🌸ڿڰۣ-P̠O̠V̠ P̠a̠t̠r̠i̠c̠e̠

My heart did a variety of somersaults the minute I saw OD walk up the path. It already was doing some crazy palpitations in my chest the minute Odean told me he was on his way here. Mixed with all that had happened between Medz and me I swear I was seconds away from a heart attack.

OD's dark eyes stared at Medz and I joint hands as he continued up to us and from the distance that separates us I can feel the tension that emits from him. I was sure if he was a Marvel character the whole flipping district would be up in flames and left in shambles.

I had no idea why I gripped Medz's hand or why I made him stay when he had taken me home. Well actually I knew the reason, it was a compilation of what we shared earlier at his place and the fact that I had stupidly run headlong into creating a situation that now had me between a rock and a hard place.

What I felt when the realisation that OD had lost his grandmother and I was busy getting hot and heavy with Medz had me wanting to shield myself from the guilt that I had betrayed my feelings and desires out of being hasty and yes spiteful.

I felt Medz's hand tighten possessively about mine and I look at him with a sorry excuse for a smile. I should not have gotten him caught up in this.

My purpose to give Deenie the life that was robbed from her was thrown further away because I was selfish and inconsiderate to both Medz and my one true love.

Coo yah!? Please no madam, none a dat. Pull up fi mi please. When yuh did pan Medz kitchen counter a moan and groan yuh did have one tru love alright and it wasn't OD.

I groaned inwardly. I was not prepared to mentally tackle the inner demon that seem content to drive me crazy with her chiding.

I dipped my head and look away from him. I did not want him to read into what had transpired between Medz and I. The same look he wore when he saw me dancing on Medz last night was plastered on his face masking his attractive features into a frightful scowl. It was a mixture of annoyance and dislike and I realise it was mostly directed at Medz. I did not want him directing the same to me.

What was it about his dislike for Medz? I was sure they did not share any history to build any grievances. Odean has been away for years and Medz though familiar with a few persons around did not share the same circle as Odean.

It did not cross my mind that I was the cause. I was too caught up in finding every reason why his presence here this evening was going to bring Mama and I Pet down on my head like a judge's grovel.

I stood there nervous.

All the reasons why I should have just ensured that I responded to him when I saw his many missed calls when I retrieve my phone from the passenger seat of Medz's car where I had left it out of my stupid pent-up feelings of being upset with him, for what I believe was him being neglectful rang out like a bell in my head.

I wanted him to know that I was not going to sit around waiting for him to disrupt my so called life.

He came and stand a few feet away from us his stance manly and territorial. His gaze was still fixed on Medz. I discreetly search his face but it showed no signs of sadness or grief, I was not sure what I saw there or what I was hoping to see.

All I knew he was a sight standing there a far cry from the young lanky youth that wore nothing but big basketball shorts and tshirt as he carried around his constant companion a basketball he had won at a summer camp program in grade seven.

I wondered if I was standing infront of him alone and not holding onto Medz for dear life if he would have pulled me against his now muscular manly frame clad in a simple white tee, light blue ripped jeans, white Reboks and a light brown fedora and tell me that finally there was nothing standing between us.

Mi rass, Pat yuh serious enuh! Yuh nuh c waah stand between yuh an him. Mek mi point it out. Yuh wul on pan him han an two a dem inna d house behind yuh right now.

Is it possible to kill your inner voice? I was ready to murder mine.

I however best face reality. I made a mess by being hasty and overthinking a situation that now going to be hard to clear up. I had sex with Medz and I was surprised to know that I felt no regret about it. I was not sure where my feelings lie at the moment as part of me now wanted to hold on to Medz while the other part still craved for OD.

I needed to sort out what was happening. I need to to be alone and clear my head and do some real self-searching to find what I truly wanted and who was best to provide me with it.

I was a coward to rush to Medz because he was the safest choice and would appease my family's outrage as they had no dislike for him because of a family feud stemming from a secret people were willing to die with.

I still cared for Odean and I was pretty sure he cared for me too. The daggers he glared at Maleek was not just him being outrageous. I had to get this over with before things blew out of proportion and by that I mean Mama and Petrice coming out to cast fire and brimstone upon Odean being here when they clearly stated I keep away from him.

I have to consider Maleek also, there was no way I should have gotten him involved in the drama that was unfolding. It was hard enough I was planning to sneak around to meet OD and now I placed him in the centre of it all by not just using him to spite OD but I went and had one of the sweetest sex in my adult life with him.

My body tingled at the thought and I cross my legs and took a deep breath to get myself back on track. I was beginning to get annoyed with myself and the situation I caused.

I planned to return home, shower and eat my spicy shrimp pasta in coconut sauce that sat on Medz's dashboard in a cover dish as I had been otherwise occupied to eat it, then I would in the quiet of the night lay in bed awake and try to clean up the mess I made.

My head was beginning to have that annoying throb at the temple that came along when I was tired and stressed.

"If yuh nuh mind mi need fi talk to mi baby madda," Odean said breaking the silence between us his voice however made it clear with his matteroffact tone that he did not care if the other man mattered.

I look up at him thinking that he purposely chose that title to send Medz a message. I was right in thinking he came with a territorial approach to me being here with Medz, he was stating that he had me first. He was sending a message to me as well.

I open my mouth to speak but the sound of the front door opening cause the words to die in my throat and my heart to sink in the pit of my belly buttom like a huge boulder.

Blouse n shirt a Mama or Pet that an dem a guh start world war three now!

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