{ big ass trigger warning - suicide, self harm }

nickel: hey ashy
nickel: how are you doing babe

astroash: fuck off
astroash: i hate you

nickel: you used to love me
nickel: what happened?

astroash: you changed
astroash: or maybe i just finally saw who you really were
astroash: but i'd like you to fuck off

nickel: no thanks
nickel: i wanna talk
nickel: tell me how you've been babe

[ astroash left the chat ]

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astroash: hey calum
astroash: can i ask you something?

[ caluminthehood is online ]

caluminthehood: oh fuck
caluminthehood: did i do something wrong?

astroash: of course not love
astroash: you're perfect as always

caluminthehood: :0 thank god
caluminthehood: what is it?
caluminthehood: are you okay?

astroash: not exactly
astroash: nick texted me

caluminthehood: you want me to make him piss off?

astroash: please

caluminthehood: of course ash
caluminthehood: anything for you
caluminthehood: whats his user?

astroash: thank you baby
astroash: i appreciate you

caluminthehood: 😇😇

[ astroash sent a profile ]

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caluminthehood: so a certain ashton told me that you're bothering him
caluminthehood: i'd appreciate if you would fuck off thanks
caluminthehood: he hates you, you did a good job making sure of that
caluminthehood: he's mine

nickel: he's not yours
nickel: and he will never be

caluminthehood: he already is you asshole

nickel: part of him will always belong to me
nickel: you can't change that
nickel: no matter how hard you try

caluminthehood: i know that you meant a lot to him, but he's over you
caluminthehood: you hurt him a shit ton
caluminthehood: and he's tired of it

nickel: he still calls me y'know
nickel: late at night, when he can't sleep
nickel: still calls me over for a good fuck

caluminthehood: mhm
caluminthehood: do you have proof?

nickel: don't you trust me?

caluminthehood: not in the slightest

nickel: ash is such a good bottom
nickel: he's so loud & submissive
nickel: takes me so well

caluminthehood: i would roast you but i've been told not to burn trash
caluminthehood: so
caluminthehood:

nickel: what?

caluminthehood: turn it upside down dumbass

nickel: fuck you

caluminthehood: i'm gonna leave now

nickel: you do that
nickel: go right back to his lying cheating ass

[ caluminthehood left the chat ]

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caluminthehood: so he's an asshole
caluminthehood: i'm never texting him again

astroash: what did he say

caluminthehood: well i understand why you hate him
caluminthehood: [ attachment: 3 images ]

astroash: son of a bitch
astroash: he's such a fucking liar

caluminthehood: hm
caluminthehood: why does no one want this relationship to work?

astroash: i want this relationship to work

caluminthehood: so do i ash
caluminthehood: so badly
caluminthehood: but no one else does

astroash: why does their opinion matter?

caluminthehood: i don't know

astroash: it doesn't

caluminthehood: i know, but i don't want people to hate our relationship
caluminthehood: i cant deal with more hate from people around me because i'm not dating who i'm expected to
caluminthehood: and as much as i deny it, i care what people think of me

astroash: no one hates you baby

caluminthehood: i hate me

astroash: you shouldn't
astroash: you're perfect
astroash: and i hate seeing you like this
astroash: you don't deserve to feel like shit
astroash: you shouldn't hate yourself because no one hates you
astroash: you hate luke, but he's still trying to be apart of your life again
astroash: you only met me 3 months ago
astroash: and what i feel for you is far from hate

caluminthehood: thank you 💕
caluminthehood: but compliments and sweet words, no matter how many, aren't going to make 10 years of sleep-deprivation, suicidal tendencies and hatred go away just like that

astroash: i know
astroash: but it helps, right?

caluminthehood: yes
caluminthehood: i think it's mostly you that helps

astroash: then i'm going to keep doing it

caluminthehood: okay

astroash: if it's fine with you

caluminthehood: yeah
caluminthehood: it's good

astroash: good

caluminthehood: i'm sorry that i'm such a fuck up
caluminthehood: you shouldn't have to deal with me
caluminthehood: sometimes i just want it all to stop

astroash: hey
astroash: don't think like that cal
astroash: you're allowed to be upset, but that's why i'm here
astroash: you can tell me anything
astroash: i just don't want you to hurt

caluminthehood: i'll be okay
caluminthehood: there's been better days
caluminthehood: but there's also been worse
caluminthehood: and i haven't cut in a while
caluminthehood: so thank you

astroash: don't thank me love
astroash: it's my job to help you

caluminthehood: it's not your job to help me
caluminthehood: your job is to make me happy
caluminthehood: which you are already amazing at

astroash: and you make me happy

caluminthehood: i should hope so
caluminthehood: otherwise the only reason i'm alive is for this stupid dog that i love very much but is refusing to get off of me

astroash: just push him off

caluminthehood: you must've misread
caluminthehood: stupid dog that i love very much
caluminthehood: if i push him off of me, he'll hate me and i can't have my doggo hate me too

astroash: he won't hate you

caluminthehood: yes he will
caluminthehood: and this dog is the only thing i have left

astroash: what the fuck am i?
astroash: chopped liver?

caluminthehood: you're a person not a thing

astroash: the dog isn't a thing either

caluminthehood: fuck i just can't please you

astroash: yeah you can
astroash: quite well actually

caluminthehood: 😡😡😡

astroash: what?
astroash: i can't say that?

caluminthehood: not right now
caluminthehood: i was trying to be sad
caluminthehood: why won't you let me

astroash: cause you're my baby and i care about you and it makes me upset when you're upset

caluminthehood: why tho
caluminthehood: why can't you let me be sad

astroash: because it's a waste of time
astroash: everyone gets sad, but you can't let it take control

caluminthehood: you can't stop me y'know

astroash: i know

caluminthehood: i could go kill myself right now
caluminthehood: and you couldn't do anything

astroash: i'd be really fucking sad
astroash: i hope you don't

caluminthehood: hm
caluminthehood: did you watch 13 reasons why

astroash: yes

caluminthehood: it's really inaccurate
caluminthehood: that's not how you kill yourself
caluminthehood: she just slit her wrists and died peacefully in the bathtub
caluminthehood: bitch didn't even cry

astroash: yeah

caluminthehood: i suppose that some bad shit happened, but i don't think that the way she killed herself was in any way accurate to how it's actually done

astroash: i understand
astroash: and i don't think that it was fair to blame everyone else for what happened to her

caluminthehood: mhm
caluminthehood: FUCK 13 reasons why

astroash: FUCK 13 reasons why

caluminthehood: i think i'm gonna go,,,,
caluminthehood: take a nap

astroash: okay

caluminthehood: don't you judge me
caluminthehood: mr murderer

astroash: i'm not judging

caluminthehood: yeah you are
caluminthehood: thinkin i'm weird for takin a nap

astroash: that's not weird
astroash: i nap all the time

caluminthehood: goodbye mr assassin
caluminthehood: hitman

astroash: sleep well my love
astroash: and i'm not an assassin or a hitman

caluminthehood: do you prefer plain old murderer
caluminthehood: criminal
caluminthehood: idk

astroash: go to bed angel

caluminthehood: alright

[ caluminthehood is offline ]

[ astroash is offline ]

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sorry if any of the 13 reasons why shit is incorrect

it's been a long time since i watched that show

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