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My phone vibrating in my hand pull my attention away from Medz and the woman by his side in the DJ booth. She was making the most of the situation that their unwitting fans provided.

I was very much annoyed knowing that she was taking advantage of what they presented by requesting she and Medz team up and my annoyance increased as I had to stand there and pay commendation.

Annoyance gave way to several other feelings as I took in the compatible way in which they showcase their craft and the familiarity and ease with which they brought the patrons to heights of euphoria with their companionable DJ and selector finesse.

Dem fit well together.

This thought vibrated in my mind as I watch Medz come alive and I got a chance to see him in this aspect of his life. I could see why they practically begged for him to join his protége.

I did not want to face the fact that he kept being married a secret. It was causing me to slowly lose my cool and I would not be losing face here tonight.

I guess all the storms that raged in my life stemmed from secrets, but this would be one storm I would be facing head-on. I was through running and hiding behind people.

I walk away from the table to take the call as my mind through the haze of emotion register the caller ID.

As I made it to the stairs that would take me down to one of the exits I heard the introduction to a song that was familiar but in my state of mind I was not able to comprehend who's song it was and more so as I proceeded to talk to Petrice.

"Yuh nuh c mi text yuh how long," she said as soon as I answered.

"Mi busy," I responded my annoyance coming out on her.

"My apologies mam," she replied sarcastically. "But a yuh daughter did waah talk to yuh, she a sleep now stills."

"Pet a Peggy dat?"

Mama's voice coming through in the background have me smiling.

"A how she naah sleep?"

"She an a few a d church members did have waah likkle prayer meeting fi DD so she nuh much long come in."

"O bra, mek mi seh hi."

Mama and I talked for a short while and in talking to her I gradually found the situation at hand with Medz moving from the forefront of my thoughts for a bit.

"E sad fi wah hapn but God know ebryting e a duh. Nothing nuh hapn by chance its jus fi wi fi open wi eye an look n c fi wi self wah a him purpose."

I listen to her and tried to decipher what was in it for me. In all that was unfolding in my being with Medz, it was up to me to find the true purpose of it all.

The twist and turns that came up so unexpectedly to jolt my feelings that just seem to manifest in the least opportune time were probably not road blocks but signposts to take me where I was meant to be.

I hung up the phone and made my way back inside as I did so these words hit me.

....They don't wanna see us together, no
People will talk because me famous
But no make that pressure you

A you me love, no other catty me no prefer
Tell her me nah go leave and she said, "Great Man, whatever"
She say me done make it and so much girl waan give me pleasure
But so much means nothing, if me nuh have you girl, me suffer
'Cause girl a you me love, you me love
What kind of other girl you come a tell me 'bout?
No, no, no, girl a you me love, you me love
Anuh words alone, mi actions speak loud...

I remember the song now. It was Jahmiel's, U Me Love.

Seems like I'm losing you, that's how me feel
But when me say, "me love you", girl, just know it's real
No, me no perfect, for you I try to be
You were my future, girl, I wish my eyes could see
Everything you do, it affects me
So when we're no good, I feel so empty
In so many ways Jah Jah bless me
It's not the same without you next to me

When I came to stand by the table I was lost in the words of the song and the message it conveyed.

The voices singing the lyrics word for word cloak me further in my cacoon of emotions. My heart raced in my chest as I briefly take in couples locked in tight embraces riddled with feelings that epitomized my one true desire...

I wanted this to be real.

Girl, a you me love, no other catty me no prefer
Tell her me nah go leave and she said, "Great Man, whatever"
She say me done make it and so much girl waan give me pleasure
But so much means nothing, if me nuh have you girl, me suffer
'Cause girl a you me love, you me love
What kind of other girl you come a tell me 'bout?

No, no, no, girl a you me love, you me loveAnuh words alone, mi actions speak loud

Could I believe in what was unfolding? Was this Medz putting on a grand show giving the patrons something to talk about when they leave and the media reporters content to blab about as they give Altitude a grade A report?

Well one thing was for sure tonight Medz showcased himself but who I wanted was Maleek Fenton.

You're my everything, everything I need...

As the song fades out I took my drink from the table and as I let my eyes find his I raise it in salute to him as the patrons erupted in whistles and cheers.

Medz was the guy who would have been a convenience, another lover with no strings attached policy as I wait for time to bring the man I love back to me.

However, life recreated a different outcome by playing its trump card and now I was indeed with the man I love but it was clear to see that there are still secrets like dark clouds hanging low to pitch the perfect storm.

Mama's voice rang out in my head.

"God know ebryting e a duh. Nothing nuh hapn by chance its jus fi wi fi open wi eye an look n c fi wi self wah a him purpose."

I knew deep down this was true but I could not help but wonder if this secret of Medz being married was life actually showing me that Medz was not the man for me.

Did I make a rash act cause my heart to lose out on love again?

My heart flipped nervously in my chest as I try to grasp answers. I will myself to find solace in the fact that he was not the type of person to be callous and I would trust God's purpose.

But my willpower failed to stand strong for like the straws that made the second little pig's house it went crumbling down as I saw the woman by his side pull him to her and claim his lips passionately.

I was surprised my feet took me toward the staircase and that I even made it to the bottom without falling to my face.

Yuh gone run weh again?

What is the purpose of sticking around eeh? Whatever it is I am not going to be made a fool of and besides a walk mi a walk.

I argued to myself hating that I was always going in the opposite direction of my heart's desire.

I was well on my way to putting on a full performance in arguing with myself when I felt my hand being grasped.

With eyes fuming and my lips ready to unleash my fury I stop then turn to face the person that had gripped my arm pulling me close and stopping my retreat.

My mouth stood agape as I gasped.

"Odean?!"

"Hey Peggy, a wah hapn?" the concern in his voice mimicked the expression on his face as he looked at me.

What was he doing here?

My eyes feasted on him as it traveled over his impressive bearded face, across the wide expanse of his chest showing beneath the v created by his partially gold and black patterned shirt, then down to well-defined thighs and legs in fitted black knee-ripped jeans but before I could take in more he looked pass me and I automatically turn to follow his gaze.

I pull from his grasp and moved away. I need to get out of here.

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