Laying in bed, looking at the white ceiling while having his friends voice echoe I'm his mind, thinking of that person more then ever. Usually this types of things led to another. He gets up from his bed and into his recording area he drags himself to. He sits down on the spinning chair and looks at the turned on monitors. He goes on Skype and hovers his mouse into the name of the male his been thinking of.

Seeing that he was on, he quickly types to him, 'Hey man, ready for that big day in 2 weeks?'

He waits for a second and reads that delirious was typing. He nervously bites his nails and stomps his foot on his soft carpet.

'To be honest, I'm not...getting married is a big deal'

He swallowed dryly and sighs.

'Wanna talk about it?' Luke asked.

'Skype call?'

'Yea' Luke answered and waits.

He heard the so familiar ring tone and quickly answered it. His face cam turning on in a second.

"Hey man" Jonathan said softly, sounding more exhausted then ever. "Wha'sup" Luke said, sounding just as tired as jonathan. "How are things going with Ava?" Luke wondered.

Jonathan sighs and runs a hand thru his hair. "Could be going better..."

Luke frowns but jonathan stops him before he got anything out, "Don't get me wrong, Ava is a delight...amazing woman..."

"But?" Luke wondered and jonathan sighs, "but she isn't the one...."

".....what?" Luke asked, confusion written all over his face but deep down, he felt relived, happy even. "How can she not be the one, you been dating her for 8 years-"

"That's exactly what I told you when you where dating Emma" Jonathan shot back making luke go completely silent. The memory of dating his best friends sister hit him like a brick, in many good and bad ways.

"Okay, well....what made you propose?" Luke said. Jonathan stops breathing. He blinks slowly and sighs, digging in his mind what was the reason for his action. "I guess it was in the moment. She looks so beautiful sitting there waiting for me at the sit as I come back from taking a piss...." Jonathan said recalling what happened in Ava's favorite place to eat, Olive Garden. "She was wearing a long tight white dress, open from the back and her short blond silver hair was fluffy and nicely put.....red lipstick- Luke she's beautiful....but she can't be mine...someone else needs to give her the world...I know I can't" Jonathan says sadly and covers his eyes. Luke sits there speechless, nothing came in mind, the only thing he could think of was something he didn't understand.

"And why didn't you tell me before you acted and went out to buy a ring that won't even matter now-"

"We talked about this before, luke-"

"And you avoided my question....I'm not letting you slip this time" Luke snapped. His voice slowly rising as he said every word. Jonathan sits there and closes his eyes once again. "I don't know..."

"No, you do know"

"I guess I just didn't think you where gonna support this...."

Ouch. A stab on the heart and back. "Why wouldn't I? Your my best friend-"

"That's not what we where back then" Jonathan said and luke frozed. "You kissed me and I couldn't think straight-"

"Yea, it's not like the consequences where any straighter"

"Shut the hell up" Jonathan snarled. Luke smiled softly and got closer to the mic. "Did you regret it?"

Jonathan's breath got cought and he doesn't say a word for a good minute. "A Litte..."

Luke's heart sinks all the way to his stomach and he smiled sadly. "I see-"

"No luke, not like that, I didn't regret the kiss....not at all....it just...it just makes me feel like a cheater...." Jonathan mumbles. "I fell....horrible-"

"I fucked things up didn't I?" Luke whispered and jonathan stays quiet, thinking if luke was really to blame. "Of course it is, if I could of just looked away, and let you walk inside the house, nothing would of happened-"

"It's not your fault-"

"Then who's is it?" Luke pushed. "I know for a fact it's not yours"

Jonathan just looks up straight at the Camara lense and luke frozed. You can heard both there breathing and luke can see does fresh tears fall off of Jonathan's pretty face.

"It's not your fault, I'm as guilty as you are...I could of stopped you, but no I let you continue. I could of shut that shit down instantly...but I couldn't"

Luke felt crushed, he knew Jonathan was just saying that from keeping him from crushing himself, but it wasn't his fault. Lots of people tought they would end up doing or trying things like this. Luke just never realized how beautiful Jonathan's eyes sparkled on the bright full moon. How his lips moved and how he smiled and made him feel happy.

He never really realized how perfect Jonathan really was. "Im leaving" was all luke said.

Jonathan looked at luke thru the Camara and frowns his eyes slightly bulging out. "W-why?" He whispered and luke shakes his head. "Tell evan to be your best man...cause I'm gonna be gone..." Luke said without looking at the screen anymore. Jonathan's eyes scan luke's face to see any sign of teasing, but he couldn't even find one. His bottom lip trembled and he covers his mouth. "For how long?" Jonathan asked. "5 months maybe more"

"N-no..." Jonathan mumbles. "You can't leave!" Jonathan screams. Luke doesn't even bother to look up. He let's his head fall and hang low. "There's no reason for that!" Jonathan snapped and luke sighs. "Ama go put some time on me"

Jonathan shakes his head and cries silently. "You should be proud of me...I'm moving on" Luke whispered and jonathan whimpers. He didn't want to see luke go. He doesn't want him to leave. Jonathan just wanted to hug him and never let him go.

"Don't get me wrong...I'm happy I just-"

"Who knows, maybe by the time I get back you are already planning to have kids or you still haven't came back from the honeymoon"

Jonathan cries and cries. "Please don't go....don't leave" Jonathan said with his voice cracking half way and luke shuts his eyes tightly. "Don't cry....I don't like hearing you cry"

"Then don't leave" Jonathan said and luke sigh. "Im sorry Jonathan"

"Luke-"

"Goodbye, old pal"

-

"HE LEFT! HE'S GONE!" Jonathan screams to Evan. "Hey, calm down"

"I CAN'T!"

"Who left? Who's gone?" Evan asked. .

Jonathan knew what he had to do. He stays silent and brings his arm to the mouse and clicks on the Camara and everything whent white on Evan's screen. "Jonathan-" soon his words couldn't come out and he stares in both amaze and shock. It was his best friend from when back when and finally after a few years. Jonathan looked up at evan and evan gasped. "Jonathan...." Evan whispered and scanned Jonathan's puffy blood red eyes.

"Luke....he left me"

-

Two weeks went by slowly for Jonathan. His energy left his body leaving his soon to be wife speechless and scared. Depression quickly took over him and sudden moves scared the man shitless.

Evan and a few of the guys came out with there own girlfriends and brought them to North Carolina.

"You gotta come, make him happy and alive again... Luke his dying without you" Evan begged but luke just shakes his head and whispers. "I can't go back....all I'm gonna do Is hurt each other" Luke takes a deep breathe and let's it out slowly. "Im gonna hurt myself....because I still love him"

-

A day before the wedding they had a party for just men, not for Jonathan. Jonathan didn't want nothing to do with this. Jonathan walks outside and sees a light on the house be prayed to see again. He runs towards it and evan takes a notice. "Jonathan!" He called out but jonathan ignored him and ran full speed to luke's house. He kicks open the slightly opened door and scans the area quickly. Luke calms down with boxes and they locked eyes. "Luke" Jonathan whispered and luke shakes his head and walks away. Jonathan pulls luke and spins him around.

"What the hell is your problem!" Jonathan screams and luke snaps. He pushes Jonathan and jonathan falls back his back hitting the cold porch and evan gasped and ran to his direction.

Luke's eyes widen and he carefully tries to pick up Jonathan. "Get away from him!" Evan yelled and luke does as his told. Evan comes from behind and picks up Jonathan's head in his lap carefully.

"Jonathan are you okay?!" Evan asked  and jonathan nods. "Im fine ev..."

Evan picks Jonathan up and glares at luke harshly. "What is wrong with you? He-"

"No evan....I deserved it..." Jonathan said and luke walks up to him but evan pulls Jonathan back. "Evan-"

"No....he'll hurt you again."

"He didn't hurt me....I'm hurting him" Jonathan said and throws himself to luke. Luke tenses up and Jonathan pulls himself towards luke closely ad possible. "I missed you" he whispered and placed a soft tender kiss on luke's exposed shoulder.

-

Evan took Jonathan home after the kiss he placed on luke's shoulder and jonathan cries as evan drags him away, whispering to let him go but evan ignored him.

-

Bryce sits on one of the many sits that where taken quickly in this special day. Jonathan made the fakes most real smile he could ever make making everyone buying it. Bryce had facetime on and he showed luke the whole place. The way everything was set up, everyone that came, how beautiful Jonathan looked.

A few minutes pass and luke was already at 5 beers. Crying his eyeballs out as he hears the priest say, "If there be anyone present who may show just and lawful cause why this couple may not be legally wed, let him speak now or forever hold his peace" he spoke and jonathan had puffy red eyes. Tears could spill at any second now and luke whispers. He says an I do making Bryce let go of a tear he was holding on to.

"I do" Ava said and the whole crowd gasped.

"A-ava?" Jonathan whispered and she kissed him softly. She pulled away and jonathan holds her tightly by her hips. "I can't drag you into this dream of mine any longer. Look at the world in front of you, even if I'm not there..." she trails off and cleans the fresh tears that came from Jonathan's broken eyes.

"I love you to this extent, and I want you to be happy. Cause I know.....with me you weren't, so I'm letting you go now...so someone can give you there all and you can feel the passion of there love just as much as they do"

"Ava....I love you"

"Thank you for all of does happy times you gave me, even if they weren't much...I always did cherish them"

"Ava..." Jonathan hugs her and cries to her. She cries herself and softly runs her hands thru Jonathan's hair.

"Thank you so much....I....I truly do love you...."

"But someone else holds the key to your heart..."

"Ava....don't leave me..."

She smiled and kissed the side of Jonathan's head. "Don't worry....I won't leave....not the way he did" Ava whispered and jonathan kissed her with so many emotions. "No...I refuse to let you go..."

"But-"

"I won't lose someone I love again....even if they gave up on me...I won't give up on you, I'll try hard!"

Ava hiccups and cries to the words of Jonathan and so does luke who was at the peek of screaming bloody murder.

"No Jonathan...the wedding is canceled!" She yelled to the people sitting down as she holds Jonathan close to her.

"As long as your happy...I'm happy" Ava said and finally let's go and walks away from jonathan. Evan comes in and hold Jonathan as he cries harder.

"Don't leave...." he whispered and luke finally disconnects himself and cries till he passes out.

Jonathan faints and evan carried him to the car and quickly took him to a hospital.

-

"HELP!" Evan screamed to the nurses at the hall and everyone ran to his side as jonathan lays limp on Evan's arm. "Help us please!"

-

Jonathan woke up after what seemed ages for his friends and family.

His body gave out so quickly, it took a year to recover completely. Jonathan finally opened his eyes and he sees evan sitting next to him with his girlfriend laying her head on his lap.

Ava was laying her head into Jonathan's lap as she holds his hand and sees someone laying there backs on the wall.

Jonathan groans and everyone's looks at him. "Jonathan!" They all yelled and Evan's girlfriend runs to get a doctor. Evan hugs Jonathan's head while Ava kisses his hands and cheeks. Luke stands there and massages his legs. "Your here..."

"Im awake...."

"And alive"

"You left me..."

"I won't leave you....ever again"