The Next Morning...

De'Shawn's POV:

I wake up wrapped in a blanket without any clothes on. I lift my head to look around and noticed that I'm in D's office. I smile widely as I remember that I'm finally home. A tear hit my cheek and I
managed to cry tears of joy. I'm home. My dream finally came true.

I sat up while wiping my face and noticed that D still hasn't came back. I don't know what to do, so I just stood up and kept myself wrapped in the cover while walking to the door.

I knocked on the door and peaked my head through. Fitz was standing on the other side of the door which caused me to be relieved. I smiled and began to speak.

Me: "Hey, It's been forever and a day." I giggled to keep from getting emotional.

Fitz: " Yes, it really has. I'm glad we have you back." He smiled. "Good morning, btw."

Me: " Good morning," I smiled back. " Where's D?" I asked.

Fitz: "I thought he was in there with you.." He looked puzzled. I shook my head and frowned.

Me: "Nope, not in here." I said.

Fitz: "I'll go find him for you." He promised.

Me: "Thank you," I nodded before closing the door and sitting back on the futon.

I wonder what he could be doing right now. I know for a fact that he never came back into the room because I would have known. I wonder how everything went last night. I need to know that Israel is dead. He's very consistent, so you may think you've defeated him but he comes back for another fight until he wins. That's why I need him dead.

While I was in the middle of deep thought, The door opened slowly and in walked D. I smiled but that smile faded away when I noticed the smell of alcohol and a hickey on his neck. Am I hurt? I mean, yeah but how would I look to cuss him out about it when I just got here last night. He sat on the futon next to me and smiled.

D: "Hey, Babygirl," He tried to kiss me but I dodged him. He frowned and looked at me. "What's wrong," He asked.

Me: "I wanna go home." I changed the subject.

D: "Already?" He asked.

Me: "Yes, I want to go now." I said standing up. There was a knock at the door and I opened it to see Raquel standing there shocked. I just slammed the door and shook my head. I'm not mad, I'm not upset, I'm not jealous, I'm calm. I'm trying to convince myself to be calm although my tremors are getting worse. I found my dress and put it on, then found my sandals.

D: "Baby, you alright?" He asked.

Me: "Gimme the keys to my car and my house." I held out my hand and he hesitated to give them to me but I took it anyway. I walked out the office and marched my way out of the Warehouse. I don't have time for drama. Especially, D's drama. I hopped in my Pink Range and started it. This damn car brings back so many memories that I'm nearly in tears right now.

I pulled off and sped to my house. No music, no talking, no noise. Just me and my silence. After being gone for five damn years, I feel like my life is worthless now. I could kill myself now if I wanted to. It's like not anyone would actually miss me this time anyway.

That moment when you want to cry your eyes out but it's not even worth it. This is one of those moments. D had the nerve to try and kiss me after he obviously just had another female sucking all up on his neck. Are you fucking serious? Is that plain out disrespect or does he just not care? I can't wait for the day that D realizes that all actions have consequences.

I pull up into the driveway and park my car. Taking a deep breath, I turn the car off. I wiped my face of any tears and ran my fingers through my hair. I can't let this stress me out. I'll just let it slide. I get out of the car and walk to the front door of the house. An overwhelming feeling hits me as I unlock the door and walk in.

I walk slowly through the house , admiring the new decorations and all. I inhale to notice that the house still smells the same. The feel of the railing as I walked upstairs brings me back to the days I was pregnant. Once I made it up the steps, I noticed the last two rooms were occupied. It brought tears to my eyes to see Trinity Elise & King Shario on each door.

I slowly walked to the first room and was surprised by the reality that just hit me. My babygirl is actually alive. I smiled wide as tears fell from my eyes. I sat on the bed and could feel her. I looked around the room and admired the pictures and decorations. Just the thought of my twins living their lives is heartwarming.

I stood up and walked into King's room and frowned at the fact that there's a shotgun on his floor. I then noticed that neither one of their beds had a cover or pillows on the bed. I rushed out of the room and ran towards D's bedroom and my heart dropped at the big ass hole in the door.

I walked inside the familiar bedroom and dropped to my knees with tears in my eyes. This room brings back so many memories. The good, the bad, and the ugly. From my honeymoon, to my break ups and now I'm back to face the past. All this time I've been stuck in my past and now I'm facing it, I'm not even sure if I want to move on. Call it what you want but I think this may have been a sign.

Now, I'm not saying that I am not happy to be home. I'm not saying that I don't miss my husband and my family. All I'm saying is, maybe I don't belong here anymore. Shawny may not be wanted. To be honest, I don't even feel welcomed. I'm here alone and my husband- well, De'Mario should be here with me. I want to believe that he still loves me, I mean the sex was amazing and I have no doubts about that. But, I have a weird feeling that he may not feel the same way about me.

I don't know... I'm just in my feelings right now. Maybe I'm thinking too hard, I do that a lot. I wipe my tears and raise up from my knees.

Me: "Lord, give me strength." I sighed and wiped the last of my tears before sniffling again. There are so many emotions going through my body right now that it hurts my soul.

I walk into my- well former closet. Most of my things remain in their place. Lucky me, I have some clothes to change into. So, in the shower I go. I'm not feeling anymore memories at the moment, so I guess I'm going to stop right here.

I grabbed me a change of clothes and some underwear and a bra. I walk into the bathroom that connects to the bedroom and locked the door behind me. I prepare to take a shower to wash away my mpast and hopefully help me focus on my future that I never thought I'd have ever again.

De'Mario's POV:

I sit on the futon with my head in my heads. I got a headache that's on 100 and I'm having trouble trying to remember how'd I wake up next to Raquel. Yes, Raquel.

I know what you're thinking, I know. But it's not what it looks like. Okay, maybe a little. I barely remember what has happened in the last eight hours, what do you expect?

I haven't picked up a drink in like 6 years. I wonder what got me to take even a sip of that bullshit. Six years sober don't just change in one night. I need answers but I'm scared to know what happened. Suddenly, there was a knock at the door.

Me: "Come in," I shouted. Fitz walked in and shook head before sighing. "What the hell happened?"

Fitz: "Shit got real last night, Boss." He sat down. "When we came back from the mission, you got into it with youngin and his moms. Afterwards, you started tripping on your daughter then grabbed you a drink. I tried to stop you and we got into it because you just didn't care no more. You went into a room with Raquel and came out fucked up about an hour later. I thought you went back into the office but I guess you went back to crash in that room." He explained.

Me: "Did I hurt anybody?" I asked out of fear. I'm very disappointed myself and I know Shawny is pissed with me.

Fitz: "You almost killed youngin, he's in the hospital.. You snatched Maria up and ended up hitting her, she had RJ take her home.. Then you and I fought but no fists were thrown... That's about it. Oh and you have a hickey on your neck."

Me: "Say swear." I froze as my heart raced. "Why didn't you tell me that before I walked in here!?" I semi yelled.

Fitz:"Because, you chose to put yourself in this situation. D, we stopped living for about a whole week for you to get Shawny back and this is what you do? This is how you repay us? This is how you feel about Shawny?" he shook his head in disappointment. "All your crying and shit for the last four years was nothing but bullshit. Or that's what it looks like to me. Shawny isn't stupid. I'm not saying that Raquel is but she's very naive. The girl is nothing but a kid for gods sake. How old is she? What, 26? 22? What's the difference? Either way, you'll be damn near ten years older than her. You fucking with fire while your wife , a grown ass woman, sits back a watches. You're not hiding shit from anybody, remember that. You should know Shawny ain't stupid. You gone fuck around and lose her for good this time like you were supposed to in the first place." He preached. But, I wasn't hearing it anyway. I don't know what he talking bout. Making this little shit into a big deal. I tuned him out and got up grabbing my keys and walked out.

I hopped in my Audi began to rethink life for a moment. Who the fuck am I? I'm at the point where I don't even know anymore. All of this is happening so fast and it's like. What do I do next? I'm fucking up already and not sure how to fix it. I wish life wasn't so hard to live.

On the drive to the house I kept things silent as I thought. I wonder what will happen once I get to the house. I wonder how I'm going to confront Maria about what happened . I wonder how I'm going to handle the Terrence situation.

I pull up in the driveway next to Shawny's Pink Range and parked my car. I took a deep breath before heading out and approaching the porch to unlock the door. As I walked in, I heard the sound of running water and a TV playing. I assume that's Shawny in the shower and Maria watching TV in her room. I locked the door behind me and threw my keys on the coffee table as I walked toward the stairs.

Walking upstairs, There was a knock at the door. I let out a deep breath and trail all the way back to the front door. Opening the door, I was greeted by my two little soldiers.

Twins: "Daddy!!" They cheered.

Me: "Wassup!?" I kneeled down and hugged them tight. "I missed yah soo much."

Nicole: "Is she here?" She asked with Ray staring anxiously behind her. I nodded and picked the twins up carrying them to the kitchen. "Wait." I felt her grab my shirt and pulled me back. She smelled near my face and cringe before glaring at me. She took the twins from me and Ray grabbed me by my arm into the hallway.

Ray: "Have you lost yo damn mind?" He hit me upside my head. "You too damn grown to be starting back up with this shit. My daughter won't be going through this with you no more." He said referring to my drinking.

Me: "look, I'm not. I just slipped up last night and that's all." I admitted.

Ray: "No more slip ups." He hit me upside my head again but harder. "You hear me?"

Me: "Yes, sir." I nodded while rubbing my head. He walked away and left me with a slight headache.

I continued my journey back up the stairs and walked pass Maria who was obviously avoiding me and only coming out for Nicole and Ray. I walked inside of my room and grabbed a change of clothes. I heard the water stop running and soon the bathroom door opened. I made eye contact with Shawny and she looked pass me. This is already starting off awkward...

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