Nothing in your mind could comprehend as to what was going on. Feeling defeated as you allowed yourself to be dragged back to your quarters.

"This isn't how it should be" you murmured staring at the dark metal floor. Sure enough it wasn't just some fake projected reality as you were given when back on Cybertron. The sound of heavy steps caused you to eye the door with suspense that it was going to be Megatron coming to lecture you on being quite of any information you might plane on trying to get Optimus back.

"Look.." You started as you stood up from your berth "I can understand you want me to keep quite and of course now that the war isn't really being a war anymore I suggest you-" debts shut closed when seeing it was Orin instead of Megatron like you expected.

'I'm an idiot'

First thought in your mind as you stood there looking at Orion Pax with a sheepish grin. "Sorry... I was expecting Megatron to come and lecture me about a mistake I made awhile back."

Orion seemed to of taken note of your uneasiness. Seeing as your pedes were shuffling and your servos were behind your back fiddling with your posable digits. "You had seemed quite startled to see me Mite" Orion stated as he carefully stepped inside your quarters.

Why wouldn't you not be startled? This only leads to you being even further away from going back to Guardian. "Orion, It's been forever that I do not feel exactly sure of what I'm doing anymore. At random times I don't have very much information on what is going on or on how to help" you said with a heavy sigh.

Orion's optics seemed to of been concentrated on your form taking note of how anxiety has crept and made you weak compared to what he originally remembers you being as the cheery sparkling that always hung around him even helping with organizing archives. "Mite I'm aware of your uneasiness and the fact of how Megatronus had to save you from near off-lining on Cybertron."

'All is a lie..' You thought bitterly hating yourself for even trying to succumb to Megatron's tyrant ways. "I am not the sparkling you once knew Orion. Things change and even we change. I can not leave. Having without telling you of who you are as Megatron will surely kill me and have it broadcasted just to show as to what this supposed sparkling was doing after all."

"Will you tell me as to what happened" Orion asked in a sincere tone as he placed a gentle touch on your back plate. This only made you bite the bottom of you metal lips knowing your death is upon you.

"Back on Cybertron, you and Megatron told me to wait outside as you both went to talk to the High Council about the current problems going about on Cybertron. Waiting was all I was allowed to do as the both of you were the only ones I knew" you giggled slightly thinking of how silly you were back than "Megatron came out and he didn't spare a glance at me. I followed him out of instinct and sure enough he stopped after sometime. I was confused when he turned to me and the first thing to of struck me was his optics had turned red.. It struck me to the point where I became scared of him. Sadly, I wasn't much of a runner like my cousin was. Next thing I knew you came back and when I went to greet.. You did not remember me. It hurt. It really hurt. So I had gone back to Megatron and that's where I was trained to be his so called spy. I once tried running away but I didn't even make it past the first steps.. Most of my memories data is scrambled from being reprogrammed time and time again in the hopes of keeping me loyal and not have the tendency to run away again. I ended up getting injured and fell into a junkyard. From there I just woke up here on Earth. I was the only one here alone and nobody of my kind.."

It took a moment to realize that throughout your story telling you had been crying. Orion frowned at how such a sparkling could go through something. "I am deeply sorry. For not having been there when needed" He spoke.

"Orion there isn't anything you can do. I'm just a thing to be used and I have no importance of myself. I'm not in a team or any faction of any sort. I'm just a Cybertronian who is trying to understand who they are fighting for and of when they are ever going home. Now please, Megatron will be wanting to know as to why you aren't decoding.." You turned away leaving Orion to glance at you one last time before exiting the room leaving you to cry amongst yourself.