Fully written by Gonewiththewind03!

Ship: Yoonjin

Summary: After seeing Jin like that, Yoongi makes a plan, a small getaway for the both of them to spend their time.

🔻(TW - warning of blood, self harm)🔺

College student! Min Yoongi
College student! Kim Seokjin

Song: Ito - TXT

2054 Words

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"We're here, hyung!"
Yoongi exclaimed as the car stopped with a screech.

They had stopped infront of a field. A field of mesmerizing daisies. Beautiful pale white flowers blooming with yellow centers. With the soft wind blowing in their faces, the couple stared at the daisies which danced in a gleeful manner.

The weather so peaceful with the sun up in the sky hiding between cotton candy-like fluffy clouds. The green in between acted as a perfect contrast to the overall beauty of the fields. A few of the crickets chirped with great vigor and joy. Overall, a lovely place to be at the moment.

Yoongi wanted Jin to relax and let him on his truth. And this place screamed the vibes of tranquility and solace. So, that's why he had planned to bring his other half here.

"We didn't even have breakfast and there's no eateries nearby"
Jin grumbled under his breath, though Yoongi heard him quiet well. Jin was especially hungry, after not eating proper dinner yesterday.

"Just tell me you're hungry, sweets. I prepared some gimbaps, sandwiches and your favourite vanilla milkshake."
Yoongi sweetly smiled with a slight smirk, as if proud of himself.

Laying all the food on the picnic blanket under the tree, Yoongi and Jin took bites of their breakfasts. One that Yoongi had prepared putting in all his blood, sweat and tears early morning.

"You even got me a cherry on top."
Jin grinned like an innocent child with excitement.

"Anything for my hyung."
Yoongi muttered loving thr way Jin was so happy about a simple sweet red cherry.

"So... Wanna tell me about yesterday?"
Yoongi started after analysing the atmosphere between them.

"I... Not actually."
Jin muttered with a slight crease on his forehead.

"Well, hear me out first. You can speak later on, cool?"
Yoongi spoke making sure Jin was on board.

"Kay baby."
Jin answered with a pout.

"I don't know why you even felt the need to slice your skin. Or even stayed like that even after knowing that you were bleeding."

"But, all that I know is that something big is going wrong for you to even do this. Just share it with me. Not your boyfriend, yoonie. But, your best friend Min Yoongi. So, please let me know. I'll try to make it better. I don't want you to hurt like this. Please. It hurts me seeing my boyfriend, my best friend, my hyung being like this."

Yoongi spoke all the while looking Jin in the eye. Jin had a hard time to ignore the warmth in his chest after hearing those words. Yoongi noticed the taller boy clenching his fists, trying to prevent himself go into another breakdown.

"Y-yoonie. I'm sorry for yesterday."
Jin let out his first sniffle, unable to keep it all in.

"NO hyung. You shouldn't apologize. I'm sure there's a valid reason for this. So please be at ease."
Yoongi spoke trying to show that Jin is safe in his arms.

"I don't know. I don't know why I did it. Don't know why I slit my wrist. I just wanted to feel something. Even if it's pain. Even it's going to leave a mark for my entire life. Even people turn away from me, i just wanted to feel something."
Jin took a break from his story of sadness.

"It's okay."
Yoongi wrapped his arms around the older boy, shielding himself from the bright sun. Also giving the feel of being protected.

"Everything's going well. I mean I have you, my best friend and my boyfriend. I have mom, dad and noona. I have a nice college to study in. I... Just don't know. It's like an empty feeling in the pit of my stomach."

This was the first time Jin even admitted to himself. He hadn't come to terms to his own feelings of despair. Apparently it had happened for no reason. That feeling in the pit of your gut. That dreaded feeling in his bones.

Jin had felt it all. He couldn't pinpoint to one incident. One moment. It was wrong to feel so empty, numb and sad. All of the world was moving with such ease, and yet Jin felt stuck. Felt suffocated.Like he was being drowned under the ocean.

And thus to get some sort of relief, Jin had picked up that hideous devilish weapon of sorts. It was wrong. Self harm was never the remedy, but he couldn't help the feeling. Maybe if he had pushed it away it wouldn't haunt him. But it was finally up to the brim of his neck and with Yoongi's comforting hands in his hair, it made sense to let it all out.

Going back to the last visit to his parents' place, he remembered how he lashed out on his sister for just asking to pick up his laundry. How he was annoyed about everything and nothing. He was always tired. Like he had lacked sleep. Drowsy eyes, lazy movements as if he would slam his head first into the ground.

He would never acknowledge that he needed help. Even if he did, it's impossible for him to get it on his own.

"I felt like my life was too monotonous. Too empty. I was like a robot. Just one aim in mind, complete your studies and get a job. Even with you by my side, I felt too far away from you. It wasn't your fault, yoonie. I-"
Jin broke down finally unable to hold it in. Choking over his own tears of sadness Jin let them wet Yoongi's shirt.

"Let it out, hyung."
Yoongi soothed out the other's heart with his simple words of comfort.

"I felt I wasn't enough for you. I am not good enough for someone so precious. I am just me. Same old Jin. Your best friend. And how could I even think of being your life partner?"
Jin questioned the younger with doe eyes. The same eyes that Yoongi had fallen in love with.

"Jinnie hyung, I love you. You are perfect. We attract each other like magnets. Are these three reasons not enough for us to be together?"
Yoongi answered with a smile that lifted his break cheeks.

"But then, I don't know why I feel emotionless. No feelings. That's the reason I felt I couldn't be the perfect boyfriend for you. Everyone got something going on in their life. They go to movies, have tons of hobbies. I don't excel in that. And I can't even do my best in my studies. I can't even handle myself."

Yoongi's whole being broke off on hearing how Jin felt. He wish he could stop those overcrowding thoughts in Jin's pretty little head. The same ones which fed him lies. The same ones which overpowered his free will.

Jin's feelings were valid. For all of it had amounted to this despair. Seeing everyone be so successful in their work and him being so useless made him lose confidence. But wasn't it all a game of life?

To wake up from the sand of time, just to fall back into the same cycle of suffering and insolence. Jin was scared of the end. Jin was stuck in the loop. Jin was more than all, tired of the dreaded demons in his head. The same ones which told him he wasn't worthy enough. The same ones which made him believe he was nothing.

"Hyung, all this has been going on, and you didn't tell me?"
Yoongi sighed on seeing Jin nod subtly. Jin had by then laid his head on Yoongi's lap. To be lulled back to his dreamland.

"Oh my god! NO!! You are perfect. You are worthy of all the attention. You are needed. And fuck all those people who say otherwise. Let all those who show off their skills eat shit. I don't give a flying fuck as to what hobbies you know. I know for your heart. We still have a long way to go. Long way to learn all those activities together. I know you study hard and I know you are loyal, trustworthy, honest, kind and caring. I don't need any other human or spirit in the world to tell me other wise."

Yoongi rapped out the entire dialogue all the while holding Jin on his laps and stroking his hair.

Petting one's hair or back is said to have a healing property. Especially during panic attacks or breakdowns or of hyperventilation.

Yoongi just wanted his boyfriend to relax and let go of himself in the other's arms. So that Jin can let Yoongi glue him back together piece by piece. The shorter boy made another promise due on himself that he would always protect, and reassure the older. No matter what would happen, Yoongi will look out for Jin even if the roles should have been reversed.

"Thank you yooniebear."
Jin mumbled as his cheeks had squished on the side of Yoongi's thighs.

"Hyung!"
Yoongi whined not liking the cheesy nickname given.

"What?! I like that name."
Jin argued after turning a little around just enough to look at Yoongi.

"Okay I'll let you call me that "

Yoongi spoke as he stared deeply into the eyes of his lover who was on his lap. It was a romantic gesture, letting someone lay their head on your lap, but Yoongi loved it. Bring able to hold his lover like this.

"What's the catch?"
Jin asked with his eyebrow up in suspicion.

"You will never hurt yourself like that. If you ever feel like it, you'll call me. No matter what you will call me, Kim Seokjin. I will cross seven seas for you, so please don't think I love you any less."
Yoongi told the other in a strict tone.

"Mhm"
Jin just hummed in agreement which obviously didn't sit well with the younger.

"Nah, you will promise me."
Yoongi sternly scolded the older with an angry pout on his peachy lips.

"Kay, I promise i won't hurt myself."
Jin smiled knowing full well that Yoongi just wanted the best for him.

"Now, my kiss?"
Getting up from his own personal pillow, aka Yoongi's thighs, Jin puckered his lips for a kiss.

"I love you, baby."
Jin confessed with a beautiful grin on his soft features.

"I love you more, bub."
Yoongi replied. He chuckled a little before pecking the others lips. Jin was so childish at times and Yoongi would give everything in the world for it not to change.

The kiss was innocent. Just small pecks, no tongue involvement. It was soft and pure. Just trying to convey the messages that both of them held in their prideful chests. How they cared for each other. How they loved each other. How they cannot live without each other.

"Can we stay here for some time more?"
Yoongi asked before cuddling up to Jin's side. It was warm with Jin's body pressed alongside him.

Intimate? Yes. Innocent? Yes. Love? Yes.

"Of course love."
Jin answered with a far-off look in his eyes.

Gazing at the pretty skies above, he realised how lucky he was to even have a boyfriend like Yoongi. He must have saved the entire human race to be granted a love so happy. So beautiful. So enchanting. So magical.

The sun still up in the sky, the notes of the chirps and light noises of nature, it was peaceful to spend an afternoon with your boyfriend. And Jin would always treasure this trip forever in his memories.

Not because it was after a traumatic event such as the great cut on his wrist, -which would remind him daily of the mistake he had made- but of the beautiful trip to the daisies field with his lover.

Slowly creeping by his side, Jin also found Yoongi's soft milky pale hands wound against his flushed fingers. Gently tugging at them, Yoongi let his fingers entangle themselves in a beautiful knotted mess with Jin's hands.

A day with daisies and hands. What an euphoric experience.