April 13, 1977

IT HURTS. IT hurts. It hurts.

It hurts when he touches another girl's waist.

It hurts when he holds someone else's hand.

It hurts when he kisses someone the way she wants to be kissed by him.

She can't fucking do this anymore.

She needs to get over him.

She doesn't know how.

Ryan Costello asked her out.

She didn't want to say yes.

She said yes.

What is she doing?

She can't lead someone else on again.

Then how does she get over him?

Why did he have to make her fall for him?

Why does she love him?

Why can't she stop?

She needs to.

She needs to stop.

She needs to stop this right now.

This cannot go on.

She will stop.

She will stop this.

She will go out with Ryan Costello.

She will hope he makes her feel even an ounce of what he makes her feel.

She doesn't think Ryan Costello will.

She hopes still.

She will get over him.

She will stop loving him.

Deep in her heart, she knows the truth.

Deep in her heart, she knows she won't.

Deep in her heart, she knows she will love him forever.