questions bombarded me. Nalilito na ako kung paano at anong tanong ang susunod na sasagutin! Croisx remained silent beside me, holding my hand, ready to protect me from any possible chaos.

"Miss Khrizanta, what's your relationship with this man?" one of the paparazzi asked, pointing his microphone to Croisx.

My head immediately tilted to the side, and my heart beat thump when our eyes captured each other orbs. His eyes were glistening in a saturnine emotion. Kaagad akong nag-iwas ng tingin sa kanya at bumaling sa mga taong nasa harapan.

"This good-looking guy beside me. . ." I looked at Croisx and smiled. "He's my boyfriend," I answered, making the whole media wild.

Filipino-American highest-paid supermodel Khrizanta Louisse Altamirano confirmed dating to her non-showbiz boyfriend.

I closed my eyes when I saw the articles circulating on the internet. Yeah, right. Why am I even shocked? I'm the one who announced our relationship to the whole world!

"Have you seen the articles about you and Engineer Silvestre?! Khrizanta, I am your manager! Why you didn't tell me you were dating him?" Denver asked, trying to control her anger.

I sighed, chewing my bottom lip, ready to explain myself.

"I'm sorry. I should have told you, but our relationship is complicated, and we just met again this year after three years of being separated."

Her brows draw together. "So you are saying that Engineer Silvestre was your ex?!"

I bit my bottom lip and nodded. "We decided to rekindle our relationship," I answered. "Believe me, I have no intention of spreading our relationship. It's just that I don't want to hide our relationship anymore."

"Why? Do you think it would be better if your relationship were open in public?"

"Croisx doesn't deserve to be kept in the dark," I answered without hesitation.

She stared at me for a second before she sighed. "I could see heart sparkling in your eyes just by talking about him," mahinahon na ngayon ang kanyang boses.

I bit my lips and looked at her. "Are you still mad?"

She sighed and shook her head. "Hindi. Nagulat lang ako na hindi mo sinabi sa akin kaagad. This is Hollywood Khrizanta dating someone is just a minor controversy. But it doesn't mean that you should lie to me! I'm your manager if you forgot."

Ngumuso ako at mabilis siyang niyakap. "Thank you for being the best manager," sabi ko habang nakangiti.

In the first week of the issue, Denver cleared my schedule for the week to avoid being seen in public.

My photos with Croisx in front of my apartment building were still circulating over the internet. People's reactions were mixed when they found out about my relationship status. It doesn't bother me, to be honest. I don't care what people say about my relationship with Croisx. Dating someone isn't illegal. Wala rin naman sa kontrata ko na bawal ako magkaboyfriend.

I just hope the media won't haunt him at Harvard. I don't want the spotlight to ruin his concentration at school.

I spent the rest of the spring season focusing on my work. I attended shoots, partying with friends, and got invited to some shows overseas. It was a busy spring month.

Croisx didn't forget to message me from time to time. He was updating me about his situation from the public. Kapag gabi at may libreng oras, he will call me, and we will talk.

Nagbabadya na rin ang winter kaya naghahanda na ako sa mga pwede namin gawin ni Croisx. We decided to visit Colorado and go skiing. I don't have much schedule for shoots in December, so it's pretty awesome.

"Careful, it's slippery." I bit my inner cheeks upon hearing Croisx's whispering in my ears. His arm was in my waist, guiding me on the slippery road.

People here don't really care about seeing me in the broad daylight. Although I caught a few people taking double turns in our direction, I just smiled at them.

Croisx was already in his grey waterproof ski jacket and ski pants. He had his jacket zipped up to his neck, covering his mouth. On the other hand, I was also on complete outfit. Wearing a fuchsia ski jacket, black pants, goggles, gaiters, skiing boots, and gloves. We went to the rental shop and rented ski equipment which consisted of skis, ski poles and helmets.

I wonder if we tried travelling before I lost my memories?

Luckily, we found a less crowded area which is a great spot for us. I stepped on my skis, and he instantly helped me to lock the latches on. When I was pretty secure, he slipped into his ski pretty easily.

"Ready?" he asked, looking pretty nervous.

"I am born ready!" I muttered, smiling so wide.

I felt the cold air brush against my cheeks as we skid down in the snow-covered hills. We went skiing on the blue trail, which was a pre-intermediate terrain. It was longer at two hundred and eighty metres away. I easily controlled my speed onto the pistes.

When I felt I was going too fast and was already leaving Croisx behind, I slowed down by widening the hills of my skis. The two hundred metres was gone over in a few seconds. Luckily, we didn't tumble on the snow when we ended the trail.

"Let's get some hot chocolate?" he asked, making my eyes sparkle.

"Sure!" I couldn't help but giggle with excitement.

We stayed in Colorado for two days and one-night doing activities for winter. That includes going to hot springs, dog sledging, ice climbing, and many more. After that, bumalik kami sa New York na magkasama.

Wearing black leather slacks, a beige round-neck sweater, and knee boots that I paired with a black trench coat, I completed the look with sunglasses. My bag is from Prada, and the makeup I use for my face is from the brand I endorse.

Croisx took a brisk shower, and now, he looks so good in his winter outfit— black slacks that he partnered with a grey turtle neck sweater and grey woolen mid jacket. His black ankle boots and expensive wristwatch added more details on his outfit. He screams old money!

"Babe, look! That's you on the billboard!"

I tilted my head to the side and saw my boyfriend pointing at the digital billboard where I model the brand I endorse. It was the acrobatic photoshoot I took. My lips twisted for a smile, shaking my head.

"Babe, that's my third billboard you saw here in Times Square. Hindi ka pa ba sanay?"

His lips twisted for a wicked smile. "No. I don't think I can get used to seeing your face anywhere. I still feel amused whenever I see your face on the internet, especially on the billboard."

I chuckled lightly. "Get used to it, Engineer. Your girlfriend is a famous supermodel,"

"I know. . ." He pouted and continued on finishing his food.

Nasa isang restaurant kami sa Time square, naghihintay sa countdown. From where we are, I can see the famous giant Christmas tree in the Rockefeller Center.

Croisx and I have been dating for over three months, and so far, so good. I feel on a cloud nine with him by my side. Simula noong maging kami ay napapadalas na ang pagiging clingy niya. He's so patient and understanding with me. He doesn't leave my side despite not remembering him.

I feel so lucky to have Croisx in my life. We are the definition of a perfect match.

I was eyeing him while sipping on my coffee. He took the blueberry on the top of his waffles and opened his mouth to eat the blueberry. I smirked before pulling his nape and kissed him. I bit his bottom lips so I could have access inside his mouth. Then I push the blueberry on his mouth to mine using my tongue.

There's a slight shock on his face, but it quickly faded and replaced with a cheeky grin. "You naughty girl." He muttered before he pulled my nape and kissed me.

He withdrew from kissing me, and my heart beat faster when our eyes met. He gave me a lop-sided smile as he brushed the back of my head. Damn it! Butterflies filled my stomach in his sudden moves.

"Should we eat quickly and let's go to Rockefeller?" he asked gently.

I nodded. "Okay!"

We are now crossing the pedestrian at Broadway Plaza while holding each other hands. Croisx squeezes my hand, making me glance at him with a smile. He reciprocated the smile before kissing the side of my head.

Maraming tao ang nakakasalubong namin. Some even gave us a second glance when they saw me, but they didn't crowd us. I also spotted a few media in the street, taking pictures. Hindi naman sila lumapit kaya ayos lang. They gave us our private moment.

We settled down on the bench, where we could see and hear the countdown for New Year's Eve. I swallowed when I saw a corn dog on the side of the street. I suddenly feel the urge to have a bite of it.

I pulled on Croisx's jacket, and he tilted his head on me.

"Babe, bili mo ako ng corndog." I muttered and pointed to the stall on the side of the street. Hindi naman malayo 'yon sa pwesto namin pero hindi rin malapit.

A smile slowly spread across his face.

"Okay, stay here, okay?"

I nodded while smiling widely.

"Opo, babe." I kissed him on the lips before he left for the corn dog.

While waiting for him, inabala ko ang sarili sa pagtingin-tingin sa paligid. New York City is really captivating and miraculous, especially at night. All the lights ricocheting off the windows of buildings make the square dazzle even more.

I look up and see the thick blanket of grey clouds shrouding the bright moon as the gentle, cold breeze kisses my skin.

"Khrizanta, my life."

My heart immediately hammered when I heard Croisx's voice somewhere. I looked around and gasped when I saw Croisx in front of me, not literally in front of me but on the digital billboard displayed. I suddenly feel jitters.

Maraming tao ang napatigil sa paglalakad nang makita siya sa billboard, nakaupo at nagsasalita. He looked so nervous! What he's doing there? The clothes he's wearing on the billboard are the same clothes he was wearing Today!

"Khrizanta, you're my first in everything. My first love, my first kiss, my first girlfriend, and hopefully, my last. I've always been sure of you, always and every day. I can't imagine my life without you,"

Tears suddenly pooled in my eyes when I heard him.

"Three years ago, I bought the most beautiful ring that will suit your taste."

I quickly turned around when I recognized his voice behind my back. I covered my lips when I saw his eyes covered with tears. I cried even more when he bent his knees on the floor in front of everyone in the Big Apple City under the snow crystal rain. Then he took a red velvet box from the back of his pocket and slowly opened it, revealing a beautiful red ruby diamond ring inside.

"C-Croisx. . ." My vision was blurry because of the tears in my eyes.

He cleared his throat and flashed a smile despite his trembling lips.

"Khrizanta, I fell in love with you, not knowing what love really was. I stayed in love with you because there's no one or nothing I've ever wanted more than you. I will forever be in love with you because I can't imagine even a second of my life without you."

There's a hint of tenderness in his eyes. His stares make me feel special. I feel so much love.

"Khrizanta Altamirano, will you marry me?" his weak voice cracked.

Hindi 'ko na napigilan ang hindi mapahagulgol nang mag-unahan ang mga luha sa kanyang pisngi. I bit my bottom lip and didn't hesitate to nod. Parang sasabog ang puso 'ko sa sobrang kaligayahan.

"Yes! I'll marry you, Croisx!" I answered as my tears fell like waterfalls.

His eyes widened as tears cascaded more on his cheeks. His hands were shaking, but he was able to put the ring on my ring finger. I cried more when he kissed my hand before he stood up and held both of them tightly.

"Really, babe?" His eyes were glistening in happiness. "You're really going to marry me?"

I bit my bottom lip and nodded. Napapikit siya at kaagad akong niyakap. Croisx rested his face on my neck. I could feel him crying and holding me firmly as his shoulders were quivering. He cried like I do, but it was because of joy.

My lips parted when a few traces of ice crystals started to pour down the skies as everyone on the crowd, gave us a round of applause.

In the midst of the crowd, under the beautiful dark skies and snow drizzle, I said yes to the man I truly loved.

"I'm excited to be home with you forever, mi vida," he whispered.

I smiled despite my tears. "Croisx. . ."

Bahagya siyang bumangon mula sa pagkakayakap sa akin. His eyes almost never left mine. "Hmm?" I caressed his face and smiled.

"I'm in love with you," my voice became soft and weak.

His lips parted, and his cried even got louder. He covered a hand over his face and cried. I sniffed and removed his hand over his face. My heart beat faster when our eyes met.

"Oh, God. I love you so much," he muttered between his sob. "I love you, Khrizanta."

Slowly, he cupped my face and stared at my light brown orbs with so much love. Butterflies filled my stomach the moment our lips captured each other.

As our lips sealed with each other, waves of blurry fragments suddenly flashed inside my brain, slowly becoming crystal clear. From being black & white, my memories with Croisx suddenly illuminated like it was some kind of fireworks.

From the beginning until the end, including the time of my accident.

I finally remembered everything about him. The memories we created before scintillated vividly. Both happy and painful memories became clear. We shared a lot of emotions: Intimacy, trust, loyalty, honesty, understanding, happiness, and last but not least, love.

I didn't want to fall in love. . . Not all all. But at some point, Croisx treated me like no one else did. . . He showed me how high standards real men can hold. That no woman should settle for less. That despite being imperfect, you still deserve to be loved.

I never knew that the moment I made him my boyfriend, I had already chosen the right man for myself.

Maxwell Croisx Silvestre loved me from the distance for three years.

Hindi siya napagod sa akin. He didn't give up on me. He didn't leave me. He treats me better than anyone else I have been with. He loves me more than I love myself.

Croisx love for me is pure and sincere. It was the kind of love that doesn't hurt. It was the kind of love that I want for the rest of my life.

From today onwards, I promised myself I would never let go of this man. He's my strength and my weakness. My light in the dark skies. Without him, I don't think my life will be this vivid. He's the best part of my life.

Life comes at us in waves. We can't control how wild the waves can be, but we can learn to surf with it.

Then, there's Croisx.

The only person who bravely crossed the waves in me, regardless of how wild and violent the waves were, he successfully cruised the end of it.

After all this chaos and uncertainties, I found the right waves to sail. I know this is where I belong. . . With Croisx's arms, I knew that I was finally home. He's my perfect match and my one true love.

Happy reading! :)