Oh god. This isn't even funny anymore.

Suddenly so much has happened in my life. And not only mine, nearly everyone's life.

Where do I even start?

Let me start with a normal thing.

Mae is working late these days. Apparently, she got a job as a bartender. And Rae got an additional reason to go to the bar.

Let's talk about Rae for a moment. This time, she fucked up. It's her fault this time. I should make this clear, Rae does not think before doing something that she wants to. She does not care about other people. And it's really good at s limit. And it's really good for her. For other people though, it's one ticket to hell.

Don't count me, I love hell.

Yes, so remember that classy businessman Rae accidentally kissed in the movie theatre. They accidentally met again. And Rae couldn't help but laugh, but she still apologized thoroughly.

And then the businessman scolded her that how could she be so careless and had the audacity to laugh and that kind of stuff. He accused her of not apologizing that day.

There's one more thing about Rae I should tell you. When she's good, when she's sweet, she's so genuine that your heart just simply melts. She wouldn't cringe you by being sweet. She just has this way of smiling and laughing and saying things that just feel... Literal. Like she's an adult but also very positive.

That's rare, trust me.

So then she apologized again and offered the man to treat him for a dinner. Then they went to have that dinner, which they enjoyed, they laughed and all. It's hard not to laugh when you're with Rae. But she can make you cry too, don't get me wrong. Then the businessman paid which was very kind of him considering it was Rae's treat.

It was a very decent offer until it wasn't.

Because then they made out.

And Rae was telling this to all of us as if it was nothing. And when I say all of us, it includes Jimin.

When she mentioned that, everyone just fell silent. And it was so agonizing to watch the way Jimin's face fell. He's an idiot but he looked like a baby whose candy was snatched away by a bully.

He didn't wait for anyone to talk, he didn't wait for Rae to turn his face towards him. He just got off the couch and walked away upstairs.

"What's wrong with him?" I can't believe Rae asked that.

That was the point when Mae didn't hold back from shouted at Rae. She told her how she just freaking cheated on Jimin by making out with a stranger.

Rae usually shouts back ten times louder but this time didn't. She just slowly explained that Jimin and she were not in a relationship. They were just 'having fun' and that they had made it very clear when starting their casual fucks that both of them can hook up with different people as well.

So she wasn't entirely at fault.

I think Mae and Rae are the same.

They think they can just...you know sneak out by claiming that they didn't have any real relationship with boys, no matter the moments they spent together, no matter the memories they made. Just the same thing that Mae did to me. And I ended up questioning our entire relationship.

"Don't give me that bullshit."

Mae said. Well, it really was bullshit. A long time has passed after that. And jimin and Rae are closer than 'just fun', that a fucking fact. It's so damn clear that they feel so much for each other. I told you their 'just fun' was turning toxic.

I don't know why Rae did it. Maybe she doesn't know it either. We're seventeen, that's not an excuse but everyone feels like...exploring things. There's this doubt always lingering in your mind who asks you if you should really settle. I don't blame her. She has her whole life ahead of her, a thousand people to meet, of course, she wonders if she's set up for something different.

But that just simply doesn't give you the right to break people's heart. It's very harsh to get emotionally connected to someone and then...well, claim that there was no relationship from the beginning itself.

Here, I speak for myself and Jimin.

Anyways.

One thing led to another and then Rae said something very bad, and Jimin heard it as he was standing by the staircases. And you won't believe how hard Jimin was crying. Like the real one, where our faces contort and we can't hold back tears and sobs.

"You don't see the person behind the body do you?! You fuck anyone you find the least bit attractive!"

"Yeah like you're any better!"

"No, but I wanted to be better for you!" Jimin shouted that and everything just went silent and all we could hear was Jimin hiccuping and sobbing badly. He was crying so hard that he didn't even bother covering his face, de does that, usually. Not that he cries very often, he rarely cries. Rae, Jimin...well none of us ever really cries.

"We mutually decided that we could fuck anyone apart from each other when we started it!" Rae shouted after a while.

"I barely knew you dammit!" Jimin argued. "I barely fucking knew you! I thought we were closer than before!"

It was quite awkward to just stand there and do nothing. Just look at the two of them fighting. They fought and fought more, to the point that even Rae was on the verge of tears. And then Jimin said what he had always wanted to, what literally every guy wants to.

He grabbed her face and then suddenly he was standing very close to her and looking into her eyes.

Before you ask why the fuck were they fighting and clinging to each other at the same time, it happens when you're in love. Like...when your mom slaps you, you cry and cling to her. I'm sorry it was a shitty example.

I wanted to hug Mae too when we fought.

Then Jimin said,

"You're mine, Rae. And I don't want you be with somebody else."

Epic moment. Bravo. Hell no.

I'm telling y'all, lines like these sound so cringe when said in real life.

And Rae honestly, had a reason to be offended. "Am I a property now, Jimin?"

"Okay, he didn't mean that!" Mae intruded, standing between them "Don't act as if you don't know what he meant. Both of you are so up your asses. For once just admit your feelings and leave 'its just for fun'!"

Call this a brother's instinct, call it whatever you want but I didn't like Mae shouting at Rae. I simply didn't. And she was being a hypocrite, so I stepped in.

"Look whose even talking, it's not like you're any better!" I shouted at Mae. "You aborted a child and didn't tell me so you don't get to teach about accepting feelings!"

Mae laughed sarcastically. "You think I didn't tell you because I couldn't accept my feelings for you?" She scoffed. "I didn't tell you because I was killing my first child and you have no idea what it feels like. And I had no one. And our relationship was the only thing normal in my life so I let it be that way! But you ruined it!"

I just stared at Mae... Realising that I hadn't been there for her through such a hard phase of her life. In fact, I had ruined it more for her.

Then Jimin jumped on his toes shouting "my chance! My chance to say!" then he inhaled deeply and looked at Rae.

"WOULD YOU LIKE IT IF I KISS SOMEBODY ELSE?!" He shouted, and to be honest he looked so proud of himself to bring up such a good point to the arguement.

Then it burned into ashes when Rae said,

"DO IT! KISS YOONGI DO IT!"

"Hey why me?!"

Jimin eyes were comically blown wide, and he almost looked adorable with his angry pout. But then he looked like an asshole when he kissed Mae. It wasn't directed towards her, it wasn't even long, it was just enough to make Rae jealous... And me too.

I was about to throw my hands on Jimin when Rae interrupted with a laugh.

"You think you're the only one who can do that?!" And then she kissed Mae too, smiling proudly while Mae was just standing there dumbfounded.

Apparently Jimin got more jealous than Rae did, so in desperation to make her jealous, he kissed me. I hate him. Well he kissed me because I was the first person he could see but ugh... he's disgusting and the way he stomped his lips on mine was so hard that it hurt.

Jimin smirked obnoxiously at her, challenging. Of course I thought that now Rae would kiss me for their revenge game but she didn't, she hesitated and then backed away and Jimin jumped in happiness, throwing his hands up in victory.

"Ha! You lost!"

That fueled Rae and then she stomped towards Taehyung, grabbed his head and kissed Taehyung. Then she smiled proudly at herself because Jimin couldn't kiss Taehyung. Taehyung and jimin share a very brotherly bond.

"You lost!"

I swear to god I had forgot during our fight that the rest of our friends existed until Jimin and Rae started kissing each of them one after the other. It was such a fucking chaos. They kissed everyone and when Jimin was about to kiss Jin, who was the last, Jin shouted,

"STOP IT DAMMIT!"

So they stopped because Jin is older than us.

"Both of you! Room!" He ordered and Rae and Jimin started stomping towards the same direction. "Your own rooms!"

So they started walking in different directions and then we heard two doors banging shut. Then the other door banging shut louder than the first one. Then one more door banging shut louder than the second one.

Before they could fall in the competition of who bangs the door louder, Jin shouted again,

"FUCKING STOP IT!"

There was a five minute of silence where Jin just rubbed his forehead in frustration before looking at me and Mae with a look of anger, wordlessly telling us to go to our rooms too.

I and Mae contacted out eyes and then we stomped away from the living room, banging our doors shut too.

And tonight the four of us are not getting dinner.