I just started a new job... literally seven days in learning about it and I'm fucking fired... fired from a starter job that only pays 11 bucks because I'm too inexperienced for my boss to fucking handle...
Because I'm too much for her and my anxiety was too bad... it's been one fucking week of work for someone who's never had a real job and it's an expectation for them not to be fucking nervous and worried about every single one of their fuck ups?
I asked one time if I could take small breather breaks because I was constantly being told what mistakes I made after every single phone call because it was all too new and becoming too personal. I fucking told her I wasn't going to keep asking for breaks, that it was just too much learning at one time. How can you take that as a permanent request?
I'm even mad now because she hasn't even seen how I behaved by myself only with my trainer an now that I've been without one for two days which my boss hasn't been there an now I'm being fired the first day she's there this week... I've been told by my trainer that I was able to do inventory faster an easier than she did when she started, that I was on the phone day two when she was on the phone five days into her training. I've been told by the two girls who worked there for years that I was doing great, that mistakes are expected of me, and that I was getting better, that I wasn't asking too many questions from them.
So was I actually too much? Were they lying to me?
I thought I was doing really well... I thought I was learning fast enough... how could I learn any faster? My own state even claims that employees fully learn their first job in 90 days yet I've already failed two days into my second week...
I'm not even upset about losing the job itself, I'd rather talk to customers face to face rather than be on the phone. But it just hurts that a family friend says I'm too much and have too bad of anxiety for me to work under her...