I'm still not over last chapter. I'm sad. This chapter is short sorry, I just felt like this needed a special space just for it

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You found yourself in front of your old job, the builing now was abandoned, there was just it's structure. Wood covering the windows, there was not life like it had before. The children running and hiding at the tables, couples having their first dates, happy hours....Everything was gone.

You felt like that. Like the love you had was crushed and Eric's words echoed in your head

"No one will love you. You don't deserve love"

Or your mom always rejecting you.

"Do you think dad will come back mom?" You asked.

"No."she answered.

"But he loves me, he'll come back!"you tried to be optimistic.

"He doesn't love you. You're like his biggest decepetion in his life. Mine too"

"You...you don't love me?"

"No"

-Stop, stop, stupid head!-You said.

-Are you okay?-Someone said behind you, as you turned to see Mrs.Ginger was there, her face with worry.

-Mrs Ginger, hi- You cleaned your face and tried to make it seems like you didn't cry.

-Y/N darling! It's been so long.-She recognized you and gave you a quick hug.- Dear are you alright..?

-Y-Yeah I am.

-No you're not. Don't need to lie. We've known each other for 8 years. I know when you're sad.

-You are right.

-Come on- She grabbed your arm.-Let's have some coffee, like the old times.

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It was almost unbelivable that 2 months have passed since you went to that house. It looked exactly the same. The couches. The 40s aesthetic. The portraits by the fireplace. Everything in its exactly same spot.

You sipped some coffee, the aroma made you feel better, outside started raining.

-Now...-She place her cup gently at the table- Will you tell me what happened.

-Someone I trusted...-You started talking- Did something that really hurt me.

-Do you care about this person?

-A lot.

-And they care about you?

-It's complicated...This person said she did it becauseshe cared about me...But that just makes everything worse.

-I see...-She said drinking some coffee slowly.- Some people are indeed hard to deal.

-Mrs.Ginger you said you've been married right?

-Um...Yes.

-How did you overcame dificulties with your husband?

-Forgetting about them.

-What?

-Things happen. Besides, I couldn't just divorce from him...yet.

-But didn't you get sad? Angry?

-Oh I did. But Y/N soon you'll understand-She leaned like she was telling a secret- At the same time you forget you don't. The trust you had is lost. And no matter what the person won't recover it. If you still have feelings you'll try to continue with them. But you'll never forget the pain this person caused.

-But isn't it better to try to solve it?

-Maybe. But people don't change. You'll notice it.

-But he changed since I met him. He was more open with me.

-And still hurt you.

It was like her words slapped you in the face.

-He loves me. But...I don't know what real love is like.

-Sometimes we need to stop looking for the ideal love and acceot what we have.

-I should just forget and accept him back?

-If you need him yes.

-Need him....-You whispered to yourself thinking- I...I feel like he needs me more...

-So you want to help him?

-I...I like him too...Maybe love, I don't know...

-You sound like you have pity of him.

-I-I don't.

-Then of you are sure of your feelings, then why are you so in doubt about it? You just said he needs you.

-People need each other in relationships.

-If the need it's not mutual then it's not worth it.

You reflected on those words for a second, drank some coffee and said:

-Maybe I should try to talk with him?

-I hope you know what you are accepting though.

You stared at a vase of dead flowers. Now the house seemed different. Like a sudden insecurity took control of you.

-I hope you are not accepting this just to don't feel alone anymore.

Flashbacks coming and leaving fast

"She is not useful like we thought"

-Because that's just fool yourself.-She continued.

" I made an investiment on her, I can't just give her away"

-Because then you turn into and object.

"It didn't work then, look at her. She's weak. Easily manipulated, nothing we wanted"

-And people take advantage from you

"She will be used in many ways, but just if she works"

-And we don't want that right?

"I hate to have given birth to her. I hope she can at least be more than just a weak crybaby all the time. Be of use"

-We don't.-You said.

The cup of coffee started to get colder and colder, like you were capable of doing that, you looked at the liquid. Frozen.

Mrs Ginger took the cup from your hands and placed at the table.

-Try to give him a chance. But never forget of who you are.

-I won't Mrs.Ginger.-You said.

-Prove people they're wrong.

-I will.-You said, giving her a hug saying good bye and leaving.