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Medz wrapped his arms around me as I turn into his arms. My mind replayed over and over the look on OD's face and my body shivered as I remembered how those dark eyes burn into me with a look I was scared to put meaning to because then I would be left with wishful thinking and wasteful longing for things that were out of my reach.

I tried my best to pretend that my sudden need to find solace in his arms was due to me suddenly being overwhelmed by all the attention I was getting from the show of my whining and twerking prowess.

I was never really an individual who was keen on being the center of attention but seeing OD and his new conquest had me putting caution to the wind and blowing down my sensibilities.

What the fuck mi jus duh?

Make a complete ass a yuh self.

Shut the fuck up!

"Yuh seh something babes?"

I look up at Medz and shook my head at his question and then quickly added. "I need to pee, mi soon come back."

What I really needed was to clear my head. I best get some space between me and the drama that I had created so unintentionally. All I wanted was to get Odean out of my system, to clear away the feelings he still evoked in me but somehow I allowed myself to be caught up further.

I felt Medz's hold on me reluctantly loosen and I rush to the entrance of the lawn with Kronazz switching over to another selector who started his run with some 90 Dancehall mix which sent my emotions reeling and it resulted in a vivid memory surfacing to push me further over the precipice of longing.

As the smooth sound of Wayne Wonder washes over me my mind reels me back to my ever first High School BarBQue with nostalgic memories.

Flashback starts ⁂
That late Thursday afternoon when I had walked through the gates of Walter Mont High excited to be my own person as I was getting my chance to dominate my teenage independence, I had no idea my life would forever change.

Petrice was with her friends and I was hanging with a little crew. The day was just fun and fooling around until I got a note from an upper school boy saying someone wanted to meet me in the disco hall. I read the note twice and then threw it over my shoulder as the girls came back from using the bathroom.

"Hey, Pat wi a guh try out the disco before them start the Fashion Show as yuh know wi cyaah tan too long," Andrene had said moving down the corridor. "Carol done tell mi fi mek sure mi, Petrice, yuh an Sheila fine wi yawd by six."

It was a pity six o'clock was still a few hours away because knowing some guy was preeing me was scaring the shit out of me. I was afraid to go to the disco out of fear that I was going to come face to face with whoever sent the note but I did not want the girls to start saying I was lame.

They did after all make me tag along when Pertrice ask them to let me stay with them so that she could hang with her upper school friends.

I followed behind them and tried not to focus on who this guy could be or how the hell was I gonna handle the situation. Everyone had a guy and I knew deep down they were not going to the disco to stand watch.

Mi shudda did tan a mi yaad.

After we were admitted that thought kept with me. It circulated in my head the minute we walked into the darkened auditorium with its red and blue disco balls swirling. There were little groups here and there and a few brave hearts were on the dance floor.

I looked around trying to see if I could find the guy that gave me the note, maybe seeing him could let me know who was the mastermind of the disco rendezvous but all I saw were bodies that seem to be coupled up and groups clustering here and there.

We found a little less populated corner and form a group but as soon as the mellow voice of Wayne Wonder came on my friends got a little closer to their guys and I stood there like a sore thumb.

I lean against the wall contemplating if I should text Pet telling her I wanted to go home. I was just not cut out for being the odd one out and I did not want to feel like some unwanted baggage. I frown as Wayne Wonder gave way to Tonto Metro and Devonte Everyone Falls In Love Sometimes and my friends and their guys got a little closer.

I bit my lower lip and look away from them only to see a figure approach me and a voice said close to my ear a few seconds later.

"Yuh look lonely care if mi kip yuh company?"

"She's waiting on me," a deep voice responded and I stood there my mouth gaping as I look at the two figures like a gaping fish.

In the rotating red and blue lights, I saw Odean Davis my somewhat next-door neighbor, by somewhat I meant he was mostly by his Uncle Rella's house than he was by his grandmother's that lived a few houses from ours.

I let my eyes which were now accustomed to the dimness of the disco hall roam over his tall figure. He was clad in black Timberland sweats pants with a brown t-shirt that had a dark brown Timberland logo stitched on it and on his feet were Timberland Est 1973 boots.

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I visibly swallowed as I came back to the present.
Flashback ends ⁂

There he was wearing that same dark glare on his face as he had as he looked at the retreating guy in the disco. It mimics the one he now displayed as his dark magnetic eyes watched Medz and me.

What was it about Odean's dark eyes that made it so easy to lose myself?

It was not cold but I shivered as the memories of the past engulf me as I slipped out of the lawn and walk across the road to a darkened yard that offered the much-needed privacy I would require to relieve myself.

I hurriedly make it to a huge discarded figure of an old haulage truck frowning now about having to take my romper down to urinate. I was pulling it down and making to stoop when I heard someone giggle and another voice said.

"Yuh too damn lie!"

I did not let it stop me as it seems as if others came to relieve themselves too.

"Moof a jealous yuh jealous seh mi get fi gi OD wah yuh wudda did waah gi him," a familiar voice replied then giggle again.

"Gyal a tru seh e cocky big?" A curious voice asked tinged with a bit of malice.

"Ahh long!" The voice returned with delightful confirmation. "Gyal mi seh mi gag pan e bout a million time but mi wul my own."

"Raayyy yuh duty Gyal yuh,"

Wild laughter with a tone of grudging admiration followed the reply.

I did not know why I just stoop there listening to them when I was through or why my heart hurt the way it did. I should dry myself, fix my clothes and leave but like a paralysed fool I was stuck in my stance with another thought in my mind.

Did he really make carefree Goodaz go down on him? Those girls were Choppas' bitches and mattresses. They were contented with giving it up for the coil of the scammers than seeking a nine to five.

I only hope he put on a fucking condom when he let her suck him off as that gyal mouth goodly has a STI.

What the hell was I even thinking about? Why the fuck was I getting riled up over Odean's sexual exploits? No, I need to get out of here.

The Odean that had spent hours pulling me under his spell in a darkened disco hall at my High School BarBQue was no longer around. The guy I fell in love with at sixteen was gone.

No longer will I feel his arms around me as they had done on that night on L.U.S.T Inspiration in the disco hall or the many other occasions that love had placed me there.

Fuck it still hurt like it was just yesterday and not almost nine years ago life had put an end to what love had offered me.

I pulled myself together and left in the opposite direction of the truck. I did not care to see Goodaz because something was burning inside of me that was bordering on my being reckless.

I best go home before I do something foolish over a man that was not mine, and speaking about man maybe it was due time I give Medz what he was seeking.

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