Its Kiera again. This time it's going to be a little more different. This is a diary entry over the span of a few years. Lowercase intended. Dog chapter isn't out yet due to poor planning so as a gift I'm giving you this. Not edited like most of my other chapters so pls understand. This has a lesbian relationship so if you feel uncomfortable you can replace her name with a boy name, idk

(Listened to the video above to try and get me in the mood)

31 JANUARY 2016

met someone at the bookstore today. she seemed nice. she was looking for an old textbook to rent. i actually had the last copy, she seemed desperate so i gave it to her. she looked happy and hugged me, she gave me her number saying she was indebted to me, and then she ran off like a child. but seriously, all that over a textbook?

1 FEBRUARY 2016

today the same girl texted me. i was a bit surprised of course, but she was fun to talk with. her name was Cindy, i told her my name and she said we were friends now. but we only just met. it was her birthday, i told her happy bday and she got all excited.   is she that lonely?

2 FEBRUARY 2016

today we agreed to go see each other, i don't know why i did it, maybe out of pity. she dyed her hair purple now, i don't usually say this but she looked pretty with her happy smiles. we went out for a coffee. it was fun. maybe i want to hang out with her again. 

3 FEBRUARY 2016

i am such an idiot, i agreed to her saying that we were friends. now she won't stop bothering me. thankfully she's already asleep.

19 OCTOBER 2016

now it's my birthday. since Cindy is one of my only friends, she gave me a gift. it was a album for my favourite band. she's quite the friend i must say. but somewhere deep inside me, says i didn't want to be just her friend.

1 NOVEMBER 2016

today she said she liked me. i didn't know what to do. it was like i froze. she kissed me on the cheek. i ran. now i don't know what to do.

3 NOVEMBER 2016

she apologised for what she did. i said it was fine, i said i liked it. she asked me out. i said i had to think about it. 

4 NOVEMBER 2016

i said yes, we went back to the cafe we went for our first outing. it was fun. i liked it, and i liked her.

5 NOVEMBER 2016

i have never been good at expressing my feelings, that's why this diary started. but Cindy makes me feel something unique and exciting. what is it?

4 NOVEMBER 2017

it's been a year. we celebrated it at the movies. i'm definitely in love. her eyes are just beautiful. her hair is so soft with her curly hair which is still purple.

10 NOVEMBER 2017

she's been ignoring me. i don't know why, did i do something wrong? what did i do? she's been not talking to me or her friends for 6 days now, we're worried. i'm worried.

11 NOVEMBER 2017

she showed up to my house in tears. we kissed. then she started crying even more. she said she has stage 3 cancer. we then both cried.

12 NOVEMBER 2017

she went to the doctor. it was no use. she was dying. we hugged, we cried, we kissed. but that wouldn't do anything.

25 DECEMBER 2017

today is christmas. we celebrated watching home alone. she was slowly getting better. but she doesn't look the same anymore.  she couldn't afford chemotherapy. we tried our hardest to earn money but it wasn't enough.

27 DECEMBER 2017

her parents said she was to go back to britain to spend time with them. forever. we cried again which was now the new normal.  is the whole world against us?

1 JANUARY 2018

today was the day she was going to leave. we embraced each other for like an hour. we won't be likely to see each other again. painful, but it was the sad cold hard truth. the pain was unbearable but we had to deal with it. it was our last goodbye. before going in to a long distance relationship

1 JANUARY 2019

i received a call from her parents. she was dying, they said. now was her last moments on earth. I talked her on the phone, when she would whisper sweet nothings. i cried, again. she cried. and in a matter of seconds that was it. that was my last and final goodbye.

4 NOVEMBER 2019

today was the anniversary of my deceased girlfriend and i. she was buried here in london, where i fortunately had enough money to go to. i looked down at the small stone with a sad smile on my face. i could feel the tears down my face. the tears were sad. knowing she was in a better a place, they were now happy. this girl who was too pure for this world was now above in the clouds. then, i left the graveyard with sad smiles and happy tears. i was ready to start a new life.

Might do a part 2 to this after the movie inspired chapter. Sorry this was quite rushed, I had to work extra time. Also, watching teletubbies while writing does not help.

Bye!

~Kiera