this photo actually hurts??

i love them so much

someone send hELP

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Ashton was coming to visit Calum today. It was about a week after their phone call, the one in which they exchanged their first I love you's.

It was sort of sudden, and it hadn't been very long since they saw each other last, but those three words are important in a relationship and they felt the need to see each other.

Ashton had trouble sleeping the night before. Truthfully, he had trouble sleeping most nights when Calum wasn't with him. But this went beyond loneliness and being touch craved. He felt himself grow increasingly sadder as the days went on, but he was going to see Calum, and he hoped that would make everything better.

Calum always made everything better. His smile was the only medicine that Ashton needed.

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astroash: we just landed baby

caluminthehood: okay
caluminthehood: i'm nervous

astroash: why darling?

caluminthehood: i just feel like i'm gonna screw something up 'cause it's so different,,,,

astroash: everything is the same, except this time i can tell you that i love you

caluminthehood: i know but what if i fuck something up

astroash: how could you fuck anything up?
astroash: i'm so in love with you and nothing can change that
astroash: i promise

caluminthehood: i'm in love with you too ashy
caluminthehood: i guess you're right
caluminthehood: i'll see you soon 💗

astroash: see you soon angel 💗

[ caluminthehood is offline ]

[ astroash is offline ]

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Calum was immensely excited to see Ashton. In his opinion, it had been way too long since he'd been in the older lads arms, but he knew he was being clingy.
Maybe Ashton wasn't as excited to see him, and maybe Ashton wasn't excited at all. Calum didn't care. He was excited to see Ashton, and that was all that mattered.

Short minutes later, Calum was still patiently waiting for his love, but there was so many people that he was having trouble seeing anything. He felt a sudden rush of anxiety. He would feel so stupid if he couldn't find Ashton. Ashton would laugh at him for sure. That would be such a horrible feeling.

It was an irrational fear, but a fear nonetheless. Calum bit his lip and stared out into the crowd of now separating people. He still couldn't see Ashton.
Suddenly, he felt a pair of arms go around his waist and a voice in his ear whispering, "I've missed you, baby boy."

He recognized that voice. He recognized this feeling.

"Ashton!" He squeaked and spun around, smiling so wide that he wondered how his face didn't hurt.

Ashton returned the boy's smile and tightened his arms around him.
Calum threw his arms around Ashton's neck. Before either had the opportunity to speak again, their lips were connected.
This kiss didn't hold as much innocence as the others. This one was much more passionate, and a tad more eager.

Ashton's hands stayed around Calum's waist, and he fought the urge to move them lower. Calum tangled his fingers in Ashton's fiery locks, tugging gently as he used every bit of strength in his body to press against Ashton's.

It simply didn't matter that anyone could see them. They only needed each other.
But eventually, they did need air, and Calum was first to pull away.

"I love you." He softly mumbled, smile reappearing and heartbeat increasing.

"I love you more." Ashton replied, bumping their noses together but not letting their lips touch.

"I don't think so." Calum bit his lip. "Not possible."

Ashton wanted nothing more than to show Calum just how much he loved him, right then and there.

And Calum wanted the exact same thing. But they knew it couldn't happen. At least not that very moment.
This was the first time they'd spoken those words to one another in person, and although it wasn't as special as the first first time, it still meant so much.

"Are you ready to go, angel?"

Calum vigorously nodded his head. "Please."

"Someone's excited." Ashton mumbled with a smirk.

"Yeah." Calum replied, blushing a rosy pink.

Ashton quickly intertwined their fingers, then brought Calum's hand to his lips. "Let's go."

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Calum swiftly pressed Ashton's back against the door of his apartment. His lips immediately attacked the older lads neck and his hands tugged gently on Ashton's hair.

Ashton's hands quickly found the boys hips, firmly holding their bodies together. Calum's lips glided effortlessly along Ashton's tan skin, and when he heard him let out a shaky breath, he started sucking new bruises into his neck.
Calum knew that Ashton was his, but everyone else needed to know, too.

The tanned lads hot breath fanned over Ashton's neck as he whispered, "I love you so fucking much."

And then he was creating more marks and pulling roughly on Ashton's hair.

"I love y-you too, Callie." Ashton muttered softly, hands holding almost bruisingly tight to Calum's waist. "You know I'm yours, right?"

Calum's teeth grazed over Ashton's neck, "Mine."

In a split second, Ashton spun them around and pinned Calum's back to the door. He then quickly locked their lips together, leading Calum in an eager, passionate kiss.
When Calum whined softly, Ashton smirked against his love's lips and held their bodies flush together. One of his hands quickly found its way to Calum's neck, and upon hearing another whimper fall from the boys lips, the older lad began to grind their lower halves together.

Ashton's hips slowly rolled into his angel's, causing Calum to squeal and copy the movement, their bodies moving perfectly, slowly and tauntingly in sync. Calum loved being dominated by Ashton. Truthfully, he would have fallen to his knees right then and there if Ashton asked him to. Hell, Ashton didn't even have to ask, Calum would've voluntarily become Ashton's personal sex-toy.

Of course he loved everything about Ashton. He was sweet, loyal, passionate and supportive of everything Calum did. His eyes were absolutely stunning, and his smile could light up the night. Calum could go on forever about how perfect Ashton was, and how he didn't deserve him.

Calum loved submitting to Ashton; giving up all control and letting Ashton use him for whatever he wanted, whatever he needed, whenever he needed it. And he knew that Ashton loved having complete and total control over the younger lad, because there was a great amount of trust between them. They never did anything unless both of them wanted it; nothing was ever forced or pressured onto the other.

It was also really wonderful that they both enjoyed the same things in the bedroom or wherever they happened to be. Sometimes it was a restaurant, other times it was a coffee shop. Sometimes it was the kitchen counter, the dining table, the couch or the shower. Wherever they were when they needed each other, and however they needed each other, they always wanted the same thing.

Again, Calum could go on about this forever, but in this moment, all he could think about was Ashton's body against his. How perfectly Ashton's lips and tongue felt with his own; how although it was a more sexual act, it still portrayed their deep love for one another. How even though Ashton knew that Calum liked to be hurt, he wouldn't truly try to hurt him.

Calum once again pulled harshly on Ashton's hair, rough enough that it made their lips part. While the red-haired man tried to catch his breath, Calum gave a final peck to his lips, then allowed his mouth to travel down Ashton's chin, then his neck. He stopped when he reached his adam's apple, sucking gently and feeling the older lad swallow impatiently.

Calum moved his lips to Ashton's ear, muttering a whiney, "Please, daddy."

Ashton's stomach flipped, his heartbeat sped up and he let out a throaty growl.

"Please what?" He taunted. His hips had not stopped moving; neither had Calum's.

"I need you, can we please go inside?"

Ashton let Calum pull away and lock their eyes together. Calum's dark chocolate orbs were desperate; Ashton's forest-like hazel ones were wild, hungry. He kissed him once more, eagerly, like he'd never get the chance to again. Calum whimpered a small "please," against Ashton's lips and pulled away. Ashton placed his lips on Calum's collarbone, allowing his angel to take a breath.

Calum steadied his breathing after a couple moments, but let out another whimper.

"Talk to me, baby." Ashton murmured against Calum's tan skin. "Tell me what you're thinking."

"Wanna go inside..." Calum whispered, burying his face in Ashton's hair. "Wanna continue-"

Ashton lifted his face from Calum's neck, smiling sheepishly, almost embarrassed,  "I'm sorry. I just missed you."

"Don't apologize." Calum gave him a soft kiss. "I missed you too."

Ashton released his hips, allowing Calum to fish out his keys to unlock the door.

"There's someone I'd like you to meet." Calum mumbled, hand grabbing the doorknob.

Ashton smiled, quirking an eyebrow.
Calum pushed open the door, and immediately, Duke was at his feet, barking.
Ashton instantly sunk to his knees, allowing Duke to climb all over his lap and sniff at his face.

"Hello, my prince." Ashton cooed, cupping Duke's face.

"I thought I was your prince." Calum mumbled, fighting the urge to smile.

"No. You're my king."

Calum blushed and hid his face behind his hands. Ashton stood up, reaching to pull Calum's hands away. "Don't cover that beautiful face of yours."

Calum continued blushing, now biting at his lip. Ashton's fingers started to trace gentle patterns on the back of Calum's hands.

"We should go inside now, my love." Calum murmured gently.

"Okay." Ashton agreed, the loving smile remaining on his face. He would be lying if he said that he wasn't still sad, but being with Calum made that better, even if only temporarily.

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this was all over the place, and i'm sorry

i'm giving you lots of fluff in the next few chapters to make up for what's gonna happen afterwards

excuse any mistakes

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