Rae and Jimin will get married one day and still say 'it's just for fun'. I'm not even kidding.

It's just physical, it's just physical.

That's all they say even when it's clear they do a lot of things other than sex. They're literally together all the time. And they look so happy running around the dorm all giggling. But they just won't admit it.

I'm very happy today. I have my rest bitch face on but I'm very very happy from inside.

You see, last night I was sleeping and then I woke up in the middle of the night. I felt really empty for some reason. I figured out it was because I was sleeping alone and not with Mae. I've gotten used to feeling her against me. I like her, of course, I want her against me.

It's lovely in its own way.

Sometimes, we don't understand what we feel.

So I strode towards her room in half-consciousness. When I reached there, I saw on her bed and maybe the little rustling stirred her up from sleep. Not completely. But she thought that it was Rae instead of me so she continued to sleep and get buried deeper into the covers.

Then what she mumbled next is the reason why I'm so happy today. She said,

"Rae, I think I might be in love with Min Yoongi."

She was in her sleep but my heart jumped out for real. I just stood there in legit shock for maybe ten minutes before getting into the covers with her and cuddling her happily.

The feeling that you have when your crush likes you back? But she is more than just a crush.

She didn't remember saying it the next morning because she was in her sleep when she said it. I didn't push either, I've just been smiling like an idiot all day. So much so, that Jungkook commented something is wrong with me.

Then I came to my room and started writing to you. Also, I don't know how if I'll be writing to you all year or get bored of it. So, sorry. For right, now, I'm keeping it up.

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Hi again.

So I went downstairs for lunch after writing the last letter to you. Today is Saturday if you're wondering why I'm at home.

And Saturday also means that Rae will take Jimin to the club again. I usually stand by the door to stop them right there and scold them to get back to the room. But I guess, I'll let them go today because they haven't been there for a while now.

I don't get the idea of clubbing really. It's a waste of energy I prefer sleeping more. But it suits them both idiots very well, dancing and booze kinda stuff.

You'd say I talk more about Rae and Jimin's relationship than my own. Well, that's because there's nothing much about it. I like Mae a lot. And maybe she does too. But I'm a pussy and I don't know how to ask her out.

Shit, I said pussy. I hope they don't read this. Forgive me if both of you are reading this.

Okay.

I'm a coward and I don't know how to ask her out.

But I'll tell you something about Mae.

I was wondering if Mae was a virgin. Because she doesn't really talk about it, nor does she bring people home so I don't know anything.

And you see, when you have feelings for someone, everything about them endears you.

So just the thought of Mae being a virgin was endearing. Not because I had a chance of stealing her virginity, absolutely not.

So I asked Jungkook if Mae ever told him something since Mae and kook are gaming friends. They play video games a lot in his room. So maybe Mae would have told him.

But Jungkook didn't know either.

So out of curiosity and desperation, I asked Mae directly.

"Mae, are you a virgin?"

At first, she looked at me for a moment, raising an eyebrow but then she rolled her eyes which made my stomach do something weird, and then she said,

"I'm pretty sure I've had a threesome before."

"Ok."

I said and then got out of her room.

Now I know she's not a virgin and it's even more endearing. Like, everything suits her. She could step on me and that would be endearing too. Okay? Okay.

And don't you dare say she belongs to the streets because she's had a threesome. She doesn't. If a guy can go hoeing around fucking girls and people can think it's cool, a girl can too.

She thought me that.

Also, not everyone is eating for the one to take their virginity. So yeah.

Anyways, I'll go and study now. Bye.