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There's an old saying that my Mom used to tell me when my sister and I lacked the motivation to do anything and all I wanted was for her to be here to yell at me. I was sitting in the room Aro had given me and all I did was stare at the red and black furniture. The room had a modern style to it despite the lack of windows it had. My legs were crossed underneath me as my hands held my baby bump and I was bored. I had only been here for a day and I was already bored.

I slept through the night peacefully, not one worry on my mind. But when I woke up, they all came flooding back. Every worry I tried to forget. Emmett, my sister, Dad, the pack, every ounce of guilt I had hit me all at once. I wanted to break down but I needed to stay strong for my unborn son, he needed one strong parent, since one was all he was going to have.

Glancing at my phone as it vibrated again, I could faintly see Bella's name flashing across the screen. Bella had been hounding me with text after text but she wasn't the only one. The pack got word of my leave of absence and their names were on the long list of callers. Everyone I was close to tried to contact me at least once, all except one. And I didn't know if I was relieved or upset, maybe both. But he made his choice and I made mine. He didn't want our son and I didn't want to be with someone who didn't love my child.

Two knocks against the door snapped me out of my thoughts and I didn't have the energy to get up and open it, so I just called out to them that the door was open. Jane strode into the room, Felix right behind her. She had a timid smile on her face, while Felix tried to offer me a kinder one.

"Aro and the brothers have requested your presence in the library." I nodded and stood to my feet, my black skirt billowing around my legs as I did so. I pulled the sleeves of my blue sweater over my hands and scurried along behind her as she lead the way. Felix trailed beside me but his posture was rigid, I caused some tension in the castle.

We didn't have to walk too far from my room before we stopped at a set of wooden double doors. Jane opened one side and motioned for me to go in. I hesitantly walked passed her through the doorway and saw Aro, Caius, and Marcus crowded around a table. Their heads snapped up as I entered the room and I felt the urge to run out of the room and hide away in a corner somewhere, but I had to suppress it. I stepped forwards and took a hesitant glance behind me but Jane had already left the room, only Felix stood by the door. I watched him close it and give me a curt nod before I slowly turned my gaze back to the three vampires clad in red robes.

"Clarissa dear, come sit." Aro gestured to a chair placed beside him and I took quiet steps towards the table. Once I reached him, he pulled out the wooden chair and I sat on it. I placed my shaky hands in my lap and stared up at him. He gave me a grin that had me reconsidering my urge to hide before sliding a thick book in front of me. The pages were yellowed as if the book was older than they were. The words were neatly written in black ink, the cursive letters drawing me in.

"What's this book for?" I asked aloud. I knew only Aro would answer me but with Caius and Marcus staring intensely at me, I tried to be courteous.

"The information you wish to know is in that book. It very well may answer all of your questions." Aro explained to me.

"But I thought that my son was a rarity?" I flipped the pages as my eyes scanned over the words.

"He is, but Caius remembered reading about an immortal child in our history and he says the answers should be in this book," Aro replied.

I looked up from my book and met Cauis' intense glare. I gave him a small polite smile and thanked him. His eyes blinked but didn't acknowledge me any further. My eyes flitted back to the book and I tried to ignore the stares I was getting. "Aro," I began. I looked up at him and he raised his eyebrows quizzically at me. "What if my child is something I can't handle?"

"You're referring to if it tries to kill you." The three vampires took seats at the table, Marcus and Caius seated across from me and Aro by my side. "Well, it shall be handled accordingly."

"What if it turns me? Will I be human when I give birth?"

"Read." An icy voice had me stop my rambling. Caius' voice surprised me. I never expected him to speak to me directly but his tone didn't suggest hatred. Just annoyance. "Read the book, you'll get your answers." He stood to his feet and left the table without another word. I could hear the library doors close as he exited and I turned to see Marcus standing as well.

"Okay." I nodded. "I think I'll stay here a bit and read it." Aro nodded, clearly pleased, and proceeded to leave with Marcus trailing behind him. I watched them leave with an anxious gaze, my eyes drifting over Felix when I realized they had left me alone with him.

"I'm guessing you assumed you couldn't get pregnant," Felix spoke up. He stepped closer to me and stood beside the table.

"A vampire isn't technically alive, who knew a dead thing could impregnate someone." I snorted. I realized it sounded worse when I said it out loud but Felix chuckled and took no offense.

"Yeah, who knew." He took a seat across from me and even sitting, he was still so much taller than me. He looked down at me as he chuckled and I cursed myself for being so small. "So you're a cliché now. I mean, a pregnant teenager with an absent ex-boyfriend."

"They should base a tv show off of me." I scoffed. "I never thought this could happen. Not that I regret it, I just wasn't prepared for it."

"So you two never discussed kids?" He rose an eyebrow and he reminded me of Dominic for a moment.

"We have but because I'm so young, we agreed to wait to start a family. And we agreed we'd adopt when we decided we were ready. But I guess you can't plan your future." I shrugged and closed the book in front of me. "And to make matters worse, we're not even a complete family."

"Do you miss him?" He asked and I found myself nodding. I did miss him. More than anything.

"Everyday." I sighed.

"Felix, what have I told you about making girls cry?" A new voice echoed around us and we both turned to see Demetri walking toward us. "Plus, Master Aro has requested that we keep her focus on the child, not him." Felix nodded and gave me an apologetic smile. "Now Clary, shouldn't you be reading?"

"And shouldn't you two be working?" A softer voice called out. The three of us looked up and saw Jane and Alec standing on a terrace that overlooked the library. "What would Master Aro say if he found you two bothering her?"

"Well considering he's not around right now, who cares?" Felix spoke confidently.

"Let them enjoy their time sister, the girl doesn't seem to mind." Alec's voice rang out and I gulped nervously as he smirked at me.

"I was actually about to go back to my room anyways." I stood up and picked up the book, clutching it in my hands tightly. "Thank you for keeping me company Felix. You too Demetri." I gave them kind smiles and silently walked away from them. I exited the library and let out the breath I had been holding.

"They can be a lot to handle." I jumped at the sound of the deep voice. A tall man with blond hair and a prominent British accent walked over to me. He gazed down at me and his eyes seemed to soften. "They don't seem like it, but they were all changed at a young age. So they don't get to interact with many young people these days."

"Oh no, they're fine. I'm just tired." I tried to assure him but he only chuckled. "Well, excuse me." I tried to step around him but he followed my movements.

"Let me escort you back to your room." His accent rang clear through his words and I resisted the urge to swoon over it. I didn't decline his request and he silently followed me to my assigned room. We stopped as we reached the door to my room and he sent me a small amused smirk as I turned to face him.

"Thank you," I spoke softly and a small smile adorned my face.

"You're welcome." He lifted my hand and placed a small kiss on my knuckles. He let my hand go and I pushed my door open, slammed it closed, and sighed heavily. I tossed myself onto the bed and stared at the ceiling, a million thoughts rambling through my head.

"What the heck is happening right now?" I mumbled to myself. "What is going on?" I let out another sigh and turned over, burying my face in the pillows, ready to forget about everything, again.