caluminthehood: T W O
caluminthehood: D A Y SSS

astroash: someone's excited

caluminthehood: yesterday
caluminthehood: this was how YOU were acting
caluminthehood: and why the fuck do you keep changing your name

astroash: cause i can
astroash: try and stop me

caluminthehood: in two days i'll be able to

astroash: i think you might be distracted

caluminthehood: by what

astroash: i don't know...
astroash: do you still wanna come on a job with me?

caluminthehood: yes

astroash: and you still wanna meet Harry?

caluminthehood: he sounds terrifying
caluminthehood: so yes

astroash: i can bring you to meet him when we go on a job
astroash: sound good?

caluminthehood: yes
caluminthehood: wait
caluminthehood: i need to text somebody
caluminthehood: gimme a second

[ caluminthehood left the chat ]

astroash: okay then
astroash: bye

[ astroash left the chat ]

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caluminthehood: luke
caluminthehood: i request your attention

hemmotional: i thought you hated me

caluminthehood: i definitely do
caluminthehood: but i need someone to watch duke when i go see ashton
caluminthehood: so please

hemmotional: you seem really seriously in love with this ashton character

caluminthehood: will you shut the fuck up
caluminthehood: i'm not in love with him

hemmotional: oh okay
hemmotional: *whispers* cashton ftw

caluminthehood: seriously
caluminthehood: will you please just watch my baby for me

hemmotional: fine
hemmotional: i'll take care of your "baby"
hemmotional: but i want something in return

caluminthehood: i really do hate you
caluminthehood: i'm not sucking you off or anything like that so don't even think about it

hemmotional: gross
hemmotional: i don't even wanna KNOW why that idea was in your head

caluminthehood: i don't ever have any ideas that aren't sexual
caluminthehood: sorry?

hemmotional: i want you to-
hemmotional: actually i don't know
hemmotional: wait
hemmotional: yes i do
hemmotional: get me some nudes

caluminthehood: from who??

hemmotional: i don't know
hemmotional: ashton

caluminthehood: what the fuck mate
caluminthehood: you can't have those
caluminthehood: and you can't have ashton
caluminthehood: he's mine
caluminthehood: you can't have every person i like
caluminthehood: i know it's a hobby of yours
caluminthehood: stealing my happiness
caluminthehood: but you can't have him

hemmotional: i don't want ashton
hemmotional: i 👏🏼
hemmotional: want 👏🏼
hemmotional: his 👏🏼
hemmotional: nudes 👏🏼

caluminthehood: you cannot have them

hemmotional: i'll just go ask him for them

caluminthehood: he will kill you

hemmotional: no he won't
hemmotional: cause i'm gorgeous

caluminthehood: i can find someone else to watch my dog y'know
caluminthehood: i don't need anymore of this bullshit from you

hemmotional: what bullshit

caluminthehood: the "i'm too pretty for consequences" bullshit
caluminthehood: the "i can have whatever the hell i want" bullshit
caluminthehood: or maybe it's because you're under the impression that you're better than everybody else, but whatever it is, no one cares
caluminthehood: it really hurt me when you had sex with jaden
caluminthehood: even though they didn't show an interest in me while we were in public, we still had some sort of bond
caluminthehood: a bond that went right down the fucking drain when you stomped all over it "just because you could"
caluminthehood: i know that you probably don't have a reason, but i wanna know why you did it

hemmotional: i cant tell you

caluminthehood: why not?

hemmotional: you'll hate me

caluminthehood: we're already there luke
caluminthehood: tell me why the fuck you did it

hemmotional: calum
hemmotional: i didn't do anything

caluminthehood: you're a liar now too?

hemmotional: will you let me explain?

caluminthehood: go ahead
caluminthehood: doesn't mean i'll believe you

hemmotional: okay
hemmotional: i know how bad jaden was for you
hemmotional: they never spent any time with you
hemmotional: and when they did, it was behind closed doors
hemmotional: for some reason, they were ashamed of you

caluminthehood: wow thanks i feel so much better now

hemmotional: i don't know why they didn't like public affection, but i knew how bad you felt around them
hemmotional: being ignored and mistreated
hemmotional: you deserved better
hemmotional: so i had to do something to get rid of them
hemmotional: and i knew that you loved them, but they didn't seem to love you
hemmotional: i made it seem like i slept with them so that they'd be out of your life
hemmotional: so that they couldn't hurt you
hemmotional: i knew that you'd hate me
hemmotional: but i'd rather you hate me than yourself

caluminthehood: nice try but i still hate myself
caluminthehood: how long did you practice that for?

hemmotional: it's the truth cal

caluminthehood: right
caluminthehood: and years later you're telling me this because?

hemmotional: because you asked
hemmotional: and i thought you needed to know the truth

caluminthehood: and you thought that letting me believe a lie for the last 5 years of my life was better?
caluminthehood: that didn't help at all
caluminthehood: i've tried to kill myself over this luke
caluminthehood: and many other (yet similar) things
caluminthehood: if you thought the only person who would suffer is you, you're dead wrong

hemmotional: i didn't know that
hemmotional: i'm sorry

caluminthehood: no, of course you didn't know
caluminthehood: you were too busy wallowing in your own self pity because of a stupid lie that YOU MADE UP and decided to act on

hemmotional: i don't know what to say

caluminthehood: good
caluminthehood: how about you listen to me explain something

hemmotional: but cal

caluminthehood: listen to me asshole
caluminthehood: it wasn't just the "romance" that your stupidly insensitive ass fucked up
caluminthehood: it was the fact that your PARENTS took your side
caluminthehood: and mine completely ignored it
caluminthehood: i came out to them and it wasn't a problem, but then they decided to bring up what you did
caluminthehood: and you know what was the best part?
caluminthehood: THEY TOOK YOUR SIDE TOO
caluminthehood: they said it was better for me to be away from him
caluminthehood: because i didn't deserve it
caluminthehood: and i'm supposed to be with a girl to make them proud
caluminthehood: i'm not saying that the family trouble is your fault
caluminthehood: but you got PRAISED for ruining my life

hemmotional: i'm sorry

caluminthehood: i bet you are
caluminthehood: do you know what i got from that experience?
caluminthehood: exiled from my family
caluminthehood: so thank you very much for that
caluminthehood: that will be all

hemmotional: am i still watching duke

caluminthehood: yes you fucking asshole
caluminthehood: you're still watching duke

[ caluminthehood left the chat ]

hemmotional: oh okay

[ hemmotional left the chat ]

[ hemmotional is offline ]

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caluminthehood: sorry it took so long
caluminthehood: kinda got distracted attacking luke

astroash: what do you mean "attacking"

caluminthehood: verbally assaulted him

astroash: what did you say
astroash: if i'm allowed to ask

caluminthehood: [ attachment: 11 images ]

astroash: holy shit :O
astroash: you just destroyed him
astroash: be proud of yourself baby

caluminthehood: i'm not proud
caluminthehood: i'm really fucking angry

astroash: i know
astroash: i'm sorry
astroash: he had no right to do anything like that

caluminthehood: i want to cry
caluminthehood: and murder him
caluminthehood: so badly

astroash: i understand that feeling

caluminthehood: hhhh
caluminthehood: i think i'm gonna go ash

astroash: are you gonna be okay?

caluminthehood: eventually

astroash: i shouldn't leave you alone like this
astroash: you're upset and i want you to feel better

caluminthehood: i know
caluminthehood: i just need to think
caluminthehood: i'll be fine

astroash: are you sure?

caluminthehood: i'm not gonna try and kill myself over this
caluminthehood: because i get to see you soon :-)
caluminthehood: but i swear
caluminthehood: next time i try, i'm not gonna fail

astroash: please don't say that cal
astroash: see this is why i can't leave you alone
astroash: you worry me when you talk like this
astroash: and there's really nothing i can do about it
astroash: fuck fuck fuck

caluminthehood: i'm gonna be okay ash
caluminthehood: don't worry about me

astroash: nonono don't leave
astroash: don't you fucking dare

caluminthehood: i'll be fine

[ caluminthehood is offline ]

astroash: goddammit calum
astroash: fine, i'll let you have some space
astroash: feel better love 🙂
astroash: i'll be right here if you need anything

[ astroash is offline ]

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*laughs nervously* so i told you that i had lukey's redemption planned out...
didn't say that it would work

i promise this will get better, but until then, 1 more chapter and then Cashton meeeeeets!!

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