November 21, 1976

Dear Sirius,

Why are you so insufferable?

Ashton is such a good guy, and now because of you, he doesn't even want to be with me anymore. You know, I actually thought I could date him and genuinely like him without having to remember I actually liked you.

Now I know that was pointless thinking because you just never seem to leave me alone, do you? Merlin, you're literally everywhere and I despise you for it. Why did you have to continuously glare at him and question him like that yesterday? You drove him away.

I just don't get you, Sirius. You told me you liked him before. You said you were happy if I was happy. Well, I was happy until you ruined it for me.

It is too hard staying friends with you when you won't even let me move on. Of course, you don't know that I'm trying to get over you but still. I just wish this was easier.

I think I shouldn't have yelled at you earlier. I was angry, I still am a little, but I guess I was too harsh. I just keep seeing that look on your face. How guilty and hurt you looked. If I could take it back, I would.

Adira