Vanessa's point of view

"Oh my god." I said and Ashton followed me. "You can't explain that to me Ashton, you can't tell me that he's not smiling and he's not holding her ass and he's not letting her kiss his neck. Don't even try." I said.

"Vanessa he was drunk-"

"That doesn't make it anymore okay-"

"Listen to me-"

"He came back to the hotel room with hickies and love bits and like bad back scratches and I bet he slept with her because I know I didn't do that-"

"Can you please-"

I took off Calum's flannel and threw it at Ashton. "Keep it." I said as I ran out of the studio.

Ashton didn't follow because he had to stay inside for rehearsals that started any minute now. A security guard, Dave now that I got a good look at him, followed me as I ran to the bus.

"Are you okay Vanessa?" He asked as he opened the bus for me. I shook my head and walked in, allowing him to follow me since he did unlock it for me. "What's the matter?"

"I'll show you." I said and he nodded as he shut the door. I pulled my phone out and then opened Twitter as I looked through every update account on my timeline.

I pulled up the one that had '5/4' on their location and then showed him the pictures. "I wasn't present with them that night, I didn't know." He said and I shrugged.

I looked through them all and as soon as I saw them actually kissing, I had enough. I tossed my phone into Michael's bunk and then took the ring off, then the bracelet, and they both followed my phone.

"Calum, he's a little stupid sometimes. Um," he said and I sniffled. "I can't defend his actions but, least you can do is hear him out." He said as his phone rang.

"I don't need explanations, I don't want then. Go answer it, I'm gonna... I'm gonna go to sleep. I can't right now." I said and he nodded as he stood up.

I took my glasses off and then set them down on the table. I put my beanie by my bags and then I wiped my eyes a bit. I changed into sweats and a plain black cropped shirt and then I jumped into a bunk, pulling the blanket over me before shutting the curtain.

I sniffled quietly and then closed my eyes, hoping to dream of clear skies instead of his dark eyes.

-

"Dude, she's torn apart!"

"I don't remember what even happened alright! I don't even know the girl's name!"

"She woke up crying Calum, Luke had to go in there and cuddle her."

"Luke's gonna kill you Calum."

"I was pissed off my ass, how was I supposed to say no to a girl who could blow me without me going to jail?"

"Can you not think with your dick for a single second? You've crushed her."

"This is her first relationship, how can you do this? First you-you make advances that make her uncomfortable, then you keep doing it, and then you cheat on her? She's fifteen."

"I told you that them dating would end up in a trainwreck!"

"If Calum would have committed to the relationship better it wouldn't be headed in that direction!"

I buried my face into Luke's chest and he rubbed my back softly. "Are you awake Nessa?"

"I wish I wasn't."

"What did you dream about?" He asked me, probably trying to keep me from crying or to keep me from going out there.

"You don't want to know." I said and he sighed. "Why did Calum do that?"

"Because Calum is Calum." He said and I sniffled. "This... This is why I didn't want you guys dating. This is why none of us said we'd let Calum date our kids. This is why you date Ashton."

I laughed lightly with him and he kissed my forehead. "We bought pizza, if you want any." He asked and I nodded. "I'll get you a plate then." He said and I nodded again.

He got out of the bunk and I laughed when he rolled out. "Yeah you think that's funny? Watch me spit in your food." He groaned and I peeked my head out of the curtain.

"Spit on it and I'll spit on you Hemmo." I said and he nodded as he stood up, walking towards the tiny kitchen in the direction of the guys.

I got out myself and then picked my phone up quietly. Me, being the dumbshit that I am, dropped my phone and everyone turned towards me. I gulped and then picked my phone up again, running to the back of the bus and closing the sliding door.

"Vanessa?"

"Go away." I said and then plugged my phone in after locking the door. Since the sliding door had a mirror on it, I was stuck staring into it.

No wonder why Calum went after that other girl, she's a lot smaller than I was and not to mention, she was legal.

"If you're not Hemmo then go away."

"Yeah, it's me. Promise." He said and I opened the door. "I wasn't lying." He said and the rest of the band was behind him.

"I change my mind, I'm not hungry. I want to sleep some more." I said and he grabbed my arm.

"I know it's hard when your first significant other cheats on you but I'm not allowing you to go through that 'boohoo my life is over' phase most girls do. You're not skipping meals, you're not sleeping away daylight, and you are not going to skip showers aswell, the bus smells enough with Michael on it." He said and Michael laughed.

"Hey, I don't smell that bad. I wear cologne and stuff." He said and I sighed. "Besides, I think this conversation should be saved until Calum isn't within hearing distance."

"With ears that big I'm sure he can hear from miles away, there's no point." Luke said and Ashton busted into fits of laughter.

I ripped my arm from his grip and jumped into the same bunk I was in previously. "Leave me alone to die." I said and covered myself with the blanket.

"Vanessa, come on, we need to talk."

"I don't want to. It's pretty self-explanatory Calum. We're over." I said, my voiced muffled because of the pillow.

"Can we please just talk this through?"

"You can go pillow talk with that other chick you were with, I don't wanna hear it but I bet she does." I told him and Ashton laughed again.

"Vanessa, stop being like this." He said and Luke asked him why the hell he was using a 'dominate' tone. "Come on."

"Go away Mr. Grey."

"Jesus fucking Christ, just talk to me Vanessa!" He snapped and I flinched, glad that the curtain was still pulled so no one could see.

"I think we should at least step off of the bus." Michael said and it was silent.

"I'm not leaving them alone, especially when Calum's being a little b-"

"Just step off of the bus. It's not leaving them alone when we can walk in at any second." Michael said and Luke groaned. Soon, the door was closing and I was facing the grey curtain.

"Vanessa please." He said and I was quiet. "We need to talk this through. You can't go assuming I want to break up and I can't let you decide until you've heard me out."

"You slept with her because I'm a minor, I get it. Calum, there's no explaining in this." I said and opened the curtain to look at him. "I understand. Go date someone your own age. Wouldn't want you going to jail for those blowjobs now would we?"

"That's not... You said we wouldn't bring it up again, we were high and it doesn't count. Vanessa, please just come out so we can talk-"

"It's not going to be a talk. It's going to be you yelling at me and me yelling back and one of us is going to leave and the other is gonna be smoking pot on top of the bus at three in the morning." I said and he was silent. "And... And somehow we'd end up both high, and lying to the band about what we did and what we do."

"That's not going to happen. Please Vanessa, just come out so we can have have a normal conversation." He said and I rolled my eyes.

Because talking about cheating is such a normal conversation.

I stood up after getting out of the bunk and I crossed my arms, regretting not wearing a full shirt because now all of my stomach is on show and it makes me feel less intimidating.

"I'm sorry."

"No you're not." I said and he ran a hand through his hair. "If you wanted to like, fuck so badly, you could have told me. I would have ended this and you can go around having all the sex you want, no one to tie you down."

"It's not that." He said and I looked at him. "It's more like, I was wasted, she was flirting with me, and I didn't know what to do."

"You tell her you're dating someone, that's what you do Calum." I said and closed my eyes. "Remind me, who's the one who's never dated anyone before this."

"Ha ha ha." He said and rolled his eyes. "We've been dating for like, almost four months now, are you gonna throw it away because I was wasted and made a mistake?"

"You'll do it again, I know you will. How do I know? Because I can't provide and you're going to get frustrated and in maybe two months or a month even, we'll be here again, and again, and again." I told him and he sighed.

"Don't think about the future, think about now Vanessa." He told me and I bit my bottom lip. "I promise that it was a mistake and it didn't mean anything."

"It hurts more than you lied to me, actually. You said I did that and I knew I didn't. It hurts more that I had to get it from an update account on Twitter rather than you. I understand why you slept with someone but... lying hurts." I said and he nodded.

"I'm sorry Vanessa. I'm so sorry. I don't know how to talk about things like that. I'm not use to committment. I haven't dated anybody in like a year or something." He told me and I sighed.

I looked down at the floor and rubbed my hands over my face. "I don't know." I said about ready to bang my head against a wall.

"You don't know?" He asked loudly. "I told you that it was a mistake and that I didn't mean it! I told you that I'm sorry." He said and I looked at him.

"I don't know Calum! I'm fifteen, what am I supposed to know? The most relationship experience I had before this was self insert imagines on Tumblr!" I said and he turned around as he ran a hand through his hair.

"It's a simple yes or no Vanessa. Can you forgive me or can you not? It's that easy." He told me and I shook my head.

"It's not because forgiven or not I don't know if I'm ready to keep dating you." I said and he looked at me. "Your fans hate me at the moment, your sister and mom hate me, I even hate me right now. I don't know Calum." I said and he looked at me, his eyes a bit glossy.

"I promise it won't happen again." He said ans grabbed my hands, pulling me close to him. "I promise Nessa. Please don't just end this all. Who cares about other people?" He told me and I took my hands from his grasp.

"Why are you crying Calum?" I asked as I wiped away his tears. "Don't cry." I said and he chuckled a bit.

"I'm just scared." He said and I nodded as his hand covered mine. "I don't want to lose you but I really fucked up."

"I... uh..." I looked down and then just wrapped my arms around him, hugging him tightly. "I don't know what to do." I cried and he rubbed my back.

"Give me one more shot and I promise that it won't happen again." He said and played with my hair. "I promise Nessa, I love you."

"What?" I asked and looked up at him. He bit his bottom lip and nodded. "Did you mean that?"

"Yeah... unless you don't feel the same." He said and I buried my face into his chest, a bit overwhelmed with everything. "Vanessa?"

"I can't." I said and let go of him. Before he cough grab my arm, I ran from him and stepped off of the bus.

"Vanessa!"

"Where are you going?"

"What did Calum do?"