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I walk into the restroom and gave a loud sigh.

What the hell was I doing?

Seems like yuh a get up in a yuh feelings fi Medz.

I groaned loudly as I push the door of an empty stall open, after locking it behind me I used a wet wipes to clean the seat and then proceed to urinate.

When had my life become so complex? My daughter, my family, my friends, my work and my non-attached love life suited me just fine until that one desire that I kept locked away came bursting from the deep confines of my heart when I saw OD in Clarkey's taxi.

I was well alright in just cruising through life living in the moment and going along with the flow. I just thought that life would have given me a heads up when it was going to pull the rug from under me so that I could have prepared for the fall.

It seems life had knocked me a little too hard because now all I could think about was being possibly pregnant for a man I was now so caught up in that I was turning into Miss Bitch.

Did I seriously behave like a jealous fool over Medz? I guess I was letting Debs rub off on me. Could I get any immature? I was a sensible adult with my head screwed tightly on my shoulders, not some lovesick fool who could not control my feelings.

When I flushed, fix my clothes and leave the stall to wash my hands I was not sure who I was that person anymore. I was now on a new journey constituted by me crossing the boundaries I vowed never to cross with Medz.

At one point I only knew I had to find out this big secret that fucked up my teenage life and continues to this very day to take precedence over it and the next I was head over heels tumbling down into an affair with a man that was not Odean Davis.

I also had to come to terms with wanting Medz in ways that I thought I would only want OD. I was here not because I was running from something but running to someone.

I stared in the mirror at my reflection looking to see what had changed in me. Where was the woman who had just days ago set out to push aside everything and everyone to get OD back and live the life denied to us?

Guess yuh lef ar pan Medz dining table.

I swore out loud telling my inner voice to 'Fuck Off' just as a white woman got out of a stall her blue eyes staring enquiringly around before she stared at me and frowned.

I glowered at her. She moved to quickly wash her hands and yanking a few sheets of hand towel from the towel dispencer she fled from the restroom.

Hissing my teeth I wash my hands and after wiping them on a few pieces of hand towel I left for the parking lot where Medz waited. I was starting to feel the tingling of a headache.

I was where I was because I choose to turn to Medz when I thought OD blew me off and the result of how I had handled the situation had me ripping to a million pieces when I thought I was going to lose Medz. After all, I callously pulled him into the middle with my selfish actions.

It was clear to see that Medz meant more to me than I have come to realize because it was overshadowed by so much pent up feelings.

That was why was I still here and not hightailing my ass back home to get answers, why I had not stick to the need I had of fighting all the odds and made my desires a reality.

I wanted to know the secret, but with feelings that were budding with the veracity of a volcano waiting to errupt that secret was now second place .

That night in Medz car when I was hell-bent on having sex with him because I wanted him to drive my need for OD out of me showed me one thing.

It was clear to me now that my sentiments were no longer clouded by OD and Goodaz rendezvous.

I was long since over OD. I was just holding on because I thought it was my duty to give to Deenie what I thought was robbed from her by the action of a bitter spiteful woman.

"Ready?" he asked as I got in the passenger seat close the door and buckled up.

Yes, I was ready. For the first time since losing OD, I was ready to see where life with another man could lead.

Now that I have come to realise a few truths I was no longer keen on running. I was ready to take all that Medz offered and I was ready to open up and let life charter the course of my destiny.

My barriers were gladly ready to tumble down and my heart wanted to break free.

I smiled at him and nod my head and my heart fluttered as my stomach danced with butterflies as his charming smile graced his lips and his eyes sparkled with something that I hope to spend a long, long time seeing directed at me.

"Maleek?"

"Yes, Patrice."

"I know why I'm here."

"Good," he said, "because this is the beginning of something that I plan to keep I won't be letting you go. There will be no more running."

I licked my lips nervously and for just a brief moment doubts raged in me and I wanted to find my running shoes and sprint away but instead, I reach for the hand that he had on the gear stick and squeeze it beneath mine.

"Ok."

"Let's go because mi madda nuh stop call a ask how far mi deh," he told me starting the car and pulling out of the parking lot.

"Mother?"

"Yeah thought since you would be tagging along with me I would make a little stop by my parents."

"Little stop? Just how little?"

"We're spending the night and most of the morning before we head on to Ochi," he said turning to look at me as if searching for any opposition to the matter.

"And who are you going to tell them I am?" I said trying to shake of my dread.

"My girlfriend of course," he said matter of factly, "mi tell them otherwise Mom goodly put mi an yuh in separate rooms."

"Oohh."

"Yeah, naah wait until mi reach Ochi before mi can get up inna yuh good up good up," he grinned.

I could not help but smile as I shook my head at him and rolled my eyes at him.

There was just something about this guy that made me want to be wild and reckless and the thought of being in the same bed with him was fixing me to head headlong into the depth of crazy and irrational.

My fear quickly slipped away because something told me Medz was the right person to let loose with. He already established exactly what it was that he wanted I was the one who was twisted up in the past to accept it but now that I was being untangled I was ready to let go and give in.

"So other than taking me here to get in my good up good up, what else is in store?"

He gave a chuckle which cause me to grin at him as I awaited his response.

"I have a few business engagements mostly at a few clubs and entertainment establishments in and around town. You're going to be my little social butterfly," he relates and I just shrug thinking it was more than likely to be a few nightclub events.

I was looking forward to what could happen on the North Coast and it has been a long time since I was made to let my hair down.

I nestled in the seat and stared out at the passing scenery before I turn my attention to Medz who was concentrating on the road. He wore a blue and gold Arsenal Jersey top with black jeans and a pair of black gold drip custom air max 90.

I like the fact that he still wore my beaded braids and one of those beaded braids rested over an eye and as he drove us to our destination the late evening cast a shadow over half of his face.

I felt my hand tighten on his where it still rested. I was extremely excited about what lay ahead but more than ever I was glad I was getting this opportunity to share my time with him on a much more intimate and rational level.

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