Love. What and how it is to be in love? I think no writer could in fact put it into words, no matter how many descriptions and details he can give, love is just simply love.

I tried to search in a dictionary the feelibng and got these results:

1.An intense feeling of deep affection;

2.A great interest and pleasure in something;

But how do you know when you're in love? Words are just not enough to aknowledge me of the sensation, the feeling of what is love. No books could teach me how to indetify it, it's not like a decease with simptoms I can find. It's mysterious and sneaky, a little bastard who enters in my heart and messes with my life.

Love led people to many directions in the past, to madness, happiness, tragedies, fortune, everything. It can build and destroys you, it can harm or heal, it can be toxic and holy.

Shakespeare once described true love as "loving a partner for their inner self and all the changes and flaws that come with that person."

I wondered if I could feel that. I wondered if after all that I've been through, if that feeling so desired by humans could be applied to me, if someone could love me.

Did I deserve love? Could a variant receive love even if they aren't meant to exist? Could the destiny, Time-Keepers or whoever is behind this big game called life allow it? Could forces of the universe conspire against or in favor of me having love? Or did it depend only on me?

Did I have a choice to fall in love?

I heard that love can find you in the most unexpected places when you don't think it will ever come to you. What if that already happened to me? What if I lost "the one" for me? Something inside kept telling me otherwise.

Those were the types of thoughts I've had in the last few days since Lamantis, since the kiss, since Mobius' choice. But we were still friends, at least that's what we called each other.

We would go to work together, we would compliment and talk with each other, we'd have that deep connection nobody else has, we'd have times where we'd be hipnotized by each other's presence for hours in silence, we'd be able to understand one another with no words, we'd be one in a billion in that office. And we'd ourselves friends.

A friendship that annoyed Ravonna, the same friendship Bee insisted there was more, the friendship banned by the  Time-Keepers. Just the simple interaction between us both had such an impact that I could never understand.

An impact like the Nexus Event.

We caused it. It happened and it was our fault. If it was between the kiss or the words I don't know, but the matter is that we caused it.

But there was this energy, this unspoken feeling between us, we could try to avoid it but at the same time we couldn't. Every single glance at each other, every smile, every act it seemed that we were attracted to each other.

Just like that day when I was at the library and couldn't reach a book in a shelf.

-Do you need help?-His voice came behind me and I already felt the butterflies.

-It's okay, I can-

Before I could finish the sentence Mobius was faster and reached the book, then touched my shoulder with that big hand of his, almost covering it completely, and gave me the book, our fingers brushing slightly by the contact

-Thank you...-I managed to say something even though I was dying inside.

I was about to walk away when he blocked my path.

-Hm.....What are reading?-He asked with that kind smile of his. He was trying to talk. He wanted to talk.

-A...book...?-I didn't know what to say.

He chuckled.

-I know that silly, I'm asking about the book's title.

-Oh, that.-I answered -It's just something about the TVA, there aren't many books here about anything else.

-Have you ever tried the deposit?

-I'm not authorized to enter there.

-I see...-He answered while looking far away from where we were.

-I'm going now...excuse me.-I tried to walk away.

-Wait-Mobius held my shoulder and my heart speeded.-Can I join you?

-There's only one book.-I closed my eyes, why did I say that?

-I...just want your company.

Why did that hit so hard in me? Mobius always read next to me, so why the shyness now? We were friends. That's all.

-Okay.

Mobius followed me until my hidden spot in the library, it was at the end of a hallway full of books about "TVA's food manual diet" so no one used to go there, just the perfect spot.

I had managed to put a huge pillow on the floor, a lavalamp and a blanket, I would stay there for hours alone, just diving into my reading. No one has seen that place, until now.

I sat on the pillow and, since it was a very narrow aisle between the bookshelves, I indicated for Mobius to sit by my side. He did and I put the blanket above us so he wouldn't be cold. I grabbed the book and started to read.

-It's nice here.-He complimented.

-Thanks.-I replied trying not to take my eyes from the pages.

His shoulder was touching mine, there wasn't almost space for us to move.

-Where did you get that lavalamp?

-Bee gave me.

-Cool.

He wanted to talk with me, but at that moment it wasn't just a sponteneous conversation like we used to have normally, somehow Mobius didn't know what to say, but insisted, it was awkward and I didn't know how to fix it.

-Is the book good?

-Avarage.-I answered, in reality I was bored. The book was about Measurament Methods In Variance of The Sacred Timeline, each page was a torture.

-Really?-That's when he leaned to see the book better, his arm next to me got up and he put it around me, while his face was close to mine so he could read the pages.-Well that's not a very exciting subject...

His blue eyes continued reading the pages while I was already high by his cologne, I could smell it for hours and never get tired of it, it had that comfort aspect of him, that warmness of his body close to mine, the smile on the corner of his lips, the Mobius' essence nobody else had.

-This book's terrible.-He spoke and I chuckled.-What? I might be a TVA agent but for the Time-Keepers' sake, this is so boring!

-Yeah...I...-I yawned- Sorry.

-Did you sleep well last night?

-Yes I did.-No I didn't.

The thing is that last night, before I went to bed, Mobius decided to make a "joke" that made me stay the whole night thinking about it.

"Goodnight Y/N" Mobius told me by the door.

"Goodnight Mobius"I replied with a smile. "Have good dreams"

"Only if you'll be in them" He winked and gave a soft laugh.

I paralyzed but gave a smile, then closed the door with my heart beating nonstop.

-You don't seem to have gotten enough sleep.-He insisted.

-I can't sleep now-I tried to stay awake- The dorms are locked at this hour. And it's prohibited to sleep in bussiness hours.

-You can take a nap here, I won't tell anyone.

-Where?

-I'll get out and you can sleep-

-No.-I replied quickly and he got surprised by my answer.-Um...can you stay here?

-If that doesn't bother you.

-Can I...?-I pointed to his shoulder.

He touched my face and reclined it on his shoulder for me to rest.

-You don't need to ask-He chuckled- It has always been yours.

I gave a shy smile and closed my eyes feeling his cologne and the touch of his skin.

Mobius' POV

Y/N was sleeping peacefully by my side, she seemed so adorable sleeping. I relied my head on hers and carressed her cheek with my hand.

I was so awkward these days, last night I even tried to make a lame "joke" and I think she hated it. I'm terrible in these things, I don't even know what I'm doing. I try to say something but end up saying useless things. Sometimes I feel like an idiot.

I noticed one of her hands intertwined with mine while she slept. Her fingers holding mine tightly while she dreamed.

"I wonder how you'd react if you could know what I'm feeling now"I thought to myself. "But maybe it's better if you don't"

I dared myself and gave a light kiss on her head. She didn't wake up, and I continued there, just letting her sleep peacefully. Peace, that's all I ever wanted for her.

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I woke up alone in the library, by my side there was only a book with a note:

"I've found this in the deposit, do you like Jane Austen?"

The book was Pride and Prejudice, and yes, I've read before, one of my favorites. I grabbed the book so happily in my hands and started reading it so enthusiastically that I forgot about time, I forgot about everything, just immersed myself in the pages and throwed the "TVA's whatever that was manual" away.

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I met Mobius later, it was sunset and I was walking through the cafeteria to meet Bee at the hall.

-Did you receive the book?-He asked with a half smile.

-I received and started to read it! -I answered excited- How did you guess I LOVE that book!

-I'm happy to know you enjoyed it.

-I really, really loved it Mobius, thank you so much-I gave him a huge hug and, sponteneously, gave him a kiss on the cheek.

Even I surprised myself with the touch of his soft skin in my lips, I almost wished I could do that longer. When I aparted Mobius had his cheeks blushed and a shy smile.

-Y-You're welcome-He chuckled and tried to avoid my gaze but we couldn't take our eyes from each other.

The book was much more than just a story at that moment, it meant more, it meant that the man in front of me was trying, in any way he could, to make me feel welcomed in that corporation, he has been doing that since I entered, he was the only one who truly understood how lost sometimes I felt there.

I was walking away when he said:

-Y/N.

-Yes?-I turned to him.

-Say a place.

-What?

-Any place in the world, the first one in your mind now.

-Oh wait, that's a hard question-I chuckled-Hm...South Korea? Or Singapure? Canada? Oh no wait, Germany! Wait, why the question?

-Tomorrow morning before work I'll appear at your door, be ready.-He smiled and walked away.

-Wait! Mobius!!-He continued walking - What do you mean...?

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He did exactly as he said. Before the TVA's alarms echoed through the corporation for work, before all the agents woke up to their daily monotone lives, before anyone could see, Mobius was there at my door.

-Ready?-He asked with a smile, he was planning something.

-Where are we going?-I asked.

-Oh wait-He put his hands around me suddenly and my heart speeded, then he fastly took off my coat and put aside in my room.-Now you are ready.

-Why did you do that...?

-I'm not a fan of a coat who has "variant" with capital letters on the back-He said and I smiled- Besides we need to mix with the crowd, we don't have much time.

-What are you planning Mobius?-I chuckled.

-If I tell you it won't be a surprise anymore-He grabbed my hand and with his other pressed a button in his timepad.

-Can we do that?

-Technically no.-He smirked and we entered.

Oh wow, how do I even describe it?There was a clear blue sky without clouds above us, lots of people walked through the busy streets, trees of different species created an incredible landscape in contrast with the high urbanization filled with skyscrapers. Everything looked so alive, so colorful that left me breathless for a moment admiring it.

-Where are we?-I asked Mobius.

-This is Seoul, South Korea 2018.-He answered.

Just then I realized.

"Say a place in the world"

-Oh My God!!-I gave little jumps excited.

-Don't get too excited, we don't have much time, it'll be a quick tour around downtown and we'll go back to the TVA, we can't stay longer or it will cause a branch.

-It's okay, this is amazing already!-I grabbed his arm and shaked him-Where do we go first ??

-I already have a tour planned-He took two tickets from his pocket-There it is.

He made a sign to a huge vehicle approaching, it was a metallic bus, everything was written in a foreign language so I couldn't understand the destiny.

Mobius helped me enter (because there were huge steps of stairs in the entrance and I am clumsy), then gave the tickets to a serious man with dark hair and hands glued to the wheel.

As we were walking further in the cabin we realized there weren't many seats availble, leaving us standing and holding on some hooks that hanged from the ceiling.

A man standed behind of me, he was a little taller than Mobius and was bigger than him too, but what scared me was that everytime he managed to bump his body into mine, even when the bus wasn't shaking.

I didn't say a word. Mobius just said "excuse me" and standed behind of me, I felt glad by the protective gesture.

The man asked something to him, maybe by his tone he was trying to argue, but Mobius just answered serious:

-그녀는 나의 여자 친구 다.-Just when he said that, the man furrowed his eyebrows and walked away to another part of the bus.

-What did you tell him?-I asked.

-Just to give space, I don't know much Korean.

-Thank you-I smiled without looking at him.

The bus suddenly shaked, probably passed through a hole at the street, and, luckily, Mobius was there behind of me, I lost balance but he wrapped his arms around me, keeping me safe. His touch made my heart melt.

-Are you okay?-He asked by my ear and I had chills.

-Yes...-My voice sounded like a whisper.

The bus stopped and more passengers left it.

-There are empty seats at the back, let's go.-He indicated and led me to the back of the bus.

Mobius and I sat on bench and stood side by side,our shoulders touching as the bus shaked and I observed the horizont outside. The city, so vivid changing, with many stores and lives at the same time.

Mobius' POV

Y/N was dazzled by Seoul's view while I was enchanted by her figure. She seemed so happy just looking at those buildings and children across the streets. She had such a pure heart that she could be happy just by the simple things, things that ordinary people didn't notice how much they had.

-Look at that Mobius!-She said excited-Oh and that! Wow and what is that?

I chuckled observing how energetic and curious she got, starting to ask questions nonstop while I tried to answer as many as I could.

-Why people here are hurrying so much?-She observed some men in suits running with their cases through the sidewalk looking at their watches.

-They're probably going to work.

-They don't even look at the city.

-People who have the opportunity to all of this are the ones who don't value it.

-That's sad.

-Yes it is.

She relied her head on the seat and I continued observing  the little rays of sunshine coming through the window iluminating her delicate face, while her Y/E/C eyes wandered through the streets of Seoul.

-Have you ever came here before?-She asked turning to me.

-Yes, a few times.-I answered.

-In missions?

-Only in missions.

She nodded with her head and remained silent. The other passengers in the bus procceded with their lives already written by the destiny, while both of us were there, almost breaking time.

-That's beautiful.-I said while she observed a tree full of flowers passing fastly past us.

-Hm? Yes, so many flowers.-She said.

-I was talking about you, but the flowers are cute too.-I teased.

She blushed and tried to say something but her voice stuttered so much that she couldn't say anything.

-W-Why are you saying that...-She tried to look away embarrassed.

-Wanna know?-I asked and standed my hand towards her.-Go ahead.

-There's no need-

-I don't mind.

She observed my hand standing for a solid minute, she hesited, almost scared of what she could find, then finally touched it.

A little glow came from her hands, just like they always had when she used her powers, but nobody cared enough to look at us, so we just stayed there, in silence, while Y/N just felt all the hurricane I had inside my heart.

Y/N's POV

It was just like Lamantis. The same confusing but glad emotions I've felt before. The warm but cold sensation that gave me butterflies, the same ones I felt sometimes when I was next to him. And those emotions he felt were towards me.

It had happiness and joy, they weren't sad, they were just...bright, light but heavy emotions inside his chest.

-I...I really think you're beautiful.-Mobius said all of sudden.-I'm just being honest.

-Yes you are.-I said while feeling his emotions, he had a bit of fear to say those words, but most of all he was totally sincere.

I could've taken my hand off, I really could, but the beautiful city around us, the plenty of lives coexisting at that cabin, the warm sun iluminating us from the sky, all made me feel a good sensation. I closed my eyes and smiled, while he intertwined his fingers with mine.

I liked that. I liked the touch of his skin on mine, even if I couldn't know what he felt, it just felt natural to us, I felt like Mobius was the only one who I'd ever feel comfortoable to do that with. The only one who I'd be myself and don't worry about my mistakes, don't worry about my many questions or annoying and fragile behaviour. And he also seemed different with me, he seemed more honest, more willing to take risks, to express how he felt, not just be what others expected him to be or to do, he could be whatever he wanted next to me.

We stayed like that the whole traject until Mobius said that we were on our last part of the tour. He said it would be a surprise.

We got out from the bus and walked towards a part where we could see a big river, the waters blue and deep, just like Mobius' eyes while we walked with our hands glued to each other's.

I then noticed the huge tower in front of us, so high, so imponent and different.

-What is that?

-That's Namsam Tower.-Mobius replied.-Give me a second please.

He suddenly left me there alone staring at the tower.

I felt lonely by the sea of people walking, and worse, by the many couples next to a bridge nearby.

After a while Mobius got back running, his tie shaking by the wind and the hair a fluffy mess.

-Why did you run?-I chuckled observing the white mess on his head.

-I...Phew-He caught his breath- Didn't want to leave you waiting. I was just buying something.

I shaked my head and couldn't hold myself, I led my hand to his hair and managed to put it into place, the strands were so soft that I could easily keep doing that for a while, Mobius gave a cute smile as I finished.

-We are going to that bridge.-He pointed where the couples were taking photos and smiling.

-What's so important there?

-There is a story about it.

-Okay you convinced me. Let's go.

We walked through the bridge and I got speechless by it. It wasn't a normal bridge, on both sides many, and when I say many are really MANY, locks were tied to it, in all different colors and shapes, some even with messages written.

I observed one:

"R + J"

And around it a heart drawn.

-It's so cute.-I chuckled observing the colorful bridge.

-This is the N Seoul Tower Bridge. Every year many couples come here to put padlocks in this bridge, they call it love padlocks. It symbolizes that their love will last forever.

-How do you know all those things?-I chuckled.

-I try to know something about each of my missions' locations.

I nodded and observed the 2 women happily holding hands and with...a dog.

-Is that a dog?!-I gasped surprised, Mobius gave a bright smile.

-Yes, that's a dog.

-He is so cute!-I observed the yellow big dog walking with the couple.-Can I pet him?

-The timeline Y/N.-Mobius adverted.

-Oh, right, okay...-I controlled myself and observed the dog peacefully walk through the bridge- What do you think it's his name? Fluffy? Meatball? Ooh, Jonathan!

-What about Mr.I Need to Tell You Something?-He said.

-That's a weird...-I looked at Mobius and he lifted his eyebrows cetic.-Oh, you want to tell me something.

I turned to him, Mobius seemed nervous,  he took a deep breath and stared outside the bridge at the river, the quiet breeze passing between us as he tried to say.

-I...It's quite hard to say this sorry.-He chuckled-I look pathetic don't I?

-Of course not. Don't say that.-I lifted his chin to look at me.- Go ahead. Say it.

Mobius nodded and I let his chin go. He looked at me for a second then said:

-I can't pretend I forgot what happened in Lamentis.- His words caught me off guard.- I...I think about it everytime.

And I did too. The memories would neve leave me and I didn't want to let them go either. As much as we tried what happened to us  did change how we felt.

-And what...-

-I think I'm in love with you.-He said fastly, almost in a nervous act because he wouldn't be able to say it if he didn't say it now.

-You-

-I don't know how this is yet, I...All I knew my whole life was to work at the TVA...-Mobius gave a shy smile- So maybe I'm mistaken but I've never been so sure before.

I didn't even know what to say.

-I know you and I...we are friends but...-He sighed- I can't just stay as friends anymore.-His eyes were so intense staring in mine- I'm sorry but I can't.

-But I'm still a variant...-I told him- You shouldn't-

-I know.-He nodded- But I still want you.

My heart was beating fast as I looked at him. And at that moment everything felt right, everything felt like it was supposed to be that way.

And I had courage to do what I did.

I put my hands at Mobius' face and looked at him sweetly:

-Are you sure?-I asked.

He grabbed one of my hands and kissed it.

-Yes. -He got nervous again- If you feel the same of course...Because if you don't it's okay too, I mean I-

I pulled Mobius in my direction and had my second kiss. Now I had the courage to do it and I realized we felt the same. I realized we both were starting to feel in love. And the world seemed so alive, so incredibly perfect.

His touch was perfect, the taste of his lips in mine, his hand carressing my back as I touched slowly his hair and closed my eyes to everything. I just dived into that sensation and realized that nothing else mattered at that single moment.

When we aparted we were breathless and chuckling.

-Can you really love someone like me?-He questioned with a whisper- I'm not a courageous variant or a hero...I'm just a guy working in a boring corporation.

-If only you knew how much you are to me.-I whispered back and hugged him tightly.

-Then I'm glad I've bought this- He aparted a bit and took something from his pocket. A white and gold padlock.

I took it into my hands and observed the heartshaped lock in my hands.

-Is it too silly for you?-He asked.

-Dp you have a pen?-O asked having an idea.

-A pen?Uh let me see...-He searched through the pockets of his suit and took out one- Here.

O took the pen and started writting, applying a bit of strength on the metallic surface. Then showed it to him:

-What do you think?-I asked.

Mobius chuckled, his eyes had a glow of happiness in them, they sparkled with joy.

-M + (Y/N/Initial) ?-He smiled while reading the writting.

-It has a nice ring doesn't it?

-It really does.-He carressed my face.-Unfortunetly we can't hang it on the bridge or it would mess the timeline.

-It's okay, I'll keep it with me.-I held the memento in my hands and observed the horizont with him.

Mobius relied his head on mine. His feelings were so bright, like he had taken a huge weight from his back by finally saying those words.

-From all the times I've came here...-He said- Seoul never looked so pretty.

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We were back at the TVA, we left South Korea just moments before the branch was created, and as much as I wanted to stay it was good to be back.

Mobius was with me at the hallway, the time in the TVA didn't change since we left, nobody had waken up yet.

-Are you sure you can do this?-Mobius asked again- Have a relationship in secret?

Relationship. Just the sound of the world seemed so...desireful. "I'm in a relationship" I smiled to myself thinking about those words.

But we need do remain in secret, stealing moments here and there because we weren't supposed to be together, I did it, I had a forbidden romance just like the ones I used to read, but as much as it sounded good, it had a also huge fear of getting caught.

-I don't want to force y9u into this Y/N.-Mobius spoke worried.-If Ravonna or-

-It won't happen.-I held his hands- Nothing bad will happen. We'll be fine. You are not forcing me Mobius-I looked fiercely in his eyes- I'm with you because I want to. It has been like that since the begginning, you know that.

Mobius nodded slowly with his head, I couldn't feel his emotions anymore but I knew that he was concerned, he was always worried about me. But I wanted him to believe it could somehow work. I didn't want him to fear the future.

-Alright.-He answered in a low voice.-Then I guess I'll see you later?

-Yes. Later.

You know what's the worse part of just confessing your feelings or realizing them? Is when you noticed you don't want to leave that person. It's when you don't want to let their hand go, and specially in our case, have to pretend to others that nothing happened.

When Mobius walked away I felt a part of me ache. Each step he gave through the hallway seemed hard for me, and I got scared by how attached I was to him.

-Mobius wait-I held his arm- I...-I didn't even have something to say, I just wanted him there.

He pulled me close into a passionate kiss wich I just gave myself into, whenever he did that I felt like I couldn't live without his touch anymore, that act of love just made me fall more for him, and I think he fell more for me too.

When he aparted I was still opening my eyes, the charming view of his figure in front of me catching his breath, his hand still placed at my back gently.

-I-I'm sorry.-He spoke shy.

-Don't be.-I replied and he opened his eyes surprised but gave a glad smile.

The alarm echoed through the hallway, it was time to get back, time to hide.

-I'll see you later.-He spoke.

I nodded and he walked away, turning back a few times to see me, we both with goofy smiles across our lips, just like two teens in love.

I looked at the padlock in my hands.

I wanted that to last forever.